Guest guest Posted August 28, 2003 Report Share Posted August 28, 2003 I came to Krishna Consciousness about 10 months ago and I partaked in lighting incense and reading about krishna. But then this poem showed up in my life : Krishna, my lord, I adore thee Song of your flute flows so sweetly Blissfully dancing for me Until I surrender completely Until I surrender completely You're luring me away from every worldly joy With such an ecstasy divine With you I want to stay, enchanting, dark-skinned boy Now that I know that you are mine Now that I know that you are mine Krishna, my lord, come to me Dance through the forest of my heart Make me your flute, breathe through me That we may never be apart That we may never be apart Oh, make me straight and true along the path that you have shown In all I think and do and say Of hollowest bamboo, with no desires of my own For any tune you wish to play For any tune you wish to play (flute solo) Krishna, my love, come to me Dance through the forest of my heart Make me your flute, breathe through me That we may never be apart That we may never be apart I usually read about krishna on the websites but this poem has stolen my good sleep and is making me wretched. I constantly think about krishna and lose myself in some fantasies about krishna blowing me(as if i am a flute) and me dancing to him. I am being serious with this, It does not make sense, I cannot sleep at night, I go to bed at like 10:00 pm but truly fall asleep at 2:00 am and then that too I have dreams about this me being krishna's flute or dancing to him. Bhakthi in my view should be healthy, but this is nothing but pain. I lust for krishna but I know he won't show up. Things weren't like this, I wasn't this desperate for God's appearance before me that I fantasize such things. I want to be that desperate, but it is painful and then again I am desperate and want to be like that. What the heck should I do ? These fantasies are making me lose my cool or am I going crazy and fantasizing about God in this way? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sinimat Posted August 28, 2003 Report Share Posted August 28, 2003 I would talk to your Guru about this. If you don't have one yet, find somone you can talk to. Go to the local temple and find a devotee you can confide in. Hare Krishna Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Govindaram Posted August 28, 2003 Report Share Posted August 28, 2003 Hare Krishna I want to be that desperate, but it is painful and then again I am desperate and want to be like that. Are you sure you are not enjoying this feeling, are you kidding yourself in some way? These fantasies are making me lose my cool or am I going crazy and fantasizing about God in this way? fantasizing..depends what you mean by this word? does it seem like reality to you? You need to talk to somebody about this, like Sinimatji said. Im my humble opinion, we are all crazy in some way, but to be crazy after Krsna is Good crazy not bad /images/graemlins/smile.gif Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 28, 2003 Report Share Posted August 28, 2003 My local temple is about 440 miles away from where I am. I have no Guru either. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theist Posted August 28, 2003 Report Share Posted August 28, 2003 Srimad Bhagavatam 10th Canto chapter 21: SB 10.21.1: Sukadeva Gosvami said: Thus the Vrndvana forest was filled with transparent autumnal waters and cooled by breezes perfumed with the fragrance of lotus flowers growing in the clear lakes. The infallible Lord, accompanied by His cows and cowherd boyfriends, entered that Vrndavana forest. SB 10.21.2: The lakes, rivers and hills of Vrndavana resounded with the sounds of maddened bees and flocks of birds moving about the flowering trees. In the company of the cowherd boys and Balarama, Madhupati [or Krsna] entered that forest, and while herding the cows He began to vibrate His flute. SB 10.21.3: When the young ladies in the cowherd village of Vraja heard the song of Krsna's flute, which arouses the influence of Cupid, some of them privately began describing Krsna's qualities to their intimate friends. SB 10.21.4: The cowherd girls began to speak about Krsna, but when they remembered His activities, O King, the power of Cupid disturbed their minds, and thus they could not speak. SB 10.21.5: Wearing a peacock-feather ornament upon His head, blue karnikra flowers on His ears, a yellow garment as brilliant as gold, and the Vaijayanti garland, Lord Krsna exhibited His transcendental form as the greatest of dancers as He entered the forest of Vrndvana, beautifying it with the marks of His footprints. He filled the holes of His flute with the nectar of His lips, and the cowherd boys sang His glories. SB 10.21.6: O King, when the young ladies in Vraja heard the sound of Krsna's flute, which captivates the minds of all living beings, they all embraced one another and began describing it. SB 10.21.7: The cowherd girls said: O friends, those eyes that see the beautiful faces of the sons of Maharaja Nanda are certainly fortunate. As these two sons enter the forest, surrounded by Their friends, driving the cows before Them, They hold Their flutes to Their mouths and glance lovingly upon the residents of Vrndvana. For those who have eyes, we think there is no greater object of vision. SB 10.21.8: Dressed in a charming variety of garments, upon which Their garlands rest, and decorating Themselves with peacock feathers, lotuses, lilies, newly grown mango sprouts and clusters of flower buds, Krsna and Balarama shine forth magnificently among the assembly of cowherd boys. They look just like the best of dancers appearing on a dramatic stage, and sometimes They sing. SB 10.21.9: My dear gopis, what auspicious activities must the flute have performed to enjoy the nectar of Krsna's lips independently and leave only a taste for us gopis, for whom that nectar is actually meant! The forefathers of the flute, the bamboo trees, shed tears of pleasure. His mother, the river on whose bank the bamboo was born, feels jubilation, and therefore her blooming lotus flowers are standing like hair on her body. SB 10.21.10: O friend, Vrndavana is spreading the glory of the earth, having obtained the treasure of the lotus feet of Krsna, the son of Devaki. The peacocks dance madly when they