Distractions

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Dear All:

Please bear with me as I ramble on. I've been stuck in trying to figure out

where all my time goes in the morning...I have concluded that there are not

enough hours in the day. I have concluded that there are bushels and basket

fulls of activities that bring me joy and that I love to be doing. They fill be

so much and bring so much delight...they are simple things, yet full of beauty.

 

Today when I noted how many KAS members we have, I realized just how many eyes

that is to catch my type-errors and word mistakes. It brought up feelings of

being self conscious about my dyslexia and errors and imperfections.

 

Today too, I experienced that Kundalini HOT right in the middle of my work day.

It was an eye-opening experience for sure.

 

 

While driving home I experienced the urge to purge-my clothes. I have

experienced this before where I just long to shed my clothes and be home sitting

in meditation. It literally becomes a feelings of the most important thing.

During this time my back became peppered with itchy bumps (which still remain).

And long story, but events kept occuring which would bring Kundalini to the

forefront and get my attention.

 

I think I have things backwards. It is not a matter of not having enough time in

the day, but rather what it is that I'm doing. Afterall, what is time? These

joys that fill my morning are too distractions...and I've just come to realize

that these distractions always become of priority to the practice. It is the

dedication to Self and Shakti through practice that I'm searching for and hence

why it feels like there is never enough time.

 

It seems simple...but it's not because these distractions are my loves. I

remembered how had said to me during the Tiger Shaktipat...are you

willing to give you your pets, your house, your garden, your relationships. And

although this may have not been exactly of what he was speaking of in regards to

surrender, it dawned on me that these are the distractions that I'm needed to

surrender in order to place practice first and foremost.

 

So in a long winded way, this is my public declaration of my intent to turn the

tables and treat my practice-prayer,meditation,safeties, tibetans, student

assignments as my joys and distraction; i.e. foremost.

 

Love:

~Danielle