Guest guest Posted April 8, 2010 Report Share Posted April 8, 2010 Dear All, I have been very occupied and have lots of posts to catch up on which I look forward to doing later. I wanted to share this with you... I often allow myself to become (or rather to view myself as becoming) fragmented when in fact I don't know it at the time but this is really not the case.... I am not fragmented, I am still whole but give myself over to conflicts non truths and doubts and begin to think I am fragmented. I loose confidence in my own truth, I forget to remember and recall it to being when fragmentaion and conflict come to visit and when I throw open the doors and allow them in. Yesterday... due to many reasons.... this occured... I began to feel fragmented, I did not feel grounded in my own truth, grounded in my own experiences. My mouth spoke the words of truth but I was not fully connected to this place of absolute knowing and love ... I allowed myself to connect to doubt...I allowed that disconnect within myself to flourish... and I paid more attention to that rather than the knowing. I was not happy. Then a sense of myself being grounded in truth no matter what my thoughts say no matter what conflicts blow, started to filter back to me... I began to sort of compare myself to being a bit like a tree..... Even as I was focusing on the upper part that was blowing in the winds of doubt I had just forgotten about the trunk and the roots that are solid and grounded in truth. A tree that has roots going deep into the soil.... a tree has its upper parts sway and blow when winds of doubt come by, but a tree actually unmoved by them... it knows it is not just its branches, it does not ignore its trunk and roots.... this image stayed with me as I went to " sleep " . Not only had I a sense of being a bit like a tree before I fell asleep I really BECAME and LIVED as a tree during the night.... I had lots of things come to this TREE of ME (thank you Shakti, thank you Chrism.) today I am speaking my truth there is no disconnect, today I am fully whole. I love being this me tree...lol! In love in thankfullness and in joy, Julia. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 8, 2010 Report Share Posted April 8, 2010 thanks for this, Julia. its a great visual, the tree. I've had that experience of not feeling connected to my words. I've always loved trees as a young child and felt such deep grief when in our neighborhood dutch elm disease was proliferating and they would spray pesticides that didn't work. (don't know why that came up now) I've been beginning to feel a channel from my gut all the way up to my throat, almost as if when the channel is open, my truth comes from my center. I realize I free associate alot on my own tangents and apologize if this isn't relavent but this is what came to me. Love to you, Julia, Jan , " Julia " <jajahern wrote: > > Dear All, > > I have been very occupied and have lots of posts to catch up on which I look forward to doing later. > > I wanted to share this with you... > I often allow myself to become (or rather to view myself as becoming) fragmented when in fact I don't know it at the time but this is really not the case.... I am not fragmented, I am still whole but give myself over to conflicts non truths and doubts and begin to think I am fragmented. I loose confidence in my own truth, I forget to remember and recall it to being when fragmentaion and conflict come to visit and when I throw open the doors and allow them in. > > Yesterday... due to many reasons.... this occured... I began to feel fragmented, I did not feel grounded in my own truth, grounded in my own experiences. My mouth spoke the words of truth but I was not fully connected to this place of absolute knowing and love ... I allowed myself to connect to doubt...I allowed that disconnect within myself to flourish... and I paid more attention to that rather than the knowing. I was not happy. > > Then a sense of myself being grounded in truth no matter what my thoughts say no matter what conflicts blow, started to filter back to me... > I began to sort of compare myself to being a bit like a tree..... > Even as I was focusing on the upper part that was blowing in the winds of doubt I had just forgotten about the trunk and the roots that are solid and grounded in truth. > A tree that has roots going deep into the soil.... a tree has its upper parts sway and blow when winds of doubt come by, but a tree actually unmoved by them... it knows it is not just its branches, it does not ignore its trunk and roots.... this image stayed with me as I went to " sleep " . > Not only had I a sense of being a bit like a tree before I fell asleep I really BECAME and LIVED as a tree during the night.... > I had lots of things come to this TREE of ME (thank you Shakti, thank you Chrism.) > > today I am speaking my truth there is no disconnect, today I am fully whole. > > I love being this me tree...lol! > > In love in thankfullness and in joy, Julia. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 8, 2010 Report Share Posted April 8, 2010 Julia I love your analogy about the me tree! I have been painting and photographing a lot of trees lately and as it often happens with me, I don't know the significance of  why I draw or paint something until afterwards. Sometimes it makes me anxious of what I'm going to paint next! I loved your story and the significance of it - it resonated with me. Maybe I can call my last tree painting a Me Tree - if that is okay with you? Love Mary - " Julia " <jajahern Thursday, April 8, 2010 5:29:17 AM GMT -06:00 Guadalajara / Mexico City / Monterrey Me  Tree.  