Shaktipat Practice/Inner Guidance:

[Guest guest]

Hello All,

 

In response to letting our love guide us in this practice, I would like to

confess that I have not been practicing the shaktipat instructions to a tee. I

have no guilt about this as I am feeling guidance from the kundalini about

foregoing some of the physical aspects of the practice, i.e. the 5 tibetans and

some meditation periods. I have not been forcing will to do these things out of

feelings of guilt, fear, or obligation if it doesn't feel right. I feel that

committing to these practices out of habit and " discipline " , as I have been has

only been adding denial to theses fearful and guilty feeling aspects of myself

that have been seeking healing and release. Instead I have been consciously

opening to the love and healing that is being given for me and I am being okay

with allowing myself to not do this " perfectly " according to some imaginary

standard.

 

In allowing myself this grace I have been able to deeply feel these feelings and

have stopped trying to whip them into shape. I am feeling them and accepting and

lovingthem as the precious aspects of myself that that have been seeking love,

and that I have been longing to reunite with. I'm no longer judging myself as

doing this wrong or being a bad or lazy student of kundalini. I am not bad or

lazy or wrong. I put myself through this all my life and practically killed

myself with stress and anxiety to be the best student in school and to excel in

everything. I am not doing this anymore with my kundalini practice according to

the teachings given here. I will open to what is given to the best of my

ability, but I will not force it anymore and create further pain for myself when

pain is seeking expression and release from within me.

 

I feel that as I open and am allowing myself to feel these feelings I have more

access to my own inner guidance and reverence for this incredible blessing I am

inside of. I have let these feelings guide me in the past and have reaped their

fruits. I have also reaped the fruits of my ego's guidance and their teachings.

I have no intention to do this all by myself and do not wish to separate myself

from this group or from as a teacher and guide. I am just honoring what

feels right for me at this time and I intend to continue to do so. This is about

taking my power back and surrendering it all to my Shakti according to the

guidance and teachings I have been given here and the lessons that have been

specifically for me in this process. I do not feel that these decisions are

coming from a place of ego. I feel that they are coming from my Shakti and

higher guidance system.

 

I am realizing also that I have at times overly depended upon from a

place of fear of not being able to follow my own inner guidance and I know that

this is not a protocol of surrendering to Chrism's ego. It is a protocol of

surrendering to inner guidance of our individual kundalini aided by the guidance

of Chrism's. I still have the utmost reverence and respect for this space, the

support that is offered here, and Chrism's guidance, but no one can walk my path

for me and I intend to honor my own guidance. I hope that I can still walk among

those loving beings here and be guided by as I know I will enter areas

where I will require guidance from without, but for now I am surrendering to my

inner guidance and I am integrating the instructions to the degree that they

FEEL appropriate as given by this guidance. I am opening to this as I can and I

have great appreciation and gratitude for what is being given that I am able to

receive at this time. I have just wanted to state this all here very clearly. I

love you all.

 

With Love, Reverence, and Respect

Travis

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> Shaktipat is an activation into an awakening of Kundalini that is powerful yet

because of the safeties we are able to experience this without risking as much

damage as we would otherwise. With this in mind these are not one time events.

We take in small portion what in excess might overwhelm or hurt us.

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> These events must be melded with practice and consistent selfless service as a

vector of expression as they are accumulated and sculpted into gifts of

awareness and palpable physical expression. One builds upon another and so

forth. Even the physical body must be able to have the time it needs to

acclimate inside of refinement to these powerful energies and in that

acclimation can only certain amounts be given at certain times.

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> These skills and divine experiences are as precursors to greater awareness

into the divine potentials we have as human beings. Your experiences of

" activation " can be like a signpost for your external awareness of where the

internal awareness is leading you. Intuition will teach you from the inside

first.

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> As you follow these teachings you are being led into a much greater awareness

and application of awareness that - in the case of Kundalini- can only lead you

" into " higher and greater gifts and experiences than can even be described with

words.

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> These gifts are to be used in the service of others and yet the consciousness

of the Kundalini will guide an individual in these ways. Let your internal

feelings guide you. Let your love guide you. - blessings and love to you! -

chrism

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