Guest guest Posted March 16, 2010 Report Share Posted March 16, 2010 At risk of sounding like a whiny butt, I still want to say I'm feeling like I've failed. Or is K not as active in me as I thought? I get these thoughts whenever I come down with something---because, if I'm K active (or is it awakening?), aren't I supposed to be able to ward off illness, not have to worry about that anymore? Here I fancy myself giving invisible " healing " to people I come in contact with and even others unseen but yet I can't heal myself or keep from getting sick? Sorry, I had to see the Dr. today for a head-exploding sinus infection. But why did I need to? I only did it out of desperation. I surrendered and surrendered, especially in that vulneralbe febrile state. Boy, talk about some weird visions and nonsequeter type things going on there! Nothing I could make any sense of...and I asked to be shown the root cause. And I had that bad bout of H1N1 in Oct. So what's wrong with me? I'm feeling discouragaed. By the way, I'm venting but I know this will pass. These funks usually do. But I'm not where I thought I might be by now, I thought I would be more useful, be a real agent of healing and more for people but that isn't true, obviously. Can anyone speak to this? Have you been there? I know I'll feel better in a few days, once I've taken some of the antibiotics but I feel like I've failed. I shouldn't have neede this. Recovering, Valarie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 16, 2010 Report Share Posted March 16, 2010 Valarie, if I remember correctly, chrism has stated that at times we will be allowed to experiences these sicknesses for the purpose of building up ones immunity against them. I think it is best to resist the use of antibiotics as much as possible. I use natural stuff like echinacea, eucalyptus, colloidal silver, and elderberry and zinc to keep my immunity up. I use those for a while whenever I feel I am coming down with something. Sometimes I still end up sick and sometimes not. I hope you get to feeling better real soon. Would you like some healing energy sent? Linda , " Valarie " <vjvousden wrote: > > At risk of sounding like a whiny butt, I still want to say I'm feeling like I've failed. Or is K not as active in me as I thought? I get these thoughts whenever I come down with something---because, if I'm K active (or is it awakening?), aren't I supposed to be able to ward off illness, not have to worry about that anymore? Here I fancy myself giving invisible " healing " to people I come in contact with and even others unseen but yet I can't heal myself or keep from getting sick? > > Sorry, I had to see the Dr. today for a head-exploding sinus infection. But why did I need to? I only did it out of desperation. I surrendered and surrendered, especially in that vulneralbe febrile state. Boy, talk about some weird visions and nonsequeter type things going on there! Nothing I could make any sense of...and I asked to be shown the root cause. And I had that bad bout of H1N1 in Oct. So what's wrong with me? I'm feeling discouragaed. By the way, I'm venting but I know this will pass. These funks usually do. But I'm not where I thought I might be by now, I thought I would be more useful, be a real agent of healing and more for people but that isn't true, obviously. > > Can anyone speak to this? Have you been there? > > I know I'll feel better in a few days, once I've taken some of the antibiotics but I feel like I've failed. I shouldn't have neede this. > > Recovering, > Valarie > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 16, 2010 Report Share Posted March 16, 2010 Thank you, Linda! I put off getting antibiotics but if i wait too long and it's just getting worse, I know I need to get medicine or it goes into bronchitis or pneumonia (it's happened way too many times before to ignore it). I use the MMS fairly often and that is supposed to kill any pathogen if taken on a maintenance level. I was taking it when i got swine flu and it didn't keep me from getting it. I do use colloidal silver and the other natural ingredients when possible. I do think there must be a root cause and as much as I try to bring it up I get nothing. I'm totally prepared to face whatever bad thing this is. But I'm getting nothing. It's so frustrating. Yes, could use the healing energy, thank you for offering and you are wonderful! Thanks for your input. Love to you, Linda! Valarie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 16, 2010 Report Share Posted March 16, 2010 Yes Valarie, I have notice you have been getting this often and it seems it is usually around time of shaktipat. I hope you can figure out the root cause and be done with it. I just went through this throat thing this past week and it is still a little sore. It was not like a regular sore throat, it didn't hurt inside my throat, but had to do with a gland about midway of my throat. It hurt really bad to touch it from the outside. It did not appear swollen, only very sore. My ego tried to get into fear telling me it could be cancer, LOL! I get a little into fear every time a bump pops up on my arms. I keep surendering that fear to Shakti. So far the bumps have gone away and hope they continuse to do so. Sending you a big dose of my loving healing K energy. Be well, Valarie. Love & blessings, Linda , " Valarie " <vjvousden wrote: > > > I do think there must be a root cause and as much as I try to bring it up I get nothing. I'm totally prepared to face whatever bad thing this is. But I'm getting nothing. It's so frustrating. > > Yes, could use the healing energy, thank you for offering and you are wonderful! > > Thanks for your input. > Love to you, Linda! > Valarie > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 16, 2010 Report Share Posted March 16, 2010 Oh yes it is true about the Kundalini increased immune response Valarie but once again as we have discussed before your process is being slowly and gently given as the social dynamic of your family life is also being considered. So as you are within this pattern so will the gifts of Kundalini also come to you slowly and without too much dynamic until there is a change in the social environment with regards to Kundalini acceptance. Your grace is being very patient I feel. - blessings to you and your grace and your family!