Am I crazy ?

[Guest guest]

Why is it that the very thought of religion invokes an intense bias in the people who I meet everyday? I like reading about krishna consciousness. These philosophies are very powerful and a way to the truth(for me), then why am I called crazy?

 

The scenario is not very strange. I read about Krishna Consciousness on a quietly on a public library. I am not bothering anyone, I am not offending anything. I am not even discussing these things with anyone, but along come these people who think that I am crazy or interpret that I am crazy for some reasons which even I don't understand as if something was wrong with me. I am crazy for reading Krsna (the book), bhagavatham and Bhagavad Gita, but they are not crazy for watching tons of movies and discussing things which I find are trivial and boring. I am crazy for preferring to have a place alone for myself where I can sit and think about krishna, however they are not crazy to have a quiet and place alone for themselves to do whatever that they do. I am crazy for liking the fact that a supreme proprietor exists, they are not crazy for talking about 'what this guy said' what that guy said' how this guy was or how that girl was in a movie, how Indians, Japanese, Chinese, Americans look. I am crazy for reading poems, singing songs and connecting them with my thoughts of devotion, they are not crazy for singing songs, reading poems and connecting them with the thoughts of their boyfriends or movie stars.

 

Why do I say this?

To say it somewhere, where insanity is sanity and sanity is insanity or may be it is to just let this out.

Thank you for reading. Good night.

 

[Guest guest]

the six goswamis were "dhira adhira janat pryau".. or "dear to every kind of people.. devotee and non devotee"

 

so your and my advancement has to lead us to a stage where we feel everyone as a brother, part and parcel of god as we too are

 

so we have not to be too sentimental and artificial to imagine that we have a vision and a behaviour proper for an uttama adhikari.. but we have also to understand that chanting hare krishna is the only medicin for us and for making other people more friendly and appreciative to us

 

if we please krsna.. he being in the heart of everyone will adjust everything from there

 

if we save us we save also the world...

[Guest guest]

Yea, your post is more thoughtful. Thank you, it is may be the fact that I am not pleasing krishna by acting that way. I should lighten up, tolerate it and go by my own way. I did not think of it that way, thank you for your post.

 

[Priitaa]

If you need it, you can tell them to stop looking over your shoulder, but most important, don't worry about what others tihnk of you. As long as you are doing whats right for you, thats all that matters. And remember, you are reading about the highest science of God in all the three worlds. If anything, feel sorry for those who can't get it.

[Haridham]

well, these people consider you to be crazy because they havent felt or seen anything real. They think being real is crazy.

 

I mean to them the only thing that is "real" is partying, drinking, watching tv, sexlife drugs etc etc etc.

 

Thats all the real they know. If someone does something else then they must be crazy.

 

I mean not messing up your life through drinking and driving, getting hooked on drugs, getting pregnant at an early age or other std's to me dont seem crazy.

 

But if focusing on my life and leading a good life is crazy then I dont want to be sane.

 

We are too cool to be sane

 

hare Krsna

[Guest guest]

I guess that it was a group that was calling you 'crazy'. You know they are just showing their own insecurity. Do not let this affect you, when their bubble is threatened they gand up and lower others.

 

Do not let yourself be affected by that, remain fixed in your heart that Krishna is the only friend you truly have. Other aspects like such verbal attacks are simply external, they don't matter. Crazy and sane is just another duality in the world of DUALITIES, but remember you are not part of this world. You are meant to be with Krishna in His personal abode where crazy and sanity are one and the same.

 

Think of Lord Caitanya, Lord Nityananda and Lord Advaita-candra. In a material sense They were CRAZY, but this is nothing compared to the bliss They were experiencing internally.

 

Everyone has independence to chose what to like and dislike. This is something these people have forgotten.

[Guest guest]

I did have this problem like you with my friends since I am a research personnel in medicine. My friends although they are religious in doing their normal prayers but not reach much about Gita or Bagavatham or Upanishads etc etc unlike me found me going crazy and even they told me. Then i realised that I should not talk about these unless when situation warrants. But you ahve mentioned that you dont even talk, but people think that you are crazy. How do you know what they are thinking about you first.