Dear All, I have been very occupied and have lots of posts to catch up on which I look forward to doing later. I wanted to share this with you... I often allow myself to become (or rather to view myself as becoming) fragmented when in fact I don't know it at the time but this is really not the case.... I am not fragmented, I am still whole but give myself over to conflicts non truths and doubts and begin to think I am fragmented. I loose confidence in my own truth, I forget to remember and recall it to being when fragmentaion and conflict come to visit and when I throw open the doors and allow them in. Yesterday... due to many reasons.... this occured... I began to feel fragmented, I did not feel grounded in my own truth, grounded in my own experiences. My mouth spoke the words of truth but I was not fully connected to this place of absolute knowing and love ... I allowed myself to connect to doubt...I allowed that disconnect within myself to flourish... and I paid more attention to that rather than the knowing. I was not happy. Then a sense of myself being grounded in truth no matter what my thoughts say no matter what conflicts blow, started to filter back to me... I began to sort of compare myself to being a bit like a tree..... Even as I was focusing on the upper part that was blowing in the winds of doubt I had just forgotten about the trunk and the roots that are solid and grounded in truth. A tree that has roots going deep into the soil.... a tree has its upper parts sway and blow when winds of doubt come by, but a tree actually unmoved by them... it knows it is not just its branches, it does not ignore its trunk and roots.... this image stayed with me as I went to " sleep " . Not only had I a sense of being a bit like a tree before I fell asleep I really BECAME and LIVED as a tree during the night.... I had lots of things come to this TREE of ME (thank you Shakti, thank you Chrism.) today I am speaking my truth there is no disconnect, today I am fully whole. I love being this me tree...lol! In love in thankfullness and in joy, Julia. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 8, 2010 Report Share Posted April 8, 2010 Thanks for this Mary. when I was in the Pathwork program, the land in Virginia had the most beautiful trees. i was with the program for two years and towards the end, what they called the Mother Oak was dying. I think it was very symbolic of what was happening with the whole program. Two of the male leaders were using their power & control issues in sexually inappropriate ways with some of the participants. It was really out of balance. Thats when I turned to the Divine Mother. I think there is great power and strength in the trees. I like that, the Me Tree. When you're done, maybe you can take a picture and share it. Love, Jan , merozema wrote: > > > > Julia > > > > I love your analogy about the me tree! I have been painting and photographing a lot of trees lately and as it often happens with me, I don't know the significance of  why I draw or paint something until afterwards. Sometimes it makes me anxious of what I'm going to paint next! I loved your story and the significance of it - it resonated with me. Maybe I can call my last tree painting a Me Tree - if that is okay with you? > > Love > > Mary > > > - > " Julia " <jajahern > > Thursday, April 8, 2010 5:29:17 AM GMT -06:00 Guadalajara / Mexico City / Monterrey > Me  Tree. > >  > > > > > Dear All, > > I have been very occupied and have lots of posts to catch up on which I look forward to doing later. > > I wanted to share this with you... > I often allow myself to become (or rather to view myself as becoming) fragmented when in fact I don't know it at the time but this is really not the case.... I am not fragmented, I am still whole but give myself over to conflicts non truths and doubts and begin to think I am fragmented. I loose confidence in my own truth, I forget to remember and recall it to being when fragmentaion and conflict come to visit and when I throw open the doors and allow them in. > > Yesterday... due to many reasons.... this occured... I began to feel fragmented, I did not feel grounded in my own truth, grounded in my own experiences. My mouth spoke the words of truth but I was not fully connected to this place of absolute knowing and love ... I allowed myself to connect to doubt...I allowed that disconnect within myself to flourish... and I paid more attention to that rather than the knowing. I was not happy. > > Then a sense of myself being grounded in truth no matter what my thoughts say no matter what conflicts blow, started to filter back to me... > I began to sort of compare myself to being a bit like a tree..... > Even as I was focusing on the upper part that was blowing in the winds of doubt I had just forgotten about the trunk and the roots that are solid and grounded in truth. > A tree that has roots going deep into the soil.... a tree has its upper parts sway and blow when winds of doubt come by, but a tree actually unmoved by them... it knows it is not just its branches, it does not ignore its trunk and roots.... this image stayed with me as I went to " sleep " . > Not only had I a sense of being a bit like a tree before I fell asleep I really BECAME and LIVED as a tree during the night.... > I had lots of things come to this TREE of ME (thank you Shakti, thank you Chrism.) > > today I am speaking my truth there is no disconnect, today I am fully whole. > > I love being this me tree...lol! > > In love in thankfullness and in joy, Julia. > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 8, 2010 Report Share Posted April 8, 2010 Beautiful...truly living by your root:) Blessings, Â Katharine ________________________________ Julia <jajahern Thu, April 8, 2010 5:29:17 AM Me Tree. Â Dear All, I have been very occupied and have lots of posts to catch up on which I look forward to doing later. I wanted to share this with you... I often allow myself to become (or