My world is falling...

[Guest guest]

I haven't posted in a long time, sorry K friends. My K has been very active in

the last 3 weeks and it's been driving my atheist husband up the wall. I've

been having a great time besides the forgetfullness here and there, the " brain

farts " and the temporary/slight blindness. But my jokes are good, gotta give

myself some credit, I have confidence in myself again...the list goes on about

how great it feels.

 

I've been managing to take my kids to school, take care of them, go to appts, do

normal things. My hubby has been a worry wart, so my counselor suggested I go

back on my meds. Now that I'm back on my meds I'm more depressed than ever. I

don't want to watch tv, I fall asleep. I get frustrated with my husband and my

kids now. When is this going to end? I feel like someone just gave the tiger

inside of me a tranquilizer. Sorry to kill some of your buzzes out there, but

I'm jealous that you don't have to deal with this. In case you've forgot I'm

the one that experienced the Kundalini in India and didn't know what it

was...everyone thinks it's a drug called Lariam and I know that it may have

triggered the K, I believe in myself enough to cross over the black abyss and

make it to the other side. I feel like I'm the only one in the world that

believes in myself. Besides my real family that lives hours away.

 

Laura

[Guest guest]

Hi Laura, I do remember you, after you jogged my memory. We have had several

Lauras here. Sorry to hear you are having family problems because of your K. I

don't know what to advise, but if it was me I would be having a heart to heart

with hubby and let him know the meds are causing depression. Why should you have

to feel miserable just to ease his worrying?

 

Love and blessings,

Linda

 

, " Laura " <lo1o113

wrote:

>

> I haven't posted in a long time, sorry K friends. My K has been very active

in the last 3 weeks and it's been driving my atheist husband up the wall. I've

been having a great time besides the forgetfullness here and there, the " brain

farts " and the temporary/slight blindness. But my jokes are good, gotta give

myself some credit, I have confidence in myself again...the list goes on about

how great it feels.

>

I feel like I'm the only one in the world that believes in myself. Besides my

real family that lives hours away.

>

> Laura

>

[Guest guest]

Oh blessed Laura. You give me happy chills hearing from you. A huge, comforting

welcome home to KAS and embrace! (Chrism will be in Phoenix in April, Laura.) My

heart believes in you...so deeply; though there is nothing stronger and more

powerful than one trusting in her/his own truth.

 

Love:

Danielle

 

, " Laura " <lo1o113

wrote:

>

> I haven't posted in a long time, sorry K friends.

>

I feel like I'm the only one in the world that believes in myself. Besides my

real family that lives hours away.

>

> Laura

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Laura

All my love and support for you.

I have also asked for some support here when I feel things are bad at home and

with my hubby. Deb has given me so much support and guide on that.

I know what is pretend that life is normal or the same when all changed so badly

!

Believe in yourself is the best you can have. It is a proof that you are in the

right path.

I will try to encourage you to do an activity that makes you happy something

that you can do to help with depression..some sport, playing an instrument,

drawing, dancing etc

I send you all the light of god to feel your heart with Joy !

Monica

 

--- El mar 9-feb-10, Laura <lo1o113 escribió:

 

 

De: Laura <lo1o113

Asunto: My world is falling...

A:

Fecha: martes, 9 febrero, 2010, 6:53 pm

 

 

 

 

 

 

I haven't posted in a long time, sorry K friends. My K has been very active in

the last 3 weeks and it's been driving my atheist husband up the wall. I've been

having a great time besides the forgetfullness here and there, the " brain farts "

and the temporary/slight blindness. But my jokes are good, gotta give myself

some credit, I have confidence in myself again...the list goes on about how

great it feels.

 

I've been managing to take my kids to school, take care of them, go to appts, do

normal things. My hubby has been a worry wart, so my counselor suggested I go

back on my meds. Now that I'm back on my meds I'm more depressed than ever. I

don't want to watch tv, I fall asleep. I get frustrated with my husband and my

kids now. When is this going to end? I feel like someone just gave the tiger

inside of me a tranquilizer. Sorry to kill some of your buzzes out there, but

I'm jealous that you don't have to deal with this. In case you've forgot I'm the

one that experienced the Kundalini in India and didn't know what it

was...everyone thinks it's a drug called Lariam and I know that it may have

triggered the K, I believe in myself enough to cross over the black abyss and

make it to the other side. I feel like I'm the only one in the world that

believes in myself. Besides my real family that lives hours away.

 

Laura

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

Hi Danielle,

It's so good to hear from you! Thanks you deeply for the words of wisdom,

sisters.

I saw an Indian man the other day at a resaurant when I was with my husband and

his family, he walked past the two tables that split us up and when he walked by

he said " there's peace here " He continued on with his friends cracking jokes and

eating after that. I think I'm the only one who heard him say that. I'm 99%

sure that's what he said.

Anways...Danielle thank you so much for letting me know will be here in

April. I don't know how I'll get there, but I'll pray for it. I will try to

go. I'm going to listen to some music and dance!

 

Laura

 

, " iamwaitingmoon "

<iamwaitingmoon wrote:

>

> Oh blessed Laura. You give me happy chills hearing from you. A huge,

comforting welcome home to KAS and embrace! (Chrism will be in Phoenix in April,

Laura.) My heart believes in you...so deeply; though there is nothing stronger

and more powerful than one trusting in her/his own truth.