Second even if they think which you could feel or something, one thing you should know. Krishna/God runs this world by deliberately having different kinds of souls having different planes of spiritual maturity. Imagine a world filled with people who think and pray and worshipping God all the time. Obviously there may not be development. In my humble opinion and understanding this is part of kali yuga for Lord to come finally and close the chapter once for all to start another yuga. (someone please correct me if I am wrong).

So in practical world when we have to mix with people, we have only two ways. One is either we should lead a life as a saint and in that case none will think that we are crazy, because everyone basically knows saints are religous. The other way for normal people who cannot become saint or totally religious forgetting everything, and who has to lead life with others for day today survival, we should understand the gradation in maturity of people and accordingly we should adapt ourselves in accepting every class of people and move accordingly, which actually shows our spiritual advancement. If someone makes open comment, I dont get worked up, neither I dont tell them openly or even in my mind that "you are all ignorant and thats why you are all like this". By getting this thought or expressing it, it sort of creates a distance between people, plus without your knowledge your thinking of Supreme gets lessened as you think about how to argue and put down the other person and prove that he or she is ignorant and also attimes creates hard feelings which is not sign of spiritual maturity. I am not saying that we should not argue at all. Arguements are essential part of understanding. Sometimes we have to make others understand that its none of their business to comment on us, but yet that too in a smiliing unhurting way. What I am trying to say is one who is spiritually getting advanced, should be matured enough in understanding the level of maturity of others rather than worrying himself.

[gHari]

Crazy exerpt from a lecture by Srila Prabhupada about BG 9.4 (1976):<blockquote>So psychiatrists generally their patients are crazy fellows. Generally they treat crazy fellows. Is it not? No sane man goes to a psychiatrist. (laughter) Is it not a fact? So all these crazy men sometimes makes the psychiatrist a crazy also. So more or less, everyone is crazy. That is the... It is not my layman's opinion. It is the opinion of a big medical surgeon. There was a case in the court, murder case. The murderer pleaded that "I became crazy, mad, at that time." That is generally... So the medical man was called to examine. He was great civil surgeon in Calcutta. So he gave his opinion in the court that "So far I have treated many patients, so my opinion is that everyone is more or less a madman. More or less. It is a question of degree." So our opinion is like that, that anyone who is not under the direct connection with God, he's a crazy man. He's a madman. Now you can treat. So we are also psychiatrists. We are pushing this KRSNa consciousness. So because anyone who is in this material world--more or less crazy, madman. Because he doesn't care for God, therefore he's crazy. He is completely under the control of God, but still, he has the audacity to say, "No, I don't believe in god." Crazy man. So anyone who does not believe in God, he's a crazy fellow. You can treat him. Everyone is patient.

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prakRteH kriyamANAni

guNaiH karmANi sarvazaH

ahaGkAra-vimUDhAtmA

kartAham iti manyate

[bg. 3.27]

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This crazy fellow is fully under the control of material nature, and he's still thinking that he is independent. That is craziness. Everyone is thinking like that, so everyone is a patient of psychiatrist. How we can declare independence? There is no independence. We are completely dependent on the laws of material nature. PrakRteH kriyamANAni guNaiH karmANi sarvazaH. Janma-mRtyu-jarA-vyAdhi-duHkha-doSAnudarzanam. This is knowledge. Nobody wants to die, but nature says, "You must die." Where is your independence? Nobody wants to take birth, enter into the mother's womb. But you must enter. Nobody wants to become old man. Nature says, "You must become old man." Nobody wants disease. The nature says, "You must have disease." So where is your independence? But the crazy fellow says, "I am independent. I think like this." What is the value of your thinking? You may think in your favor but the nature will not allow you. So everyone is crazy who is declaring independence. He's a crazy. Then? Any question? Yes, this question is very nice. Anyone who does not believe in God, does not surrender to God, he's a crazy fellow, that's all.</blockquote>

Entire crazy lecture about BG 9.34 (1966)<blockquote>PrabhupAda:<center>man-manA bhava mad-bhakto

mad-yAjI mAM namaskuru

mAm evaiSyasi yuktvaivam

AtmAnaM mat-parAyaNaH

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This zloka, this verse we have already finished. The conclusion of the Ninth Chapter of SrImad Bhagavad-gItA, that, the Lord says that, man-manA bhava mad-bhaktaH. "Just always think of Me. Just become My devotee. And, if you want to worship, just worship Me."