hear Govinda's flute, and when other creatures see them from the hilltops, they all become stunned. SB 10.21.11: Blessed are all these foolish deer because they have approached Maharaja Nanda's son, who is gorgeously dressed and is playing on His flute. Indeed, both the doe and the bucks worship the Lord with looks of love and affection. SB 10.21.12: Krsna's beauty and character create a festival for all women. Indeed, when the demigods' wives flying in airplanes with their husbands catch sight of Him and hear His resonant flute-song, their hearts are shaken by Cupid, and they become so bewildered that the flowers fall out of their hair and their belts loosen. SB 10.21.13: Using their upraised ears as vessels, the cows are drinking the nectar of the flute-song flowing out of Krsna's mouth. The calves, their mouths full of milk from their mothers' moist nipples, stand still as they take Govinda within themselves through their tear-filled eyes and embrace Him within their hearts. SB 10.21.14: O mother, in this forest all the birds have risen onto the beautiful branches of the trees to see Krsna. With closed eyes they are simply listening in silence to the sweet vibrations of His flute, and they are not attracted by any other sound. Surely these birds are on the same level as great sages. SB 10.21.15: When the rivers hear the flute-song of Krsna, their minds begin to desire Him, and thus the flow of their currents is broken and their waters are agitated, moving around in whirlpools. Then with the arms of their waves the rivers embrace Murari's lotus feet and, holding on to them, present offerings of lotus flowers. SB 10.21.16: In the company of Balarama and the cowherd boys, Lord Krsna is continually vibrating His flute as He herds all the animals of Vraja, even under the full heat of the summer sun. Seeing this, the cloud in the sky has expanded himself out of love. He is rising high and constructing out of his own body, with its multitude of flower-like droplets of water, an umbrella for the sake of his friend. SB 10.21.17: The aborigine women of the Vrndavana area become disturbed by lust when they see the grass marked with reddish kunkuma powder. Endowed with the color of Krsna's lotus feet, this powder originally decorated the breasts of His beloveds, and when the aborigine women smear it on their faces and breasts, they feel fully satisfied and give up all their anxiety. SB 10.21.18: Of all the devotees, this Govardhana Hill is the best! O my friends, this hill supplies Krsna and Balarama, along with Their calves, cows and cowherd friends, with all kinds of necessities — water for drinking, very soft grass, caves, fruits, flowers and vegetables. In this way the hill offers respects to the Lord. Being touched by the lotus feet of Krsna and Balarama, Govardhana Hill appears very jubilant. SB 10.21.19: My dear friends, as Krsna and Balarama pass through the forest with Their cowherd friends, leading Their cows, They carry ropes to bind the cows' rear legs at the time of milking. When Lord Krsna plays on His flute, the sweet music causes the moving living entities to become stunned and the nonmoving trees to tremble with ecstasy. These things are certainly very wonderful. SB 10.21.20: Thus narrating to one another the playful pastimes of the Supreme Personality of Godhead as He wandered about in the Vrndavana forest, the gopis became fully absorbed in thoughts of Him. ---------------------------- Srila Prabhupada's books are your guru. The Lord in the heart may bring you other forms of guru in the future. You can read his books free on-line at http://vedabase.com/ Try to find and read everything you can about Krsna's flutes from Prabhupada's books. I wish I had such dreams. Hare Krsna Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 28, 2003 Report Share Posted August 28, 2003 that was beautiful. I will read the vedabase. thank you again. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theist Posted August 28, 2003 Report Share Posted August 28, 2003 Yes there are oceans of beauty in Prabhupada's books. His words are like a lifeline that link a drowning man to shore. Hare Krsna Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sinimat Posted August 28, 2003 Report Share Posted August 28, 2003 Yeah, it is a great thing that you are having such dreams. However, it seems like you need to maybe transform your desires into just serving Krishna. It seems like you have a vast potential inside you just waiting to be released. Just chant the Hare Krishna mantra and surrender these dreams unto Him. It seems like it might be the ego getting in the way. I hope this makes sense and helps. Hare Krishna! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 30, 2003 Report Share Posted August 30, 2003 It may take many years perhaps many lifetimes before you come to this platform of bhava. For now, seek the association of devotees and chant Hare Krsna! Listen to the sound vibration and as Srila Prabhupada told us, Krsna will be dancing on your tongue.Haribol... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 1, 2003 Report Share Posted September 1, 2003 I lust for krishna but I know he won't show up. he he!! didn't you know you are not supposed to do that!! he he he!!!! anyway: Bhagavad Gita 3.33 sadrsam cestate svasyah prakrter jnanavan api prakrtim yanti bhutani nigrahah kim karisyati Even a man of knowledge acts according to his own nature, for everyone follows his nature. What can repression accomplish? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 1, 2003 Report Share Posted September 1, 2003 Try to be "mindfull", during the day ,meditate regularly,with pure devotion to Krsna and you will come "alive" in your dreams then ask Ksna ,What to do? good luck and dont worry Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
theist Posted September 1, 2003 Report Share Posted September 1, 2003 to become "alive" or lucid in such a dream may just be the perfection of life. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
I_love_krishna_ Posted September 2, 2003 Report Share Posted September 2, 2003 Krishna, my love, come to me Dance through the forest of my heart Make me your flute, breathe through me That we may never be apart That we may never be apart Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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