Shaktipat/ Inner Guidance

[Guest guest]

 Having just read Julia's post, and having the highest regard for the experience

and wisdom she lives, I want to say that it seems that we are each expressing

from  experience and heart.  I  honor the dept of her commitment, and knowing

that she is a wife and mother of young children, respect the fact that she is

able to fulfill her commitment to a higher degree than i have been able to do.

Yet I still feel that one's inner guidance needs to be taken into consideration

as the circumstances dictate.  We are to live in the moment of now, and

sometimes that makes it necessary to modify our actions.  That does not mean

that we are ignoring an agreement made, or considering it valueless.  In

mho, kundalini activation itself is evidence of one's sincerity  and and

authenticity on this journey.  So while I respect someone else's perspective in

regard to this journey, I do not compare my journey to anyone else's journey. 

It is an experience and unfolding that is individually unique.

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Still though for me in considering the tibetans and the more energizing

practices, I am feeling it necessary to modify them so as to not flood areas of

blockage with more energy causing more fear or emotional instability than I can

handle or process at once. This in effect makes it more difficult for me to get

grounded and create balance in my life. I am releasing blockages of long

standing intense patterns of emotional imbalance and fear. I'm not talking about

just things from my childhood. I'm talking about coming in to balance from

losing my mind a few years ago.

 

I am going back and forth here as I take in everybody's input, but as I sit here

and just feel Julia's communication about realising the importance of integrity

and balance I do feel it helping to ground me and feel balance if not only for

where I can be at a certain point in my comfort with this process. I don't mean

in anyway do dishonor my arrangement with Chrism. I still don't think it would

be good for me to go against what I am feeling here. I am releasing fear and

becoming more at ease and in balance by just sitting on the couch than I think I

would if I did 21 tibetans right now. If I do too many I just tend to shoot out

and operate from up up up instead of being able to ground here and now.

 

CHRISM? if you have any advice for me about this, I would love to hear from you.

I want you to know I'm not meaning to squander what is given here. I earnestly

want to continue opening to this as much as I safely can. I appreciate

everyone's input. Thank you.

Love,

Travis

, " travisnelsonmurphy "

<travisnelsonmurphy wrote:

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> Balance and integrity is perhaps more important than you realise. Perhaps

you might reconsider and honour your original ageement...

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> Thank you for this Julia. This is what I have needed to hear. I don't judge

myself for not having understood this, but I will now go forth with all of the

instructions honoring this. You are exactly right. I haven't understood the

importance of balance and integrity. I have been acting like a brat again! But

it's okay, I'm beginning to see this pattern and I can start to release and

surrender it. Thank you Thank you thank you.

> Love,

> Travis

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> , Julia Ahern <jajahern@>

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> > Dear Travis,

> > I am only popping in on occasion and unable to read through all the posts...

I am reading this from my inbox and so excuse if lots of AAAA stuff turns up...

> > I can't comment on your other post but what struck me reading this one

was... you made an agreement when you requested and accepted the gift of

shaktipat to do what was requested X 3 times... no matter what your inner

self is telling you  or how not guilty you feel, you have broken an agreement.

> > I am not saying this s a judgement at all but as a fact. 

> > I suggest this to be helpful....A day of shaktipat lasts from 3am chrism

time zone to 3am the following day..(adjust for your time zone) I know it is

challenging with others in your living space but, Travis  they do sleep and

there are alarm clocks...lol!  It takes effort to follow through on the

agreement of exchange and each day demands more time, but this practice is only

for a week and the blessings are priceless. Balance and integrity is perhaps

more important than you realise.  Perhaps you might reconsider and honour your

original ageement...if this sounds harsh its not...lol! 

> > Love Julia.

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> > travisnelsonmurphy <travisnelsonmurphy@>

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> > Wed, March 24, 2010 1:02:21 AM

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> > I want to clarify some of what I said in my post earlier. I have not

discontinued my practice of the Tibetans completely. I have just been doing less

repetitions than 21 so as not to become overly energized. About meditation, it

has been difficult to get all 3 times in a day since I am not living in my own

space and don't have control over the disturbances created by others in the

house. I have been chakra breathing. What I was trying to communicate was that

my inner guidance has let me feel that this is okay and I have been able to let

go more, and open emotionally in not stressing about finding a way to do it

exactly if circumstances will not allow. I have strong intentions to continue to

consciously open to this and have been receiving incredible blessings. In

rereading my post, I realized that it could be misconstrued as carrying a tone

of defiance. If it came across abrasively I think it was just me sternly

communicating to myself that I will not

> > feel guilty about this if I am unable to do things exactly right. I meant

no disrespect and I'm not trying to be some kind of lone wolf!

> > Love,

> > Travis

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