Wounded by cupid's arrow. =(

May 15, 2010

Hi everyone,

I have been wounded by an arrow from cupid.

I spoke to someone recently who I went out with a couple of years ago.

Before we spoke I still kind of liked her with a detached sort of way

because

she is a very unique person. Not that I was always thinkin about her, but

when she did come to my mind it was with a pleasant feeling.

After we talked again, she sounded really nice, almost like she wants to

get back together. We didn't talk about getting back together or anything of

that nature, but I know her pretty well from the past and I can almost

" feel " what she was saying.

Anyway the whole story is crazy, I know this is a test because in the last

month I have been very much trying to stay 100% on the spiritual path,

keeping

my emotional state balanced. No anger and no excitement. I have been keeping

a journal of vows I make for myself to break my habits (big and small,

physical and mental) and I have been doing a pretty good job. So now this

happens!!

The reason that this is sort of a big deal for me is it because when I

fall in love, I FALL IN LOVE. Once I am fully in love with someone I

completely lose myself. I will not be able to keep my

concentration/awareness on anything because she will be on my mind all day.

Also, this is how I was last time when fell in love, before I had any sort

of K energy risings. With K energy rising (as it has been in the last year

or so) it will multiply these feelings by couple of times.

Anyway, as I was saying I know this is a test, and I am really trying to

be mindful 100%, to bring awareness to any thoughts/feelings that come up,

as soon as they come up, but it just seems like my mindfulness is on

overdrive. I know these feelings are not me, its just hard to keep that

in mind all the time.

Writing things usually help me " analyze " the situation more, and too see

it more clearly, so that's why I wrote this.

If anyone has been through an experience like this, I would definitely

love to hear it.

With Love,

Mike

May 15, 2010

maybe surrender and allow yourself into the experience? The Witness is ever

present and as long as you're witnessing what's happening, you are present, even

if its thoughts and strong feelings about a girl.

I don't know if this will resonate with you but I recently had an epiphany that

we aren't meant to mountains, staying untouched by the world, we're meant to be

touched by all the world, to allow it to transform us and the experiences we are

having we can either push away or touch them as we allow those experiences and

feelings to touch us.

Girls are wonderful, they have the capacity to show us our blind spots.

craig

, JiNN <jinnproduction

wrote:

>

> Hi everyone,

> I have been wounded by an arrow from cupid.

> I spoke to someone recently who I went out with a couple of years ago.

> Before we spoke I still kind of liked her with a detached sort of way

> because

> she is a very unique person. Not that I was always thinkin about her, but

> when she did come to my mind it was with a pleasant feeling.

> After we talked again, she sounded really nice, almost like she wants to

> get back together. We didn't talk about getting back together or anything of

> that nature, but I know her pretty well from the past and I can almost

> " feel " what she was saying.

> Anyway the whole story is crazy, I know this is a test because in the last

> month I have been very much trying to stay 100% on the spiritual path,

> keeping

> my emotional state balanced. No anger and no excitement. I have been keeping

> a journal of vows I make for myself to break my habits (big and small,

> physical and mental) and I have been doing a pretty good job. So now this

> happens!!

> The reason that this is sort of a big deal for me is it because when I

> fall in love, I FALL IN LOVE. Once I am fully in love with someone I

> completely lose myself. I will not be able to keep my

> concentration/awareness on anything because she will be on my mind all day.

> Also, this is how I was last time when fell in love, before I had any sort

> of K energy risings. With K energy rising (as it has been in the last year

> or so) it will multiply these feelings by couple of times.

> Anyway, as I was saying I know this is a test, and I am really trying to

> be mindful 100%, to bring awareness to any thoughts/feelings that come up,

> as soon as they come up, but it just seems like my mindfulness is on

> overdrive. I know these feelings are not me, its just hard to keep that

> in mind all the time.

>

> Writing things usually help me " analyze " the situation more, and too see

> it more clearly, so that's why I wrote this.

> If anyone has been through an experience like this, I would definitely

> love to hear it.

>

> With Love,

> Mike

>

May 15, 2010

Hi craig,

Thanks for your reply.

I think if i surrender to the experience i will lose the " Witness " status

and will be completely engulfed in the emotional part of love. My

mindfullness/awareness is not that strong.

>>Girls are wonderful, they have the capacity to show us our blind spots.

Absolutely, as anything else in this world. Its just that right now i do

not want to go into a relationship because it makes me completely love my

mind (not in sexual way, but in a emotional way). I do not have enough

awareness strength to be a Witness in a relationship.

With Love,

Mike

On Sat, May 15, 2010 at 3:01 PM, phoenix.ing9 <phoenix.ing9wrote:

>

> maybe surrender and allow yourself into the experience? The Witness is ever

> present and as long as you're witnessing what's happening, you are present,

> even if its thoughts and strong feelings about a girl.