 

Devotee: Anyone in the rear would like to move up, you could hear much better.

 

PrabhupAda: Yes, please.

 

Devotee: Come forward.

 

PrabhupAda: Come forward. Yes. And this is the process of devotional service. It is not very difficult. Everyone can execute. To think of God, to offer some obeisances to God, and to be, to serve something, to render some service unto Him, and just to become a party of God. That, just like we identify, everyone identifies to some party, either politically, socially or religiously, economically. We have got so many fields of activity. But, in each and every field, we have got a party feeling. You cannot avoid that. In political field, oh, we have got so many parties. Even in your own country, even there are democratic party or conservative party and this party, that party. Worldwide is also the capitalistic party, the communistic party. In our country also there is congress party. So party's already there. Socially also, oh, we are Christian, I am Jew, I am Hindu. Of course, this is religiously. And socially also. In India, there is very social party. So you cannot avoid this partyism. All ladies and gentlemen who are present here, I ask you, do you not belong to any party? Can you deny that "I don't belong to any party"? Oh, everyone belongs to some party.

 

Now spiritualism, spiritualism means that we should identify ourself as God's party. That's all. That is spiritualism. They ask so many things, that, why the materialists are called crazy by the spiritualists? Oh, that is also partyism. These materialists also call, say to the spiritualists, they are crazy. Just like we are, we have formed some Society of KRSNa Consciousness, and, and those who do not like it, they say we are crazy fellows. We are assembly of crazy fellows. And, similarly, we call others who do not associate with us, they are crazy fellows. So there is, we have written pamphlet, booklet, "Who is crazy?". Now how to decide? You are thinking the Swamiji and the party, they are crazy. And we are thinking those who are materially engaged, they're crazy. Now how to decide it? Can you suggest any way how to decide it, how, who is crazy? Who will decide it? Everyone, two parties, when there is something disagreement, the two parties will say that, "You are in wrong," the other party will say, "You are..." Now who will decide it? That who is wrong? Can you suggest any one of you who'll decide? The world is going on in partyism and each opposite party is thinking that the other party is crazy. Now who will decide who is actually crazy? The actual... Then you have come to the point of reason, who is crazy?

 

Now just see. Take any common man. Not yourself, not myself. Any common man. If you ask him that, "What you are?", he'll say... His conception is that I am this body. Everyone will say. He'll give you some description that, "I am Christian.I am Hindu.I am Mr. Such and Such.I am Mrs. Such and Such." Everything, whatever he or she will say, that is all due to this body. All due to this body. Everyone. When you say, "You are American," that means this is the body. Because by accident, by something, by some reason, you were born in this land of America. That is also another artificial name. The land is neither America nor India. The land is land. But we give some designation, "This is America." We make some boundary. This is United States of America. This is Canada. This is Europe, and this is Asia. This is India. So this is our name, but actually was there any history that the land is American, or the land...? Say, four hundred years before, or five hundred years before, was this land was known as America? You have named it, America. Say, some thousands of years before was this, this, the continent which is known as, I mean, Europe, can you trace out history, that it was known as Europe? They are all designations.

 

Just like we can say from historical point of view of Vedic literature, this whole world was known as IlAvRta-varSa. IlAvRta-varSa. And, later on, since the reign of one great king, emperor, his name was Bharata. He changed the name into his own name, BhArata-varSa. So this whole planet was now BhArata-varSa. Then, as the days go on, the some part of this world was, I mean to say, separated from the original BhArata-varSa, and it was called Europe or some other place. Just like you have got practical experience even in this age, that India, say about twenty years before, the area of India was including Burma, Ceylon and the modern Pakistan and everything. Now it is separated. Now they are calling this is Pakistan. Somebody's calling there is Ceylon. So this process is going on. Actually the land is neither BhArata-varSa, nor Asia, nor America, nor India, but we give this name. With the change of time, with the change of influence, they are all designations.

