Guest guest Posted March 10, 2010 Report Share Posted March 10, 2010 Hi Deb, this is a great post love Bruce , " flowerpowers7777 " <flowerpowers7777 wrote: > > > Hi - it's me again...(; > > Just want to add to what I said Diane that you always know whats best for you and taking time for the energy to integrate the energy you already have makes great sense. always says fast is not always best. > > Another thing to try is carrying a picture of someone with you so when those emotions hit you can look into their eyes. I shall try this next full moon! (; Someone that gives you strength and that you love unconditionally. Perhaps a parent a picture of yourself when you felt strong a picture of whoever represents divinity to you - Buddha - Jesus - Shakti - Shiva - a picture of Chrism a picture of a best friend. Then if you try a little self - talk look into their eyes. > > Last month finally I was able to not be hard on myself for the feelings that came up. That was big for me. I do not usually or ever (: get things the first time - I usually fail many times before I learn something. So I'm laughing at your words - perhaps I will call you on the full moon ... buhwah! > > The other thing I did was when I went into the bathroom when the feelings came a calling part of my self talk was saying Deb is someone stabbing you with a knife? No... Deb nothing bad is happening to you in this moment - buck up girl - feelings of something in the past or perceived future is all your illusion. This moment is just you with yourself -Not that this stops me from my storm but it helps to start clear the waves from smacking me in the face. > > It's funny how Shakti will bring up all those emotions you may have lived at some time in your past and intensify them - or your fears - or your insecurities... feelings of loss or heartache or whatever - aloneness or failure - > > You know whats strange - during these moments I tell myself the emotions coming up I never had as hard a time with while they were happening and here I am feeling these things so intense now. So this is part of the self-talk of staying in the moment - or helping me out of the moment of perceived suffering. In actuality noone is hurting me ever in those moments! Something will happen that reminds me of a feeling - a loss - a fear - a worry - and bam! there I am again in my story of suffering > > I remind myself of all the what I call illusion tests Shakti brought me. The stuff that comes up is always our stuff - seems I have to face all my illusions and insecurities until I can feel them and KNOW that they are not real - She will make them real of course by bringing you experiences in your now until you can completely realize this is your lack of trust in the divine - to trust no matter what can be tricky - yet the truth is each challenge has always been about my insecurities - past experiences that left a strong emotional charge - > she will bring those up through other people or things (at least for me) > > It never changes until I can completely KNOW that divinity has my back - to trust this - until I can look at whatever fear or insecurity and FEEL finally it has no power over me - yes I can feel that insecurity but I KNOW i will be okay - complete trust - > > Last full moon I finally did not feel bad at myself for the feelings that came. Perhaps this one if something comes up I can look at it and stand in the storm and know its just a story = an illusion - to grab that opportunity to watch the story without identifying myself with it - > > Of course there is always the option of running into a beautiful forest and hiding out there until the full moon passes.. but there is no hiding from yourself...I hate that rule! ha > > see that ... more resistance ... there is no resisting anything anymore - > Are you trying to resist this post - me too and I'm the one writing it ... > > I'm still feeling lots of bliss at night. I can't lie - I like it ... I like it a lot. I could easily die the happiest person in the world in that - So while this all may sound hard and trying there is that ecstasy that when I am in it .. I don't care about anything else - I don't care if a sword would pierce my heart - I don't care if the roof falls on me - I just throw myself into it - the feelings of energy at the beginning were so scary and now there is nothing in my life that I have ever experienced that could come close to this. It shoots up and through me - I cannot help but throw myself into it - so completely - so easy it is to surrender to it all - to bathe in it - god it is purely the most beautiful feeling the most intoxicating the most love i have ever felt inside me coming out of me for me for all - it is so beautiful that i cannot wait until the end of my life when i can do nothing else but feel this always - it makes me want to run to all the nursing homes and shout to them to throw themselves in it - to die in this bliss - to see thousands upon thousands of elderly just blissing out as they leave this world - what a beautiful sight that would be - no more would anyone concern themselves with death -can you imagine what funerals would like then -- watching video clips of their loved ones blissing the heck out - who could feel bad that they died? > > Its strange the things that run through my mind ... isn't it? (: > > So when its hard I know i am not having fun (: - (put some nasty words in here and call me on the full moon) - it would be nice if I was not such a slow learner... you think? ... > > I am laughing at you about that book... > > See her Breathe > See her Free > See her OUCH > run right into that tree > > I love you too - you are our pillar of strength - you give your life for all of us for all of this and I'm so grateful for you and all you do - watch out I'm gonna stick a picture of you in my pocket next month ... I'll look at it and hear you telling me to stop running into trees! > > Lots of love filled chi balls to all of you - its night now - Did I mention how much I love the night ? (:(: > > Mia D (aka other Deb) > > , " " <@> wrote > > a book - lets see - called???? > > > > The ramblings of a Kundalini humorous in motion??? Or how a Kundalite survives the process or give me K with a cherry on top??? > > > > I love you Deb/Mia ... > > e > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 10, 2010 Report Share Posted March 10, 2010 OH how you make me smile and tear up at the same time. You alone tell the good the bad and the ugly you alone show us that it is not all pink bunnies and fluffy turtles- or purple fairies and persimmon puppies (get the picture ) you alone share the real true every day events that most of us will be experiencing. The facts - the true honest to goodness facts ( as you experience them)and I so want to thank you. I so want to tell you how much it means to me that you explain what happens to you and how you deal with it. Your blueprints help me. Hey if it works for you then maybe it will work for me. Of course I do not have the bliss you speak of I do not remember bliss - maybe a tinge in the beginning and oh how I know if I had a taste it would make all the other seem like well ??? worth it perhaps??? Just a tinge - so you enjoy that bliss and you wallow in it and embrace it and know that it is all yours forever - all of it is yours and it will not be taken away ever - YOU have a gift MIA DEB you have been given the gift of gab that reaches to the masses the ordinary the ones who are struggling and you are so wonderful to share it with us. I honor you in who you are - a beautiful loving goofy alive honest shoot from the hip daughter of Shakti- I so want to meet you- my family is having a reunion this summer near chi town somewhere - perhaps you will honor me with some of your humor in person - hey there are a few others in the area maybe a little K chi town meeting??? Have a great day and a bliss filled fluffy bunny night ... Talk with you soon Goofy K Lady... Spread some of that JOY about town and amp up the chi town vibration Joy Joy JOY in all the land - ...tu amo amica mia e Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 10, 2010 Report Share Posted March 10, 2010 I would love-love-love to meet! I'm from the area- please let me know! Love Mary - " " . Wednesday, March 10, 2010 7:28:26 AM GMT -06:00 US/Canada Central Re: Shaktipat Withdrawal - De - I so want to meet you- my family is having a reunion this summer near chi town somewhere - perhaps you will honor me with some of your humor in person - hey there are a few others in the area maybe a little K chi town meeting??? e Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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