Request for Shaktipat

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Hi and all,

I want to express my intention to participate in the Spring shaktipat and honor

the safeties. This will be my second shaktipat, and after skipping the previous

one. It feels great to be back . I feel I gained valuable self-knowledge after

my first participation. At that time, I had my best intention to carry the

safeties to the fullest. And I did , during shaktipat week and the weeks

afterwards , I was prepared to surrender to anything that happened , and I

" surfed " through it . Alas, I later realized that the discordant energies in my

field seem to have an intelligence of its own. Didn't even try to bother me

during shaktipat time . After reasonable time , when I " let my guard down " ,

they came to brutal full attack, with infantry, cavalry , five star generals and

all. I felt overwhelmed with devastating emotions and they just took over me, I

completely identified with them , at which point my resolution to surrender

seemed to be a distant memory.

When the next shaktipat time came, I had an impulse to participate , but at the

time I thought I was not prepared yet to make a serious commitment to surrender.

And at first I thought doing the Tibetans would be the more difficult part!

But now the story is different . And if feels great because I believe that now I

do have a better grasp of what calls surrendering.Is amazing but If I

just calm myself and let the situation be what it is , and let the feeling be

what it is, without fighting with it,and stopping the thinking process, they

don't last long , they just seem to evaporate. It seems that they can't resist

the process of objective observation. It seems that this emotions respond

basically to thinking patterns. If I observe the thinking pattern and stop it ,

the emotions vanish. I can't explain it well, it might seem trivial , but it

makes sense in a strange way to me now.

I hope I'm allowed to participate, in which case I give permission to to

place the scatterfield.

Blessings , love and peace to all

Miguel