 

Fifty years before when some of you, of course, not all of you are fifty years old. Say, forty years before, or thirty-five years before, when you were, or twenty-five years before, when you were not born, can you say what was your designation? Were you American or Indian or Chinese or Russian, can you say? Say, after getting out of this body, do you think that you'll continue as American or Indian or Chinese or Russian? Suppose you are now in America, in the land of America. So next life you may be in China. Who can say? Because we are changing our bodies, you cannot say that we are not changing our bodies. Can you say that you are not changing your body? Yes, we are changing. When I was born, from the mother's womb, my body was so little. Now how I have changed my...? Where is that body? Where is that body when I was a child? Where is that body when I was a boy? Where is that body when I was a young man? I have got my photograph, my studentship. Oh, Swamiji, you were like this? Where is that body? Where it has gone? So we are changing, but I am the same man. I am thinking, "Oh, in my childhood, I was doing like this. Oh, in my youthhood, I was thinking like this. In my boyhood, I did so many things." Now where those days gone? If my body, everything has gone away? It is simply remembrance.

 

But still we are sticking to this body, and, when I ask you or when you ask me, "What you are?", I say something in relationship with this body. Are you not crazy? Can you tell, any of you, that you are not crazy? If you, I mean to say, so far your identification, if you identify with something which you are not, then are you not crazy? Are you not crazy? So everyone who identifies with this body, he's a crazy man. He's a crazy man. It is a challenge to the world. Anyone who claims God's property, God's land, God's earth, as own property, he's a crazy man. This is a challenge. Let anyone establish that this is his property, this is his body. You are simply, by nature, you are, by the fix of nature, you are put into some place. You are put under some body. You are put under some consciousness, and you are dictated by the laws of nature. And you are mad after that. So everyone,

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prakRteH kriyamANAni

guNaiH karmANi sarvazaH

ahaGkAra-vimUDhAtmA

kartAham iti manyate

[bg. 3.27]

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PrakRteH kriyamANAni. Everyone is being pulled by the ear, just like a teacher takes to pull the ear of a student, and does like this... Similarly, we, everyone of us under the complete clutches of the material nature, and we are being put, sometimes this body, sometimes that body. Now, fortunately, you have got human form of body. Oh, but, don't you see there are so many bodies? So many bodies. There are eight million, four hundred thousands of bodies, and, by the laws of nature, by the tricks of nature, you can be put into any kind of body according to your work. So you are completely under the grip of nature. This time, fortunately or unfortunately, I have got this human form of life, but next time I may get the body of a dog or the body of a god. That will depend on my work. But the laws of nature is working. The laws of nature, or the material nature, is forcing me that you accept it. You cannot say that, after my death, let me have my birth in America. Oh, how can you say? You are not authority. You are not authority. So this is stated in the Bhagavad-gItA,

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prakRteH kriyamANAni

guNaiH karmANi sarvazaH

ahaGkAra-vimUDhAtmA

kartAham iti manyate

[bg. 3.27]

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Everything is being conducted by the supreme laws of nature, but the foolish man thinks that I am something. I am independent. This is foolishness. AhaGkAra-vimUDhAtmA. AhaGkAra, this false egoism--ahaGkAra means false egoism. What is that false egoism? That I am not this body, and I think I am this body. This is called false egoism. Therefore SaGkarAcArya, I mean to say, he preached his mission that you are not this body. You are spirit soul. AhaM brahmAsmi. AhaM brahmAsmi. Now, still, when we try to realize ourself, self-realization, there also foolishness, or the dictation of the mAyA, or illusory energy, continues.

 

What is that? Somebody's trying to realize his self. I am not this body. He understands that I am not this body. I am spirit soul. Then? If you are spirit soul, then what is your position? Oh, void. Impersonal. Spirit soul, that means voidness? Oh, there is nothing after finishing this body? This voidness? There are philosophers who preach voidness. After this, finishing this body, there is nothing. And other philosophers, impersonalists, they say that, as soon as this body is finished, my personal identity is finished. Do you think like that? Is it possible? So long I am in this body, this body is not actual I am.

