Pyramid or Triangle - Aindriu

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Good bye.

 

, Andrew C <aindriu

wrote:

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> Kundalini is bullshit.. i dont trust any of this crap..

>

[Guest guest]

Edited for sensitive expressions not content. - c

 

 

 

Apologies, I'm just so scared at the moment. I keep getting messages from the

universe that I am female. I am so confused s & xually, I am not sure if I am gay,

straight or bi-s & xual. I have receivied vivid dreams of having interc & urse with

both, and it's just so confusing.

 

I am afraid of people spying on me. I feel stuff happening like people

connecting to me, and I am so afraid of mast & rbation, I am so afraid to feel, to

enjoy the physical aspect of creation. I feel great sham with everything s & x

related. An enlightened woman of 70, who I was talking to many weeks ago, posted

me an article that if I wasn't afraid to feel, I was either enlightened or numb,

and she said to just do it anyway.

 

Since my experience back in september, I just don't understand what is happening

for me. I felt like I was connected emotionally to many people, like energetic

ties, and their thoughts swirling in my mind. It's only when someone is actively

maintaining my energy do I enter full flow and stuff makes sense.

 

I am not sure what surrender actually means. Maybe, I have a fear of obedience

or a fear of taking advice or a fear of control or posession. I'm not sure if

kundalini is controlling me, or if I am in control. It scares me, because I

don't know what I'm doing anymore, I don't know what i'm typing.

 

I received visions and dreams of horrible stuff, people being killed, dead

children.. it was only a few days ago I received a dream of a brother stabbing

his younger brother and on his chest was written " you know you're yes family

now " . Sometimes the stuff makes sense, the dreams DONT make sense, sometimes

they are related to other people, somethings I feel I am meant to help me, but I

get so locked down in fear, it feels like I can't move.

 

IT feels like I am in a dark hole, swallowed up, and I am in fear to experience

life, of anything enjoyable. I am not sure what kundalini or what it is meant to

be doing for me, because I have yet to receive any clear guidance on what to do.

I practice meditation and qi-gong on a daily basis from last week, but it is

still not helping. The stuff flows out of me, like it's not me. I pull people's

thoughts from their mind, I experience multiple overlapping realities, some of

them are s & xual in nature, and scare me to death. It was only a few months ago,

did I feel everyone and everything was sexually hitting on me or making s & xual

remarks towards me. This was at the peak of my experiences.

 

I'm have control issues I think. I'm not sure if I'm comfortable surrendering to

another individual. Thats what lead to my painful awakening. I surrendered to a

man completely, and his reality become so incorprated into mine, it felt like he

was God in my reality.

 

I tried this before, and I have explored enlightened people. They don't FEEL

like they are enlightened, they have " blocks " or something in their mind..

that's the experience.. like when I " touch " a " block " they " move in a certain

way " or " stop " or " retailiate " ... like what you just demonstrated. WHAT IS

THAT?? Noone explains to me anything what I am EXPERIENCING.. even enlightened

people can't tell me..

 

It's like I am confused, in the dark alone, with all this strange stuff

happening, and noone knows anything enough to assist me, and I have been looking

for ages for assistance.

 

 

 

 

 

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Fri, 26 March, 2010 17:01:09

Re: Pyramid or Triangle - Aindriu

 

 

Good bye.

 

Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , Andrew C <aindriu >

wrote:

>

> Kundalini is bullshit.. i dont trust any of this crap..

>

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

No need for me to connect with you emotionally as you are a bit unstable in that

area and seem prone to outbursts of a radical nature. My connecting to you in

any amount will merely ramp up the energy you are feeling and cause more

confusion.

 

I will suggest that you begin a practice of the safeties asap.

http://www.kundaliniawakeningsystems1.com/the-safeties.html

 

I will ask that you remove your expletive based language. We are a community

that doesnt require expletives to understand a point. With s & xual based wording

please purposefully misspell the words as gets as bit upset at posts of

this nature if it isnt an adult group.

 

Explanations come to those who can receive. Can you receive or do you know what

you need to know and are here to give this to others? An Enlightened Being will

not solve your problems. You get to do that. If you listen perhaps you can

learn. If you do not then that is your choice.

 

Many of the issues you are experiencing are due to your ego and its hold over

your reality and expressions. Your resistance and fear is being magnified by

energy and when you continue to resist you are merely adding fuel to the flame.

 

Seems to me you have a good connection with the Shakti but continue to insist on

ego controls over it which is essentially what is making your experience so

difficult.

 

That this has come upon you without your knowledge isnt that uncommon and yet

you know about tattwas and perhaps mother systems so there may be some

information that you have for your comfort and for activation cuasation.

 

 

I will suggest that you not look outside of yourself and your inner guidance in

the solution to your situation. I will suggest that you begin to do the work and

accept what has come your way however and why ever that has occurred. You are in

good company here. We work with the Kundalini AND we ALLOW it to work with us. -

 

[Guest guest]

Thank you kindly, that's my experience too. It's good to hear some clarity from

someone.

 

Much love to you, I will start the meditation and allow the settling to begin.

 

I am glad after so much time, that someone is actually listening to me and

giving me guidance on this. You don't know how many enlightened people I have

been through the last few months.

 

Take care for now,

Andrew.

 

 

 

 

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Fri, 26 March, 2010 20:09:35

Re: Pyramid or Triangle - Aindriu

 

 

No need for me to connect with you emotionally as you are a bit unstable in that

area and seem prone to outbursts of a radical nature. My connecting to you in

any amount will merely ramp up the energy you are feeling and cause more

confusion.

 

I will suggest that you begin a practice of the safeties asap.

http://www.kundalin iawakeningsystem s1.com/the- safeties. html

 

I will ask that you remove your expletive based language. We are a community

that doesnt require expletives to understand a point. With s & xual based wording

please purposefully misspell the words as gets as bit upset at posts of

this nature if it isnt an adult group.

 

Explanations come to those who can receive. Can you receive or do you know what

you need to know and are here to give this to others? An Enlightened Being will

not solve your problems. You get to do that. If you listen perhaps you can

learn. If you do not then that is your choice.

 

Many of the issues you are experiencing are due to your ego and its hold over

your reality and expressions. Your resistance and fear is being magnified by

energy and when you continue to resist you are merely adding fuel to the flame.

 

Seems to me you have a good connection with the Shakti but continue to insist on

ego controls over it which is essentially what is making your experience so

difficult.

 

That this has come upon you without your knowledge isnt that uncommon and yet

you know about tattwas and perhaps mother systems so there may be some

information that you have for your comfort and for activation cuasation.

 

I will suggest that you not look outside of yourself and your inner guidance in

the solution to your situation. I will suggest that you begin to do the work and

accept what has come your way however and why ever that has occurred. You are in

good company here. We work with the Kundalini AND we ALLOW it to work with us. -