K Symptom?-Julia and others

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Dear Julia and All:   Re: Bliss and It's Effects on Daily Life

 

Bliss has interfered with my ability to function in terms of daily life

regarding being able to successfully deal with decision making and 

implementing those decisions  as the financial  provider of my family.  In

fact, the entire K journey has effected my functioning in this regard.

 

When I became K functioning back in 1993, I just wanted to give myself over so

completely to the process that it created a crisis for me in regard to my family

responsibilities:  I had to plead for the phenomena to cease so I could

function at all!  Fortunately, I was heard, and I have stumbled along on a

daily basis, but the " Inner Pull " to surrender completely to the k process and

journey           has been there virtually every day of my life since

then.  The pain of that  has only been bearable because my love for my family

and  the recognition that I have a responsibility to them enables me to endure

the grief that putting aside of full attention to the k journey has required of

me.

 

I am a traditional Christian, attending the Catholic church, but having been

raised Protestant.  I  like you Julia, have struggled with the idea of past

lives, and have come to the place in my life where I just let the ? be there. 

I don't have to have an answer for myself.  But I do believe in regard to my

own life, that I have had a choice:   In this life  to live the life that

would focus on my own K development, or live the life of surrender and service

to those I love.  For me, the 2 when viewed as equal are not compatible:  I

have had to choose, because the k process for me requires a total surrender to

Itself.  I feel, that the choice I have made COULD  BE due to having to

resolve past issues with these loved ones from  past lives.  Whether or not

this may be true is less important for me than just following the direction of

what feels and seems right to me, and that is the choice I have made.

 

So the struggle with the INNER LONGING and pull to surrender to the k process

completely, is with me every day, and there are days I cannot function because

the pull is so great., but as says:  " No worries! "   There will come a

time, when I am able to completely surrender to K, and then, ????? 

 

,

 

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Julia <jajahern

 

Thu, February 25, 2010 9:59:08 AM

Re: K Symptom?-Julia

 

 

Hi Linda,

 

Being partly in the physical and partly in the spirit realm makes sense to me.

Aahhh re your bliss.... it will return as well you know. My blissing has stopped

again and who knows when it will return. it is like I am still connected to the

oneness but I am no longer the oneness itself!! Linda have you found that bliss

is not that easy to live with if truth be told. If I lived all on my own I think

I could handle it but living as I do I am not able to maintain it...oops that is

not quite right either Linda... living as i do it is not given to me for too

long as I don't think I could manage it. Not sure if that makes sense to read

lol!

Once I start writing I just go and on and on..... shut me up!!!

Love Julia

 

Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , " danceswithcats999 "

<crazycats711@ ...> wrote:

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> It goes click, click, click, off and on , off and on, like a light switch, but

there are long pauses inbetween, in that it is not constant going every second

of the day. Sometimes it is loud popping sounds like Deb stated and the wavery

feeling, vertigo at times is with it. I have been wondering if it was caused

from being partly in the physical and partly in the spirit realm. It feels alot

like when having an OBE where you are weaving in and out, but not actually

getting out of your body completely. I'll have to look for my bliss. Hehe!

>

> Love,

> LInda

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> Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , " Julia " <jajahern@>

wrote:

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