Guest guest Posted March 8, 2010 Report Share Posted March 8, 2010 Dear Shrikant, I, like Sparrow, hope I am not encroaching on your relationship with Chrism regarding this matter. I smoked for a long time (about 17 years), and put many other things in my body too. I never thought of myself as a smoker, as I would mainly do it on the weekends when I went to parties, yet there were times it would creep into the week. That said, I found it difficult to quit. I enjoyed many things about smoking, the ritual, the company, the alcohol, yet my body also began to tell me that it was time to let go. I quit not by quitting, but being fully aware. I would notice the impulse to smoke arising. I would notice the thoughts and feelings. If I lit a cigarette, i would notice how I smoked, how the smoke curled, my feelings, and any inner jugdment. I just kept on paying as much attention as I could. What I found was that a lot of my smoking was a dissipation of shadow energy, and by being present, I could explore that. Some smoking phases were longer than others. When I was smoking more, i knew that i would try and stop when the right moment came, and I would try, and then start again 2, 3 or 4 weeks later. Sometimes 2 months later. Its been about 7 months now since my last cigarette, and in the preceding year, I maybe smoked 3 or 4 times. Yet, by paying awareness, I felt I mastered cigarettes, and if I wanted to have one now, I would have no problem having one and quitting. I have no desire for cigarretes, yet if I really wanted to, then no problem. Quitting for me was a form of tantra; through paying awareness to the experience as it arose and bring full attention, the experience itself became a vehicle of transformation. The same with other experiences - sex, travelling, living abroad, etc etc... From one perspective, the more you experience, the less there is to hold onto.. lol.. love Bruce , shrikant phule <shrikantphule wrote: > > Dear Master Chrism, > > I wish to be included in coming Shaktipat. > > I have changed my mind after advice from a good friend of mine. > > I will be  posting my photograph, today for being in the list....................................................shrikant > > > > > ________________________________ > shrikant phule <shrikantphule > > Mon, 8 March, 2010 9:26:18 AM > Re: > >  > Hi Chrism, > > I wanted to be included in Shaktipat, but as I am not able to detach from my vice of tobacco intake, I wish to postpone.I feel as I am not able to leave this dirty vice, it's of no use having Shaktipat. >  I am surrendering more to tobbaco which I know I should not......... ...shrikant > > The INTERNET now has a personality. YOURS! See your Homepage. http://in.. com/ > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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