Guest guest Posted April 3, 2010 Report Share Posted April 3, 2010 I had relation with my wife 10 years .I have 1 child from her who is 4 year old.Before 2 months she left our home.The reason for it like she says is my spiritual life.She is atheist all life long and was disgusted because of my practice,the raw food diet,my prayings,the meditation,yoga etc.What she say is that i have to become " normal " person ,and if it is impossible we will not live together anymore.It is hard decision for me live without her and my boy,but what can i do?I can stop going on.I have to practice.She says that for me yoga is more important than my family and that is why i didn´t stop it.She relate my practice with brainwashing or cult .It is incredible.Now i´m alone in home trying to find some answer.I know that this posting is offtopic but maybe here i will find some understanding.I follow regular practice of the safeties and observing the kundalini flow.Some times i think that is better go alone,finding that as result of my practise of yoga my sexual desire is near to 0.The most of my friends thik that i have to start eat meat and forget everything about yoga.This hurts me more.When people like us will be understanded?Thanks a lot for your answers kundalini people.I apreciate all your answers.Many blessings on the path! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 3, 2010 Report Share Posted April 3, 2010 Beloved asen, Sending love to you. It is hard when those we love just don't understand, and don't walk with us, but choose to go a different way. The heart truly hurts when the separation isn't our choice, but comes as a result of being true to ourselves and what we are called to do and where to go. It can be heart wrenching. It takes courage to be true, and it can cost dearly. There was a time in my life when everything my heart loved was taken away, and I ached in every cell of my being. But I went on. When the time comes for the caterpillar to enter the cocoon on its way of transformation into the butterfly, the other caterpillars are left behind. But then, when transformed, it is a beacon to them of what is possible for them as well. Take heart, asen, let your light shine. " Before the soul can stand in the presence of the Masters its feet must be washed in the blood of the heart. " Love, dhyana , " asen_perperov " <asen_perperov wrote: > > I had relation with my wife 10 years .I have 1 child from her who is 4 year old.Before 2 months she left our home.The reason for it like she says is my spiritual life.She is atheist all life long and was disgusted because of my practice,the raw food diet,my prayings,the meditation,yoga etc.What she say is that i have to become " normal " person ,and if it is impossible we will not live together anymore.It is hard decision for me live without her and my boy,but what can i do?I can stop going on.I have to practice.She says that for me yoga is more important than my family and that is why i didn´t stop it.She relate my practice with brainwashing or cult .It is incredible.Now i´m alone in home trying to find some answer.I know that this posting is offtopic but maybe here i will find some understanding.I follow regular practice of the safeties and observing the kundalini flow.Some times i think that is better go alone,finding that as result of my practise of yoga my sexual desire is near to 0.The most of my friends thik that i have to start eat meat and forget everything about yoga.This hurts me more.When people like us will be understanded?Thanks a lot for your answers kundalini people.I apreciate all your answers.Many blessings on the path! > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 3, 2010 Report Share Posted April 3, 2010 Asen, I cannot add much to what Dhyana has already said so beautifully. Try throughout this to treat all involved, including yourself, with love, forgiveness, and gratitude. Know that my heart and love is with you. Love, David Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 3, 2010 Report Share Posted April 3, 2010 I was trying to remember all of that quote...it just came to me. " Before one can stand in the presence of the Masters the tongue must lose its power to wound, and the feet must be washed in the blood of the heart. " Its a beautiful one, I just love it. Love, dhyana , " novalees " <dhyana wrote: > > Beloved asen, > > Sending love to you. It is hard when those we love > just don't understand, and don't walk with us, but > choose to go a different way. The heart truly hurts > when the separation isn't our choice, but comes as > a result of being true to ourselves and what we are > called to do and where to go. It can be heart wrenching. > > It takes courage to be true, and it can cost dearly. > There was a time in my life when everything my heart > loved was taken away, and I ached in every cell of > my being. But I went on. When the time comes for the > caterpillar to enter the cocoon on its way of transformation > into the butterfly, the other caterpillars are left > behind. But then, when transformed, it is a beacon to > them of what is possible for them as well. Take heart, > asen, let your light shine. > > " Before the soul can stand in the presence of the > Masters its feet must be washed in the blood of the > heart. " > > Love, dhyana > > > > , " asen_perperov " <asen_perperov@> wrote: > > > > I had relation with my wife 10 years .I have 1 child from her who is 4 year old.Before 2 months she left our home.The reason for it like she says is my spiritual life.She is atheist all life long and was disgusted because of my practice,the raw food diet,my prayings,the meditation,yoga etc.What she say is that i have to become " normal " person ,and if it is impossible we will not live together anymore.It is hard decision for me live without her and my boy,but what can i do?I can stop going on.I have to practice.She says that for me yoga is more important than my family and that is why i didn´t stop it.She relate my practice with brainwashing or cult .It is incredible.Now i´m alone in home trying to find some answer.I know that this posting is offtopic but maybe here i will find some understanding.I follow regular practice of the safeties and observing the kundalini flow.Some times i think that is better go alone,finding that as result of my practise of yoga my sexual desire is near to 0.The most of my friends thik that i have to start eat meat and forget