rather to view myself as becoming) fragmented when in fact I don't know it at the time but this is really not the case.... I am not fragmented, I am still whole but give myself over to conflicts non truths and doubts and begin to think I am fragmented. I loose confidence in my own truth, I forget to remember and recall it to being when fragmentaion and conflict come to visit and when I throw open the doors and allow them in. Yesterday... due to many reasons.... this occured... I began to feel fragmented, I did not feel grounded in my own truth, grounded in my own experiences. My mouth spoke the words of truth but I was not fully connected to this place of absolute knowing and love ... I allowed myself to connect to doubt...I allowed that disconnect within myself to flourish... and I paid more attention to that rather than the knowing. I was not happy. Then a sense of myself being grounded in truth no matter what my thoughts say no matter what conflicts blow, started to filter back to me... I began to sort of compare myself to being a bit like a tree..... Even as I was focusing on the upper part that was blowing in the winds of doubt I had just forgotten about the trunk and the roots that are solid and grounded in truth. A tree that has roots going deep into the soil.... a tree has its upper parts sway and blow when winds of doubt come by, but a tree actually unmoved by them... it knows it is not just its branches, it does not ignore its trunk and roots.... this image stayed with me as I went to " sleep " . Not only had I a sense of being a bit like a tree before I fell asleep I really BECAME and LIVED as a tree during the night.... I had lots of things come to this TREE of ME (thank you Shakti, thank you Chrism.) today I am speaking my truth there is no disconnect, today I am fully whole. I love being this me tree...lol! In love in thankfullness and in joy, Julia. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 8, 2010 Report Share Posted April 8, 2010 Dear Mary Of course I would be okay with you calling one of your paintings a Me Tree.... It was lovely to hear that you are apinting and photographing trees and that my story resonated with you. All that was brought to this tree of me during last night has been such a wonderful teaching and has gifted me a new strenght. I am so grateful for it. Any chance you could post some of your photos or paintings... it would be lovely to see them if you are ok with sharing. love Julia , merozema wrote: > > > > Julia > > > > I love your analogy about the me tree! I have been painting and photographing a lot of trees lately and as Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 8, 2010 Report Share Posted April 8, 2010 Dear jan, I liked reading what you said about a channel from your gut all the way up to your throat... and the truth coming from your centre when this channel is open. love Julia , " yogijan " <drjandean wrote: > > thanks for this, Julia. its a great visual, the tree. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 8, 2010 Report Share Posted April 8, 2010 Hi julia, What a wonderful gift this post is! It never occured to me to think of winds of doubt quite like this. Thankyou... Waay deep! Are your roots! Shanti and prem, tim Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry " Julia " <jajahern Thu, 08 Apr 2010 10:29:17 Me Tree. Dear All, I have been very occupied and have lots of posts to catch up on which I look forward to doing later. I wanted to share this with you... I often allow myself to become (or rather to view myself as becoming) fragmented when in fact I don't know it at the time but this is really not the case.... I am not fragmented, I am still whole but give myself over to conflicts non truths and doubts and begin to think I am fragmented. I loose confidence in my own truth, I forget to remember and recall it to being when fragmentaion and conflict come to visit and when I throw open the doors and allow them in. Yesterday... due to many reasons.... this occured... I began to feel fragmented, I did not feel grounded in my own truth, grounded in my own experiences. My mouth spoke the words of truth but I was not fully connected to this place of absolute knowing and love ... I allowed myself to connect to doubt...I allowed that disconnect within myself to flourish... and I paid more attention to that rather than the knowing. I was not happy. Then a sense of myself being grounded in truth no matter what my thoughts say no matter what conflicts blow, started to filter back to me... I began to sort of compare myself to being a bit like a tree..... Even as I was focusing on the upper part that was blowing in the winds of doubt I had just forgotten about the trunk and the roots that are solid and grounded in truth. A tree that has roots going deep into the soil.... a tree has its upper parts sway and blow when winds of doubt come by, but a tree actually unmoved by them... it knows it is not just its branches, it does not ignore its trunk and roots.... this image stayed with me as I went to " sleep " . Not only had I a sense of being a bit like a tree before I fell asleep I really BECAME and LIVED as a tree during the night.... I had lots of things come to this TREE of ME (thank you Shakti, thank you Chrism.) today I am speaking my truth there is no disconnect, today I am fully whole. I love being this me tree...lol! In love in thankfullness and in joy, Julia. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 8, 2010 Report Share Posted April 8, 2010 dear Julia This is powerful and such beautiful imagery for grounding. . .Thanks. . love and light sparrow > > I love being this me tree...lol! > > In love in thankfullness and in joy, Julia. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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