Fw: Falling in Love Addition

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Diane Baugh <cdgbdronningen

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Tue, March 16, 2010 6:32:08 PM

Falling in Love Addition

 

 

Dear and All:

 

 

I  feel I need to clarify aspects of the experience referred to in the post

" Falling in Love " .  \

 

I do not experience the kundalini energy as female, and so therefore I don't

refer to it as Shakti unless I am interacting with someone who relates to it as

feminine.  My experience is that it is genderless and intelligent.  I guess I

would have to say that my response/ surrender is on more than one level of

interaction:  I am in a female body, and so in one sense, my response is that of

a female; but the deeper surrender is much more intense, and differs from the

female surrender/response., in that my surrender is

not a momentary act or response, but a lifetime or even eternal decision.

 

Recently I posted regarding the transformation of the ego, as to whether or not

it would eventually be reabsorbed back into the Primary Cause, which I relate to

as God.  I am NOT saying that is what I am experiencing now at this time,  but

there is a strong sense of  being absorbed into this genderless, intelligent

Primary Cause, and that is the initiator of the surrender I am experiencing.  At

least it is appropriate to say that this is a deeper experience than  I have

previously been blessed with. 

 

The intensity of the surrender/response is a result of my devotion to God,

present since the OBE at age 3, and ratcheted up considerably since my initial k

activation on 10/14/1993.  And the experiences of my almost 69 years, in which I

have realized without a doubt that my life experiences are merely a grinding

away (hopefully!!!) of all that draws me away from  the Primary Cause.  God has

gotten my attention with the struggles and suffering I myself have created

through ignorance of the True Nature of ,

 my identification with " self " ,  Who was calling  me (and everyone), what I (and

everyone)   was being called to, and how my  perspective had to change from

believing " I " could accomplish anything or inititiate any action that had

eternal value.  After 69 years of struggle and pain.......surrender is possible,

because I have experienced the pointlessness of a perspective apart from God.

 

This is my experience at this time, and I am posting this in the hope of

feedback from others, but MOST NOTABLY   from  CHRISM,.  If I'm just on some

sort of dilusional journey., please correct me  I want to submit only to the

Truth, to God.  My journey has been more about relating to God, than about just

a kundalini journey

 

And also I want to say thank you to those who have recently responded to my

posts.  Every perspective expressed is valuable to me, and I appreciate each of

you taking the time to express that perspective to help me and others who read

you.  I love this KAS family.  Most of my kundalini journey (10/93 through about

9/09) I have had to travel alone, without the help , enouragement  and

understanding of anyone, so finding and this website and each of you has

been an incredible blessing to me, and you mean more to me than I can express in

words. 

 

Respect, Honor, Gratitude and most of all Love

 

Diane