i_luv_krishna Posted May 23, 2004 Report Share Posted May 23, 2004 ---> I am praying for you daily Thank you!!! I am dire need of those!!! ---> that you will get Him before me I don't think this is an acceptable contract. Then I would not be able to enjoy His company thinking about you.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 25, 2004 Report Share Posted May 25, 2004 evanavasthitasyapi arthitva matrena parama-karuniko bhagavan svanubhava-prityopaitaikatyantika NITYA-KAINKARYAIKARATI-RUPA NITYA-DASYAM dasyatiti vishvasa purvakam bhagavantam nitya-kinkaratam prarthaye (3) Though I am in this state, full of various defects, I beg of the Lord my acceptance in eternal service to him in the firm faith that the all merciful Lord, heeding to my earnest request, will grant me the favor of steadfastness in everlasting service to Him urged by devotion resulting from the experience of the Lord. tavanubhuti-sambhuta priti-kaitadastam DEHI ME KRIPAYA NATHA! najane gtimanyatha (4) My Lord! you should be pleased, out of Your unbounded mercy, to grant the service to You resulting from the joy of experiencing you. Apart from begging you, I do not know of any other means! -From Sri Ramanujacharya's Sriranga Gadyam Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_luv_krishna Posted May 26, 2004 Report Share Posted May 26, 2004 PLEASE..... resend your APOLOGY poem.... I must be surely losing my mind to delete my heart.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 26, 2004 Report Share Posted May 26, 2004 I did resend that poem O sakhi, my mind is not focused due to not having His company. When I cannot catch Him with my eyes, I cannot catch Him with my heart. Sister, say a good word for me next time you talk to Him, and I will do the same for you. Forever in your service, Vanamali Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 26, 2004 Report Share Posted May 26, 2004 The kind of things you described in your "who are you?" email, devi, I want them so much. O sakhi, where is that black cloud? When will this empty sky become full? When shall I be soaked with the rain of *that* love? O prophetess, has He told you the answer? O sakhi, did you dream last night? Love, Vanamali Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_luv_krishna Posted May 26, 2004 Report Share Posted May 26, 2004 Good Lord, I have just now sent you a dry email. Don't worry I will send the fire tender next.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 26, 2004 Report Share Posted May 26, 2004 Sakhi, I hope you are not staying up too late! I just realized what time it must be in your place. You might wonder why I've never asked you your name, or what you look like. Sakhi, I already know who you are to me. No need for further information. In my minds eye I can see your long flowing black hair, huge, glossy eyes and red ghagra choli... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 sakhi, please don't be angry anymore /images/graemlins/smile.gif Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_luv_krishna Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 My dear Lord, If people came to know of your Kindness their hearts would literally bleed..... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 Please forgive me, devi. please Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 that's why I think you should go to Him. I make such stupid errors to cause Him to weep! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_luv_krishna Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 ---> sakhi, please don't be angry anymore I am very sorry for what I did. Don't tell Him all this or He will kill me.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 What are you sorry about? You are teaching me. You cannot teach me and then say, oh, I shouldn't have said that. You are a lion, not a sheep. Don't back down. or is it something else?? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_luv_krishna Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 I am sorry that I hurt your pure heart. I shouldn't have done that. He has His crafty ways to get things done. I shouldn't have interfered.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 I hope you don't think this is weird, but... Every day I am waiting for your emails. I think you have a very good sensibility about how Krishna wants me to be. You are so knowledgeable. He has blessed you to such a degree! I only wish I could return the favor somehow. But I have nothing to give you. I wish also that I could meet you as my sister somehow- ~Vanamali Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 --->I am sorry that I hurt your pure heart. My heart is not pure! It is full of selfishness and vice. The fire purifies the heart! This is good, even if the heart is hurt a little in the process. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_luv_krishna Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 ---> My heart is not pure! It is full of selfishness and vice. The heart full of love for Him thinks it has not a single drop of that nectar.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 The heart full of love for Him thinks it has not a single drop of that nectar.... - Yes, you have that kind of humility. You do the right thing in reproaching me for bad conduct and then apologize as if you had done something wrong. You are pure gold, sakhi! Is everything fine with you? I hope I did not startle you with that last email. I have resolved to tell you everything. Everything is out on the table with me. I'm not holding anything back... ~Vanamali Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_luv_krishna Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 ---> Yes, you have that kind of humility. Geez, I was talking about you, not me. You were saying your heart is not pure and full of selfishness or something... But who are you to judge that? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_luv_krishna Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 ---> Is everything fine with you? I hope I did not startle you with that last email. I have resolved to tell you everything. Everything is out on the table with me. I'm not holding anything back... No you did not.... But then again you did.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 Devi, are you doing fine? Enough about me. How are you doing? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 But then again you did.... What am I holding back. Tell me. I will try to fix it... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
i_luv_krishna Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 I think I have to sleep today.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 I guess you mean I startled you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vanamali Posted May 27, 2004 Report Share Posted May 27, 2004 Sweet dreams. Don't feel obligated to talk to me if I am monopolizing your time!!! It is morning here!!! Love you VERY much, Vanamali Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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