 

It is just like a vehicle. Just like you are sitting in a car. The car is moving according to your desire. Not that the car is moving independently. So when you are in the car, so you are moving the car according to your desire, right or left, or this road or that road. Suppose, if you are out of the car, do you think that your personality is gone? Is it any reason? So this body is just like a car. It is said in the Bhagavad-gItA, bhrAmayan sarva-bhUtAni yantrArUDhAni mAyayA [bg. 18.61]. MAyA has placed you in this car because you wanted this sort of car. Just like you have got in your practical experience. Somebody has got better car, somebody has got, I mean to say, inferior car. Somebody has got truck. But they're moving. Similarly, these different bodies, they are like cars, and they are moving. Now suppose you are out of the car, either from the truck or from the Rolls Royce car or Chevrolet car or Ford car, do you think that your personality is finished? Because you are out of the car? Then how can you say that when you are out of this body, your personality is finished? What is your reason?

 

So this is another craziness. Just see how craziness follows. Void. Why void? I am so much intelligent. I am doing... I am planning so many. Because my body is finished, therefore everything becomes void? This void philosophy was contradicted by the (indistinct). There is no void. There is spirit. Now, if that spirit, when one comes to that spiritual self-realization, out of this body, then, if he's still further advanced in spiritual knowledge, then he'll seek what is my spiritual duty? What is my spiritual work? That is sanity. What is my spiritual work. Sanity, that is sanity. I cannot be void. I cannot lose my individuality and personality. That is nonsense. How can I? So long I am sitting in this body... Or take this same crude example. So long I am sitting on the car, I am displaying so much individuality, and so much discrimination. As soon as there is red signal, I stop my car. There is blue signal, green signal, I start my car. I'm using my consciousness. I'm working. And, simply by getting down from the car, I lose everything. I become void? What is this nonsense? No.

 

There is neither voidness, nor impersonalism. The Bhagavad-gItA does not agree to that. In the Second Chapter you have read it, that KRSNa, Lord KRSNa says that, "Arjuna, Myself, yourself, and all these persons who have come here to fight with one another, they were individual selves before. They are individual selves now, and they will continue to be individual selves in the future. So don't be mad that you shall not fight. Their, I mean to say, identity, spiritual identity, will continue." And, to make him understand, a very simple example was set before Arjuna that,

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dehino 'smin yathA dehe

kaumAraM yauvanaM jarA

tathA dehAntara-prAptir

dhIras tatra na muhyati

[bg. 2.13]

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"My dear Arjuna, just like the living spark, the living self, is within this body from the womb of the mother, it is developing when, after the father's-mother combination, there is a form of body just like a pea, and then that pea-like form develops within the womb of the mother and, after ten months, there is no more space in the womb of the mother. So the child comes out and again grows. So the growth of the body is going on, or the change of the body is going on." Dehino 'smin yathA dehe [bg. 2.13]. Dehe means in this body, and dehI means the person who is within this body, he is there, from that pea-like form. Because my form, my measurement is so small that we cannot see. It is not possible. It is ten-thousand, one ten-thousandth part of the tip of the hair. It is so small. So with our material eyes, or with your material conception, we cannot see the soul. But the soul is there, and the proof is, evidence is, because the soul is there, therefore the pea-like form, material body, is growing. Wherever there is growth...

 

There are six symptoms of presentation of, presence of the soul. Growth is one of the important. So growth. As soon as the soul is out of this body, no more growth. If the child comes dead, oh, there will be no growth. Oh, the parents will say it is useless. Throw it. So similarly, Lord KRSNa gave the first example to Arjuna that, "Don't think that the spiritual spark which is within the body, due to his presence, the body is growing from childhood to boyhood, boyhood to youthhood, from youthhood to old age. So therefore, when this body becomes useless, imperceptibly, the soul gives up this body." VAsAMsi jIrNAni yathA vihAya [bg. 2.22]. Just like we give up old dress and take another new dress, similarly, we accept another body.

 

And we accepted another body not according to my selection. That selection depends on the law of nature. That selection depends on law of nature. You cannot say at the time of death, but you can think of. You can say that, I mean to say, individuality and that selection is all there. YaM yaM vApi smaran loke tyajaty ante kalevaram. Just, at the time of your death, your mentality, as your thoughts will develop, you'll get the next birth according to that body. So the intelligent man, who is not crazy, he should understand that I am not this body. First thing. I am not this body. Then he'll understand that what is his duty? Oh, as spirit soul, what is his duty?

