Semianar meanderings...

[Guest guest]

I was very grateful to be able to spend some quality time with the teacher -

knowing chrism on the web - speaking with him on the phone or being part of a

seminar pales when allowed to be in his physical company. I want to thank

chrism for being open to spending time with we the members and students.

Everyone wants some time with chrism and he knows this and allows this for he

realizes how important he is as our Kundalini Shakti teacher. He never had an

opportunity to know a teacher and he wants us to have this gift.

 

Lots of ideas are gelling for the program and this weekend chrism invited 3 more

to hold the Ajna Cari title. For those who do not know what this means. Ajna

Cari means " beloved " Here is my analogy:

 

As chrism is building his Shakti army ( yes I know army has negative

connotations yet in this context -NOT!) There was an army for Christ - we now

have our army for Shakti and in fact is it not one and the same- anyhow - as the

KAS program grows there is a need for soldiers or assistants. As chrism meets

and knows of his members he sees potentials of talent and skills in various

formats and in many of the members. Ajna Cari's come in all forms - some of us

like Brad, and I answered a direct call from Shakti to be of service and

offered. Others like Helen, Caitlin, David, Sarkis and Danielle answered a

call from the teacher and were chosen for skills and interests they reveal.

 

All of us have a deep devotion to Shakti, Shakti's representative , chrism and

to the service for others thru the KAS program. It will take many soldiers to

spread the good news of Shakti Kundalini to the masses.

 

An Ajna Cari holds a responsibility to be of good example for the KAS program.

To be able to represent the program in all facets but especially in terms of the

basic core elements of the KAS program- the safeties. Ajna Cari's are held to a

higher standard. Being the first one who was honored to receive this title - I

will admit to not being of the stellar character that is required. chrism has

been patient with me and supportive on all levels. And I am extremely grateful

for his willingness to hold me in his heart as I sturggled to come to know my

role in this program.

 

I feel at times that I am the old lady here- members have referred to me as the

" mother " " the assistant " and " the heart " of the program. I am always

flabbergasted to hear these things. I see myself as the worker bee - for a time

the only one and now one of an army of workers. As a unit we are mighty just

like it takes a colony of bees to feed the queen it takes a group of dedicated

workers to feed this program.

 

I am here to offer service to any and all who need it. I am here for my fellow

Ajna Cari's as they find their place in the program. And although I still have

issues to work on - I promise to all of you to continue to find my way thru the

muck of my past injuries and pains so that I can free myself to help all of you

in a more loving and dedicated manner. Surrender surrender surrender...

 

I have never ever dedicated myself to any one or any program. My dedication to

chrism and the KAS program goes beyond the love of family and friends, it goes

beyond the love of a lover/mate, it goes beyond the love of life, in my mind it

enters a realm of devotion compared to a nun or a monk who dedicate their lives

to the Source. I am prepared to do whatever is asked of me. This is not a

requirement to be an Ajna Cari yet for me it is the depth of my surrender to the

program of Shakti.

 

Ajna Cari is an honoring of our spirit by the Shakti and by the teacher. It

does not mean we as a group are any better or further advanced or in any way

superior to any member here. On the contrary it means that we are working on

being humble in our dedication to the Shakti by being here for her and by being

open to all requests of our teacher. chrism needs dedicated workers - those who

are willing to go beyond the ordinary and give all they have to the Shakti that

flows thru chrism. This is not an easy task on some levels - yet on other

levels it is a task that is filled with love and service in all ways and is oh

so easy to perform.

 

My calling has been strong from day one of meeting chrism. It has pulled me to

travel around the country and still pulls me in new directions. My journey has

not ended in fact I truly feel it has just begun. I am humbled and honored to

be part of this army - this army for Shakti Kundalini- it is a just and good

cause and will benefit so many who need assistance with the Kundalini.

 

I felt a shift during the last shaktipat offered on the web in March - a shift

in my view/seeing. This past weekend at the seminar on the way home I realized

another shift has taken place. Something has changed in me something in my

outlook - I cannot fully grasp it yet- yet it is there and I know.

 

During my interview with Nitin for the filming I was an observer of me- I felt I

was the body yet the words were not mine - I do not remember what I said or how.

I actually knew that Shakti was speaking thru me- it was strange and wonderful

at the same time. I even asked chrism if he was directing me silently. He said

no - so if not him then that leaves only one other- Shakti! It is an amazing

honor an amazing feeling to know that one is being used and guided by the

Shakti.

 

I vow to all of you here to continue to dedicate my life to serve Shakti, chrism

, the KAS program and all of you in any way that is needed. Please know that I

feel humbled by this calling- this is truly a calling of spirit one I never

dreamed would be asked of me.

 

Thank you chrism for the naming, for your willingness to help me become more of

what I am and thank you for offering your guidance that I had searched for all

my life. You are a good wonderful loving representative of the Kundalniin

Shakti- a true son of Shakti.

 

I know you, I love you and I always will...

 

a dedicated Ajna Cari

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