Digest Number 35

October 12, 2003

Dear companions,

Its hard to know where to jump in. I'm new to the group and have just

begun to return to practices. I have met Shree Maa and Swamiji in

several public programs on the east coast and am so respectful of all

they give us and so awed by their LOVE.

I have been struggling with being so unhappy with the "burdens" in my

life (amidst amazing gifts and bounty) that I have been unable to have

space from my mind and emotions to be truly devotional. I have been

caught in trying to change others and feeling righteous in my

complaints. And I have "known" it is all wrong. And I have "known" I

needed to do practices, yet I stubbornly persisted. And somehow through

reaching out to Shree Maa and Swamiji I have felt their blessing and

found myself here on this group during Navratri. And reading Shree Maa

the Life of a Saint. And realizing in glimpses that it is all me

causing my misery and that if I surrender my attachment to it (yes! as

well as my wish to control life and improve on my already amazing good

fortune!) and humbly ask Mother for help, the She will be there. And I

feel in these past few days moments of peace, chanting again, holding

and being with my daughter (Goddess in human form), tenderly looking at

my husband with love. Flashes of anger too, and resentment and most of

all fear. And I try to remember to be a bee (my name is Bea, so I have

allowed myself the illusion that I should take Shree Maa's words very

personally!). And I am again such a beginner.

Humbly, in this moment at least!

Love,

Bea

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October 12, 2003

Thank you so much for sharing that. I know how difficult it is

sometimes to do the practices day after day, year after year and

remain consistent. There are so many obstacles, both inner and outer,

and I find myself the past few years constantly going through periods

of struggling to keep practicing. And I just feel awful if I don't.

Shree Maa and Swamiji definitely have a connection with their

devotees. I too, have recently experienced the grace of God through

their compassionate subtle help. The world is very fortunate to have

such beings in it. I am fortunate to recognize them.

I'm so glad you're doing your practices again. Be free.

ChrisShantiom <shantiom (AT) mindspring (DOT) com> wrote:

Dear companions,Its hard to know where to jump in. I'm new to the

group and have just begun to return to practices. I have met Shree

Maa and Swamiji in several public programs on the east coast and am

so respectful of all they give us and so awed by their LOVE.I have

been struggling with being so unhappy with the "burdens" in my life

(amidst amazing gifts and bounty) that I have been unable to have

space from my mind and emotions to be truly devotional. I have been

caught in trying to change others and feeling righteous in my

complaints. And I have "known" it is all wrong. And I have "known" I

needed to do practices, yet I stubbornly persisted. And somehow

through reaching out to Shree Maa and Swamiji I have felt their

blessing and found myself here on this group during Navratri. And

reading Shree Maa the Life of a Saint. And

realizing in glimpses that it is all me causing my misery and that if

I surrender my attachment to it (yes! as well as my wish to control

life and improve on my already amazing good fortune!) and humbly ask

Mother for help, the She will be there. And I feel in these past few

days moments of peace, chanting again, holding and being with my

daughter (Goddess in human form), tenderly looking at my husband with

love. Flashes of anger too, and resentment and most of all fear. And I

try to remember to be a bee (my name is Bea, so I have allowed myself

the illusion that I should take Shree Maa's words very personally!).

And I am again such a beginner.Humbly, in this moment at

least!Love,Bea

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October 13, 2003

Hi Bea/Honeybee!

Welcome! This is a great cyber-satsang where we get to polish each

other (I think). You're not alone. I'm basically a beginner too.

Astraea

, Shantiom <shantiom@m...> wrote:

> Dear companions,

> Its hard to know where to jump in. I'm new to the group and have

just

> begun to return to practices. I have met Shree Maa and Swamiji in

> several public programs on the east coast and am so respectful of

all

> they give us and so awed by their LOVE.

> I have been struggling with being so unhappy with the "burdens" in

my

> life (amidst amazing gifts and bounty) that I have been unable to

have

> space from my mind and emotions to be truly devotional. I have been

> caught in trying to change others and feeling righteous in my

> complaints. And I have "known" it is all wrong. And I have "known"

I

> needed to do practices, yet I stubbornly persisted. And somehow

through

> reaching out to Shree Maa and Swamiji I have felt their blessing

and

> found myself here on this group during Navratri. And reading Shree

Maa

> the Life of a Saint. And realizing in glimpses that it is all me

> causing my misery and that if I surrender my attachment to it (yes!

as

> well as my wish to control life and improve on my already amazing

good

> fortune!) and humbly ask Mother for help, the She will be there.

And I

> feel in these past few days moments of peace, chanting again,

holding

> and being with my daughter (Goddess in human form), tenderly

looking at

> my husband with love. Flashes of anger too, and resentment and most

of

> all fear. And I try to remember to be a bee (my name is Bea, so I

have

> allowed myself the illusion that I should take Shree Maa's words

very

> personally!). And I am again such a beginner.

> Humbly, in this moment at least!

> Love,

> Bea

October 13, 2003

I'm a beginner too. I'm in Brazil (South America) I don't speek

english and only with the grace of mother I can understand you.

Please excuse my hard english.Jaya Maa!

Iastraea2003 <astraea2003 > wrote:

Hi Bea/Honeybee!Welcome! This is a great cyber-satsang where we get to

polish each other (I think). You're not alone. I'm basically a

beginner too.Astraea, Shantiom

<shantiom@m...> wrote:> Dear companions,> Its hard to know where to

jump in. I'm new to the group and have just > begun to return to

practices. I have met Shree Maa and Swamiji in > several public

programs on the east coast and am so respectful of all > they give us

and so awed by their LOVE.> I have been struggling with being so

unhappy with the "burdens" in my > life (amidst amazing gifts and

bounty) that I have been unable to have > space from my mind and

emotions to be truly devotional. I have been > caught in trying to

change others and feeling righteous in my >

complaints. And I have "known" it is all wrong. And I have "known" I >

needed to do practices, yet I stubbornly persisted. And somehow

through > reaching out to Shree Maa and Swamiji I have felt their

blessing and > found myself here on this group during Navratri. And

reading Shree Maa > the Life of a Saint. And realizing in glimpses

that it is all me > causing my misery and that if I surrender my

attachment to it (yes! as > well as my wish to control life and

improve on my already amazing good > fortune!) and humbly ask Mother

for help, the She will be there. And I > feel in these past few days

moments of peace, chanting again, holding > and being with my

daughter (Goddess in human form), tenderly looking at > my husband

with love. Flashes of anger too, and resentment and most of > all

fear. And I try to remember to be a bee (my name is Bea, so I have >

allowed myself the illusion that I should take Shree Maa's words very

> personally!). And I am again such a beginner.> Humbly, in this

moment at least!> Love,> BeaTo from this group, send an

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October 14, 2003

I've been reading your posts with pleasure. You are doing very well

with the language. Are you using a translation service?

Chris

Kala Chandra <kalachandra2003 .br> wrote:

Hi beloved devotees! I bow to you!