 

His duty is, that is stated in the Bhagavad-gItA in the last verse of the Ninth Chapter, that duty is man-manA bhava. You are thinking of something. Everyone of us, embodied, we think something. Without thinking, for a moment, you cannot stay. That is not possible. So this is the duty. You think of KRSNa. You think of KRSNa. You'll have to think something. So what is the harm if you think of KRSNa? KRSNa has got so many activities, so many literatures, and so many things. KRSNa comes here. We have got volumes and volumes of books. If you want to think of KRSNa, we can supply you so many literatures that you cannot finish with your whole life if you twenty-four hours read. So thinking of KRSNa, there is sufficient. Think of KRSNa. Man-manA bhava. Oh, I can think of you.

 

Just like a person who is serving some boss. Oh, he's always thinking of that boss. Oh, I have to attend there at nine o'clock and that boss will be displeased. He's thinking for some purpose. That sort of thinking will not do. Then therefore He says, bhava mad-bhaktaH. "You just think of Me with love." When the master, when the, I mean to, when the servant thinks of the master, there is no love. He's thinking for pound-shilling-pence. "Because, if I do not attend my office, just at nine o'clock, oh, there will be late, and I shall lose two dollars." Therefore he's thinking of, not of the master, he's thinking of that pound-shilling-pence. So that sort of thinking will not save you. Therefore He says, bhava mad-bhaktaH. "You just become My devotee. Then your thinking of Me will be nice." And what is that bhakti? Mad-bhaktaH. Devotional... Devotion means service. Mad-yAjI. You render some service to the Lord. Just like we are engaged here always. Whenever you'll come you find us engaged some duty. You see. We have manufactured some duty. Just to think of KRSNa only.

 

Therefore our Society's name is KRSNa Consciousness, Society for KRSNa Consciousness. He have got so many literatures. Each and every boy is engaged. Somebody's printing, somebody's writing, somebody's typewriting, somebody's dispatching, somebody's attending letter, somebody's cooking. Twenty-four hours, we are thinking of KRSNa. How? Because we are engaged in the duties of KRSNa. So mad-yAjI mAM namaskuru. And what is that duty if you have no obedience? You have to obey. Therefore it is said namaskuru. You offer your respect. So bhakti minus respect, that is not bhakti. With love, with respect, with designated duties, if you be engaged in KRSNa consciousness, then your life will be successful. Not identifying falsely with this material body and engage yourself with all sorts of nonsense. That will never make you happy. The same thing, that...

 

Therefore what is the difference between materialism and spiritualism? The same typewriter is there. The same dictaphone is there. The same mimeograph machine is there. The same paper is there. Same, I mean, ink is there. The same hand is there. Everything is same, but everything is done for KRSNa's account. That's all, KRSNa's account. This is spiritualism. Don't think spiritualism something uncommon. You can turn the whole material world into spiritualism, if you simply become KRSNa conscious. This is spiritualism. Thank you very much. Now you... (end)</blockquote>

[Guest guest]

I just had few more thoughhts after submitting the previous post. Krishna resides in every soul and He is the one who decides even for the soul to get spiritually advanced. He is the one who resides in total atheist too who argues to prove there is no GOD. He is the one who maintains this world by having different people out of which we see Him in every aspect of nature by going deep into a living cell at the molecular level. This is my understanding of Krishna. So even if read all the scriptures, we still cannot preach evryone to reach our level, because Krishna keeps different level of people with diffferent level of understandings for His own reasons and hence we cannnot change the world. Rather we should not think that others are crazy because they dont read Gita and Bagavatham. then it degrades us. If someone think that we are crazy we should not feel anything about it if one has really understood Gita.

MS

[Guest guest]

After reading that post, all I can say is, he is a very strong speaker, very inspirational. Thank you for your wonderful gift.

 

Also, yes I have to keep thinking of myself as a being who just got lucked out of all the mess of this world and feel sorry for them and chant and consider every one my friend. Thank you all for your posts.