~ - chrism , " Valarie " <vjvousden wrote: > > At risk of sounding like a whiny butt, Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 16, 2010 Report Share Posted March 16, 2010 That's a little freaky, Linda! I had that exact same thing a day before the sinus thing hit. It wasn't IN my throat but felt like I was swallowing around a golf ball when I swallowed. Where it hurt most was in my neck just above my left collar bone but below my eustachian tube. That'w weird we had the same thing. Yes, this seems to be a recurring thing around March. Thanks for that info. Yes, my ego says the C word lots when I get unexplained pains. I haven't gotten around that yet. Love you, girl! Hope you are feeling better, too! Valarie , " danceswithcats999 " <crazycats711 wrote: > > Yes Valarie, I have notice you have been getting this often and it seems it is usually around time of shaktipat. I hope you can figure out the root cause and be done with it. > > I just went through this throat thing this past week and it is still a little sore. It was not like a regular sore throat, it didn't hurt inside my throat, but had to do with a gland about midway of my throat. It hurt really bad to touch it from the outside. It did not appear swollen, only very sore. My ego tried to get into fear telling me it could be cancer, LOL! I get a little into fear every time a bump pops up on my arms. I keep surendering that fear to Shakti. So far the bumps have gone away and hope they continuse to do so. > > Sending you a big dose of my loving healing K energy. Be well, Valarie. > > Love & blessings, > Linda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 16, 2010 Report Share Posted March 16, 2010 Yes, this is a regular occurance in March. For 3 yrs. now, I've had this happen. The Dr. noticed it from my old records. That is kind of freaky, Linda! That's exactly how I'd describe what I had the day or so before the sinus thing hit. A gland, not my tonsils or my lymph nodes but lower down, above my left collar bone and just to the side of where an adam's apple would be on a man. When I swallowed, it didn't feel like it was IN my throat but outside it but it swelled into my throat about the size of a ping-pong ball! And it you touched it on the outside, it didn't feel swollen but was SO sore! I had the same thought, thyroid cancer or something like that! My silly ego does this when I get a strange pain. One day I'll learn to ignore it! LOL That's pretty strange, though. I hope you are feeling better now. Love, Valarie , " danceswithcats999 " <crazycats711 wrote: > > Yes Valarie, I have notice you have been getting this often and it seems it is usually around time of shaktipat. I hope you can figure out the root cause and be done with it. > > I just went through this throat thing this past week and it is still a little sore. It was not like a regular sore throat, it didn't hurt inside my throat, but had to do with a gland about midway of my throat. It hurt really bad to touch it from the outside. It did not appear swollen, only very sore. My ego tried to get into fear telling me it could be cancer, LOL! I get a little into fear every time a bump pops up on my arms. I keep surendering that fear to Shakti. So far the bumps have gone away and hope they continuse to do so. > > Sending you a big dose of my loving healing K energy. Be well, Valarie. > > Love & blessings, > Linda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 16, 2010 Report Share Posted March 16, 2010 That is freaky, that we had the same thing and thought the same thing. LOL! I had some lower jawl pain along with it. I was worried there that some infection had gone into my jawl bone. Hehe! My grandson informed me today, that to worried about something, will cause bad things to happen. I need to remember his advice when I get into worrying. Love, Linda , " Valarie " <vjvousden wrote: > > Yes, this is a regular occurance in March. For 3 yrs. now, I've had this happen. The Dr. noticed it from my old records. > > That is kind of freaky, Linda! That's exactly how I'd describe what I had the day or so before the sinus thing hit. A gland, not my tonsils or my lymph nodes but lower down, above my left collar bone and just to the side of where an adam's apple would be on a man. When I swallowed, it didn't feel like it was IN my throat but outside it but it swelled into my throat about the size of a ping-pong ball! And it you touched it on the outside, it didn't feel swollen but was SO sore! I had the same thought, thyroid cancer or something like that! My silly ego does this when I get a strange pain. One day I'll learn to ignore it! LOL > > That's pretty strange, though. I hope you are feeling better now. > Love, > Valarie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 16, 2010 Report Share Posted March 16, 2010 You may even wish to consider this temporary illness as an upgrade dear Valarie! You will have more upgrades as will your family through you. Just not all at once and not so fast as to cause great upheaval. - blessings to you Valarie! - chrism , " Valarie " <vjvousden wrote: > No private upgrades I guess. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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