Offering to the Group

[Guest guest]

Beloved Guru,

 

I pray that I may forget every single one of my spiritual experiences.

I pray that I may not prostitute my experiences as fuel for my

imaginary self-story, ratcheting-up my worth in my own eyes.

 

I pray that I may have no spiritual experiences to tell of, and no

imaginary self-story to contain even the notion of "separate

experience".

 

I pray that I may not harm others, by tricking them into an incorrect

view, just to prop up my infinitesimal spiritual experiences, which

even if they had merit, I have polluted and distorted due to my

deluded notion of "I" and "Thou".

 

I pray that my prayer be forgotten, and my desire not to have

self-story be subsumed in the Vajra Emptiness pregnant with Thunder

and Rain.

 

If I had any worth, I would wash your feet in my nothingness.

 

But I am so fallen, I cannot even offer you that.

 

Please hold me Amma, and Rimpoche.

 

And squeeze every drop of me out of this garbage bin I mistakenly claim as my holy dham.

 

Kailash