everything about yoga.This hurts me more.When people like us will be understanded?Thanks a lot for your answers kundalini people.I apreciate all your answers.Many blessings on the path! > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 3, 2010 Report Share Posted April 3, 2010 Dear Asen, Sad to know about events.No happy marriages in this path, if they are ;very rare.Sacrifice of highest order is needed in this K process...........shrikant ________________________________ novalees <dhyana Sat, 3 April, 2010 9:55:40 PM Re: i need advice  I was trying to remember all of that quote...it just came to me. " Before one can stand in the presence of the Masters the tongue must lose its power to wound, and the feet must be washed in the blood of the heart. " Its a beautiful one, I just love it. Love, dhyana Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , " novalees " <dhyana wrote: > > Beloved asen, > > Sending love to you. It is hard when those we love > just don't understand, and don't walk with us, but > choose to go a different way. The heart truly hurts > when the separation isn't our choice, but comes as > a result of being true to ourselves and what we are > called to do and where to go. It can be heart wrenching. > > It takes courage to be true, and it can cost dearly. > There was a time in my life when everything my heart > loved was taken away, and I ached in every cell of > my being. But I went on. When the time comes for the > caterpillar to enter the cocoon on its way of transformation > into the butterfly, the other caterpillars are left > behind. But then, when transformed, it is a beacon to > them of what is possible for them as well. Take heart, > asen, let your light shine. > > " Before the soul can stand in the presence of the > Masters its feet must be washed in the blood of the > heart. " > > Love, dhyana > > > > Kundalini-Awakening -Systems- 1 , " asen_perperov " <asen_perperov@ > wrote: > > > > I had relation with my wife 10 years .I have 1 child from her who is 4 year old.Before 2 months she left our home.The reason for it like she says is my spiritual life.She is atheist all life long and was disgusted because of my practice,the raw food diet,my prayings,the meditation,yoga etc.What she say is that i have to become " normal " person ,and if it is impossible we will not live together anymore.It is hard decision for me live without her and my boy,but what can i do?I can stop going on.I have to practice.She says that for me yoga is more important than my family and that is why i didn´t stop it.She relate my practice with brainwashing or cult .It is incredible.Now i´m alone in home trying to find some answer.I know that this posting is offtopic but maybe here i will find some understanding. I follow regular practice of the safeties and observing the kundalini flow.Some times i think that is better go alone,finding that as result of my practise of yoga my sexual desire is near to 0.The most of my friends thik that i have to start eat meat and forget everything about yoga.This hurts me more.When people like us will be understanded? Thanks a lot for your answers kundalini people.I apreciate all your answers.Many blessings on the path! > > > The INTERNET now has a personality. YOURS! See your Homepage. http://in./ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 3, 2010 Report Share Posted April 3, 2010 Namaste dear friend asen Sorry to hear of this bruseig of the heart. . . . . Big Hug. . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I will hold you in prayer of love and light. This is such an important issue i can only encourage you to go deep within and find the answer that you are called to live. " " At the center of your being you have the answer; You know who you are and you know what you want. " - Lao-tzu ' To Thine Own Self Be True', in prayer and mediation seek your center that knows the rightness for you at this time, at this place on the sacred journey. Many of us have much we could share about these kinds of decisions, the foot before becomes the foot behind. Dear Brother pilgrim, you are walking a sacred path no matter the context. Please know we surround you with prayers and good thoughts for love, light, truth, and comfort as this journey brings you to a place for phase to find direction. In the center of your being there is a North Star to guide you dear soul. love and peace sparrow , " asen_perperov " <asen_perperov wrote: > > I had relation with my wife 10 years .I have 1 child from her who is 4 year old.Before 2 months she left our home.The reason for it like she says is my spiritual life.She is atheist all life long and was disgusted because of my practice,the raw food diet,my prayings,the meditation,yoga etc.What she say is that i have to become " normal " person ,and if it is impossible we will not live together anymore.It is hard decision for me live without her and my boy,but what can i do?I can stop going on.I have to practice.She says that for me yoga is more important than my family and that is why i didn´t stop it.She relate my practice with brainwashing or cult .It is incredible.Now i´m alone in home trying to find some answer.I know that this posting is offtopic but maybe here i will find some understanding.I follow regular practice of the safeties and observing the kundalini flow.Some times i think that is better go alone,finding that as result of my practise of yoga my sexual desire is near to 0.The most of my friends thik that i have to start eat meat and forget everything about yoga.This hurts me more.When people like us will be understanded?Thanks a lot for your answers kundalini people.I apreciate all your answers.Many blessings on the path! > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 3, 2010 Report Share Posted April 3, 2010 Thank you all for your postings!They are very helpfull for me.I´realy ready to sacrifice all in my life to run upon the higher order.I have no another chanse.If she wants to go with me we can go both if not i will follow alone.Couple of days ago i asked in my prayings for personal help from Shakti.I feel some times that this is a decision wich the Goddess allready took.I feel that all i have to do is to let the things go on,not to try to change anything.Blessings everyone and thank you ones again! , " Ordinary Sparrow " <ordinarysparrow wrote: > > Namaste > > dear friend asen > > > Sorry to hear of this bruseig of the heart. . . . . Big Hug. . . . . . > . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I will hold you in prayer of love and > light. > > This is such an important issue i can only encourage you to go deep > within and find the answer that you are called to live. > > " " At the center of your being you have the answer; You know who you are > and you know what you want. " - Lao-tzu > > ' To Thine Own Self Be True', in prayer and mediation seek your center > that knows the rightness for you at this time, at this place on the > sacred journey. > > Many of us have much we could share about these kinds of decisions, the > foot before becomes the foot behind. Dear Brother pilgrim, you are > walking a sacred path no matter the context. > > Please know we surround you with prayers and good thoughts for love, > light, truth, and comfort as this journey brings you to a place for > phase to find direction. In the center of your being there is a North > Star to guide you dear soul. > > love and peace > > sparrow > > > , " asen_perperov " > <asen_perperov@> wrote: > > > > I had relation with my wife 10 years .I have 1 child from her who is > 4 year old.Before 2 months she left our home.The reason for it like she > says is my spiritual life.She is atheist all life long and was disgusted > because of my practice,the raw food diet,my prayings,the meditation,yoga > etc.What she say is that i have to become " normal " person ,and if it is > impossible we will not live together anymore.It is hard decision for me > live without her and my boy,but what can i do?I can stop going on.I > have to practice.She says that for me yoga is more important than my > family and that is why i didn´t stop it.She relate my practice with > brainwashing or cult .It is incredible.Now i´m alone in home trying > to find some answer.I know that this posting is offtopic but maybe here > i will find some understanding.I follow regular practice of the safeties > and observing the kundalini flow.Some times i think that is better go > alone,finding that as result of my practise of yoga my sexual desire is > near to 0.The most of my friends thik that i have to start eat meat and > forget everything about yoga.This hurts me more.When people like us will > be understanded?Thanks a lot for your answers kundalini people.I > apreciate all your answers.Many blessings on the path! > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 4, 2010 Report Share Posted April 4, 2010 Dear friend  I had a similar experience with my husband! He said " you need to come back to normal " . VERY hard because we both love each other and I needed time alone, away and praying etc etc . He started to miss me.  I try now to balance the time and be more private with my practice. You need to dedicate some quality time with them also. The thing is that my hubby started to notice that for example on weekends I did not want to do nothing with him..just at home praying alone or that after meal time I locked myself to be on my own etc...thats hard for them but I know we dont have much option!! I also use to read the bible all the time and he felt sad because we were not sharing as before...arguments went high and that was WORSE for my K which was well unbalanced that time.  NOW, I get 1 hour for yoga or exercise after work in my gym (no at home) I learned to pray in silence every morning and night and do meditation in a private room or away from all so I dont disturb anyone . It is about balance. I try no to be as public as before in my practice and I make sure I always dedicated some good quality time after work and on weekends so he does not feel abandoned or with excuse to complain that i spend my time on my own thing.  I dont know untill when this can go either ! Sex issues are also complicated because i dont want and etc etc and diet have been easier because with both like vegetarian so he eats whatever I give him! I never tell him about my visions because I tried at the beginning and was bad for the relationship. I had also lots of attacks of entities at home…I used to see those things around him and when I told him he was freaking out so I promised myself never again say a word of what I see etc  I just can say what helped me! if they see you all the time praying, meditating etc they will feel rejected or so...so my best advise is get private in your practice. Try to practice yoga at specific times in the local park or local gym...pray and meditate when nobody is looking at you and set some quality time after work and weekends for them so they can feel more attention from you.  I have also thought to get on alone but i love him so much...i think the answers will come deep from your heart and K will guide you to take the best decision.  Blessings Monica --- El sáb, 4/3/10, asen_perperov <asen_perperov escribió: De: asen_perperov <asen_perperov Asunto: i need advice A: Fecha: sábado, 3 de abril de 2010, 05:29 am  I had relation with my wife 10 years .I have 1 child from her who is 4 year old.Before 2 months she left our home.The reason for it like she says is my spiritual life.She is atheist all life long and was disgusted because of my practice,the raw food diet,my prayings,the meditation,yoga etc.What she say is that i have to become " normal " person ,and if it is impossible we will not live together anymore.It is hard decision for me live without her and my boy,but what can i do?I can stop going on.I have to practice.She says that for me yoga is more important than my family and that is why i didn´t stop it.She relate my practice with brainwashing or cult .It is incredible.Now i´m alone in home trying to find some answer.I know that this posting is offtopic but maybe here i will find some understanding. I follow regular practice of the safeties and observing the kundalini flow.Some times i think that is better go alone,finding that as result of my practise of yoga my sexual desire is near to 0.The most of my friends thik that i have to start eat meat and forget everything about yoga.This hurts me more.When people like us will be understanded? Thanks a lot for your answers kundalini people.I apreciate all your answers.Many blessings on the path! ______________________________\ ____ ¡Obtén la mejor experiencia en la web! Descarga gratis el nuevo Internet Explorer 8. http://downloads./ieak8/?l=e1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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