>

> Love:

> Danielle

>

> , " Laura " <lo1o113@>

wrote:

> >

> > I haven't posted in a long time, sorry K friends.

> >

> I feel like I'm the only one in the world that believes in myself. Besides my

real family that lives hours away.

> >

> > Laura

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Dear Laura,

 

I'm sorry to hear about the problems you are having and that your husband &

counsellor feel you need medicating. What are the symptoms that are disturbing

them? What medication are you taking to 'cover' those symptoms? Are YOU happy

taking the medication?

 

Can you let us know more, as we may know of other non-evasive ways for you to

keep others happy without drugging yourself into unnecessary depression.

 

Iona x

 

, " Laura " <lo1o113

wrote:

>

> I haven't posted in a long time, sorry K friends. My K has been very active

in the last 3 weeks and it's been driving my atheist husband up the wall. I've

been having a great time besides the forgetfullness here and there, the " brain

farts " and the temporary/slight blindness. But my jokes are good, gotta give

myself some credit, I have confidence in myself again...the list goes on about

how great it feels.

>

> I've been managing to take my kids to school, take care of them, go to appts,

do normal things. My hubby has been a worry wart, so my counselor suggested I

go back on my meds. Now that I'm back on my meds I'm more depressed than ever.

I don't want to watch tv, I fall asleep. I get frustrated with my husband and

my kids now. When is this going to end? I feel like someone just gave the

tiger inside of me a tranquilizer. Sorry to kill some of your buzzes out there,

but I'm jealous that you don't have to deal with this. In case you've forgot

I'm the one that experienced the Kundalini in India and didn't know what it

was...everyone thinks it's a drug called Lariam and I know that it may have

triggered the K, I believe in myself enough to cross over the black abyss and

make it to the other side. I feel like I'm the only one in the world that

believes in myself. Besides my real family that lives hours away.

>

> Laura

>

[Guest guest]

Iona,

I love my counselor, but he is a very traditional Christian man. My

physciatrist, (a different person) when I first saw him, I took a test that he

does for all of his patients. He later told me that alot of people that come

into his office " think " they have depression and actually have ADD. I thought,

lol, yeah right! I think he was right. I was so obsessed with " fixing " my

broken marriage that I couldn't focus on cleaning house and wifely duties. Now

that this " awakening " is happening again..the same thing that happened in India,

my husband is freaking out because I'm laughing so hard, he thinks I'm

" tripping " on the drug that we took in India called Lariam. It reacts almost

the same way acid would a person.

 

I have been interpretting my dreams in a positive way. I try to explain them to

my husband and yes I get emotional about it, and he's comforting, but still

" wants " the problem to be Lariam...maybe so he can sue the drug company and get

some cash? I don't know. My husband is very manipulative, he's been

manipulating me since day...I don't know 2, lol! He made a joke a long time

ago...there's always some truth in every joke I've been told. He said, " well

the military was able to brain wash you, so can I. " Not funny to me.

 

I've been starting to go to church to teach my children and open up the

spiritual doors. My husband gets angry and says some mean things, one time he

said people that go to church are mindless idiots that can't think for

themselves. I said, " yeah we are, because we care about people like you "

Everytime I read the Bible, it makes sense to me, all of it. I've studied other

religions a bit here and there too and they all make sense to me as well. But

since I am a Christ follower, I will continue to be. My " Christian " family

doesn't think I'm crazy when I speak with them on the phone, in fact they are

the only people there for me, well besides the people on this board! I'm so

greatful for this board...more than words to describe!

Thank you so much for your concerns, I hope to find the answers soon.

 

Laura

 

, " ionaskydancer "

<ionaskydancer wrote:

>

> Dear Laura,

>

> I'm sorry to hear about the problems you are having and that your husband &

counsellor feel you need medicating. What are the symptoms that are disturbing

them? What medication are you taking to 'cover' those symptoms? Are YOU happy

taking the medication?

>

> Can you let us know more, as we may know of other non-evasive ways for you to

keep others happy without drugging yourself into unnecessary depression.

>

> Iona x

>

> , " Laura " <lo1o113@>

wrote:

> >

> > I haven't posted in a long time, sorry K friends. My K has been very active

in the last 3 weeks and it's been driving my atheist husband up the wall. I've

been having a great time besides the forgetfullness here and there, the " brain

farts " and the temporary/slight blindness. But my jokes are good, gotta give

myself some credit, I have confidence in myself again...the list goes on about

how great it feels.

> >

> > I've been managing to take my kids to school, take care of them, go to

appts, do normal things. My hubby has been a worry wart, so my counselor

suggested I go back on my meds. Now that I'm back on my meds I'm more depressed

than ever. I don't want to watch tv, I fall asleep. I get frustrated with my

husband and my kids now. When is this going to end? I feel like someone just

gave the tiger inside of me a tranquilizer. Sorry to kill some of your buzzes

out there, but I'm jealous that you don't have to deal with this. In case

you've forgot I'm the one that experienced the Kundalini in India and didn't

know what it was...everyone thinks it's a drug called Lariam and I know that it

may have triggered the K, I believe in myself enough to cross over the black

abyss and make it to the other side. I feel like I'm the only one in the world

that believes in myself. Besides my real family that lives hours away.

> >

> > Laura

> >

>