>

> I don't know if this will resonate with you but I recently had an epiphany

> that we aren't meant to mountains, staying untouched by the world, we're

> meant to be touched by all the world, to allow it to transform us and the

> experiences we are having we can either push away or touch them as we allow

> those experiences and feelings to touch us.

>

> Girls are wonderful, they have the capacity to show us our blind spots.

>

> craig

>

> --- In

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hoogroups.com>,

> JiNN <jinnproduction wrote:

> >

> > Hi everyone,

> > I have been wounded by an arrow from cupid.

> > I spoke to someone recently who I went out with a couple of years ago.

> > Before we spoke I still kind of liked her with a detached sort of way

> > because

> > she is a very unique person. Not that I was always thinkin about her, but

> > when she did come to my mind it was with a pleasant feeling.

> > After we talked again, she sounded really nice, almost like she wants to

> > get back together. We didn't talk about getting back together or anything

> of

> > that nature, but I know her pretty well from the past and I can almost

> > " feel " what she was saying.

> > Anyway the whole story is crazy, I know this is a test because in the

> last

> > month I have been very much trying to stay 100% on the spiritual path,

> > keeping

> > my emotional state balanced. No anger and no excitement. I have been

> keeping

> > a journal of vows I make for myself to break my habits (big and small,

> > physical and mental) and I have been doing a pretty good job. So now this

> > happens!!

> > The reason that this is sort of a big deal for me is it because when I

> > fall in love, I FALL IN LOVE. Once I am fully in love with someone I

> > completely lose myself. I will not be able to keep my

> > concentration/awareness on anything because she will be on my mind all

> day.

> > Also, this is how I was last time when fell in love, before I had any

> sort

> > of K energy risings. With K energy rising (as it has been in the last

> year

> > or so) it will multiply these feelings by couple of times.

> > Anyway, as I was saying I know this is a test, and I am really trying to

> > be mindful 100%, to bring awareness to any thoughts/feelings that come

> up,

> > as soon as they come up, but it just seems like my mindfulness is on

> > overdrive. I know these feelings are not me, its just hard to keep

> that

> > in mind all the time.

> >

> > Writing things usually help me " analyze " the situation more, and too see

> > it more clearly, so that's why I wrote this.

> > If anyone has been through an experience like this, I would definitely

> > love to hear it.

> >

> > With Love,

> > Mike

> >

May 15, 2010

Romantic love is a good thing! We can still be on a spiritual path and be in a

loving relationship. Especially if the partner shares that path.

I would not suggest that we " lose' our self into the experience but rather that

we learn to give and receive within the zone of loving self validation. Meaning

that we never give all of our self into a relationship.

We keep some areas sacred only to our self and that which is awakening within

us. We give love and we receive love but we must also remain in love with who we

are and what we are and the sacred path that we are on and that is upon us.

Then from that point are we always in our authentic and honest self and not

coming into the expression of needing to measure up to another persons

expectation.

As they cannot know what the Kundalini is requiring of us only that it is and

does require certain elements of expression. Just some thoughts about that. -

blessings Mike and Craig and all! - chrism

m

m_d · October 20, 2010

don't be a fool, someone to fall in love with is a GIFT for you on your spiritual path. where are you even trying to get to on your little 'spiritual path'? as far as i know, love is the whole point of a 'spiritual path'. in which case, meeting that person isn't a coincidence - youve been given a gift by God.. id really suggest you go with it. what better way to learn to love than through loving another? if love isnt the goal of what youre doing.. id really question what your 'spiritual path' is really about. love is the only purpose.. the only thing in all the universe that has any meaning. so if i were you id get on my knees and thank God for giving you someone who you can love, it makes things a lot easier for you.

where im coming from, if it might help:

not that long ago, i was completely dedicated to God. i didn't want to bother with any 'romantic' earthly relationships, i had absolutely no interest in them at all, i knew God was the only answer. i gave everything I had to him, not just my physical body and possessions but in my mind as well, all my personal beliefs, thoughts, judgements, etc etc. I managed to completely wipe my mind clear and give it to God. and then what happend? God took me into heaven for a moment and introduced me to the person i love. and that person didnt even have any idea who i was.. and lived thousands of miles away from me.. yet im still completely in love with them. and its still incredibly beautiful to love another person so unconditionally. i realized i didnt even really know what love was before that. so id say your situation is pretty awesome.. if someone like that just appeared in your life, no worries about when youre going to get to see them again or anything like that - its all been done for you already. you still love God of course, just as someone else - i cant describe how awesome it really is.