Then one day

[Guest guest]

I do not use drugs or c & nabis or alcohol. Nor do I promote that use for

Kundalini. I haven't led a pure life before the Kundalini and I did try many

substances that I thought could help me explain what was occurring. And for the

enjoyment of them.

 

I have used gifts that I was born with to intentionally inflict harm on another

person. Did this back in the late eighties before the Kundalini came. I was

successful with this and when the Kundalini came I went straight to nocturnal

hell. Literally. And I stayed there for a period of years. Not knowing how to

remove myself. So I stayed and learned about the uselessness of harboring ill

will towards another about abandoning morality about causing another person

harm, about the dynamics of abusing certain gifts.

 

Then one day in the physical, I met a strange little man in a line to take a

short bay cruise on the wharf in Santa Cruz. My friend was with me and is

witness to what occurred. She hated being on the water but for some reason this

one time she was willing to go as we were not going to lose sight of the shore.

 

This man seemed to know quite much about what I was going through without being

told. About my issues and my experiences and at one point her turned and looked

at me and said " You know, Hell is not forever. You get to leave once you have

learned your lessons " No one had told him of my nocturnal incarcerations. He

just appeared to know. He talked about other issues as well. And when the cruise

was over he was never seen or heard from again. His name was Arthur.

 

Perhaps others have had an " Arthur experience? "

 

After that and with that knowledge replacing an ever evolving fear, I released

my " self " from the " Hell realms. " Can't say I have walked every reality

contained in them but I did walk what was pertinent to my case and some others.

It was a particularly violent area of hell.

 

Anyway the K came to me very strong and my body began transforming. I had many

phenomenons and made every mistake available in responding to the phenomena. In

this way was I being trained. Educated through trial and error and allowed to

learn through physical pain and depression that was Kundalini induced so that

(i) could get to a place where these experiences could help others. Didn't know

that at the time though.

 

Chrism is not Rama Krishna OR Yogananda, or Aurobindo, or Osho or any of the

popular and well remembered Guru/Saints from India. I am not well known anywhere

and I am fine with that. I will not typically use the Siddhis or exalted skills

to prove or disprove their presence within me. I am very careful now with how

any of these skills, Kundalini gifted or otherwise, are expressed.

 

I do not know of anyone else who employs a Scatterfield. I just know that when a

person responded to an in person Shaktipat with raised red welts over each

chakra that I didn't want to give anymore Shaktipat and I asked K for another

way and that it had to be based in safety. This is where the safeties came from

and the Scatterfield. Another K gift. Can't prove it and I won't even try.

 

Very little of what is written in the articles is from my little (i). It is from

the larger more knowledgeable Kundalini (I) that these wisdoms come from. I

merely surrender to their presence.

 

You do not have to trust me or believe me or follow me or attack me. Take what

works for you and let that be your choice, your gift. I do not coerce anyone

here. I will suggest or strongly suggest but that is about as far as it goes.

 

If you hurt others here. I will suggest that you leave and in some cases I will

help you along that path.

 

Anyone is welcome to critique and question what I write. I am sure it falls into

some form of category. Please try to be respectful in your interactions with

other group members. Please be diligent in " how " you write your condemnations of

chrism so that we as a group are not abused by words that we have come to

recognize as rude and or offensive. For those please use acronyms if you need to

use them at all. -

[Guest guest]

Dear ~Chrism,

 

Thank you for your postings this day.... I have put them into a folder to read

again and again.

Your writings are a source of truth for me always.

I am so thankful that you have made yourself available for the benefit of us

all....your presence and availability your experience of having walked a wide

and challenging kundalini path is a gift of love you give freely to us. I accept

your gift with love and gratitude.

I am reminded too of a song that resonates deeply for me and sooths ... " Be not

afraid I go before you " .

Thank you for sharing of your struggles, of your experiences of darkness and of

light, of Arthur and of your journey and process.

I am just now overcome with thankfullness for you and for kundalini.

 

love for you always Julia.

 

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