Latha's Diary & Blue Lights

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Namaste Astraea,

 

It looks like my comments on the Blue Light in my

diary hurt you. I am sorry . I am no judge of anyone's

experiences, I humbly beg your pardon.

 

With best wishes,

Latha

 

 

, "astraea2003" <astraea2003>

wrote:

> Namaste Latha,

> I really enjoy your honest "Sankalpa" diary. Very funny.

>

> I realize you're poking fun at the "Blue Lights". But, I do NOT say

> the "Blue Dot" is God. That is what Swami Muktananda wrote and that

> is what Siddha Yoga devotees are told. Other SY devotees see the

Blue

> Dot, but Blue Light phenomena is NOT confined to SY.

>

> As I've said repeatedly, "paranormal" phenomena is NOT an

indication

> of high spiritual attainment. Swami Muktananda & Gurumayi gave many

> powerful "paranormal" experience. Yet, neither were Satgurus. I

don't

> think Satgurus lead adharmic lives. (Yes, I am aware of Left Hand

> Tantrics, but I don't want to open up that can of worms.)

>

> Just because a person has siddhis does NOT mean they are

enlightened.

> The presence of siddhis is NOT an accurate gauge of spiritual

> attainment.

>

> I wanted to see what non-Siddha Yoga people had to say about the

Nila

> Bindu. (There are a few here who have seen it.) What exactly it is

> and what it means, only God/Goddess knows.

>

> Astraea

>

> , "Latha Nanda" <lathananda>

> wrote:

> > Dear All,

> >

> > Short Story :- Juggling between 2 Chandis in one day, to no

Chandis

> > the next day. I am fighting my first demons "Too Much" and "Too

> > Little". And the only blue lights I see are on top of cops' cars.

> >

> > Long Story :- My sob story.... settle yourselves down on a

> > comfortable sofa with a cup of cocoa and I will begin.

> >

> > Nov 25th :-

> >

> > This is the morning that I completed my chanting (due last night)

> at

> > 3.45 am. I have the day off today and I really goof off - slump

on

> > the sofa, eat out of bags, drink out of cans and merrily ignore

my

> > sankalpa. I musta broken all the rules and then some. I go back

to

> > the PC ,to check my email (sigh) and notice one of my Mandir

> buddies

> > is online. I got threats from this person who shall remain

unnamed

> > that I needed to eat good food to please the Goddess inside me,

> else

> > he would let Maa know. "Will the Goddess inside me be satisfied

> with

> > Terra chips" I ask. "Not chips alone" sez he. So I get up and

cook

> a

> > meal and eat and now I am all drowsy . This is one sleepy

> Goddess...

> > zzzz

> >

> > And that is how dear readers I didnt chant the Chandi in the

> > evening...

> >

> > That is two Chandis that I need to make up for now !

> >

> > Nov 26th :-

> >

> > It is the day before thanksgiving. A holiday mood. But I am at

work

> > until late this evening. Grrrrrrr...

> >

> > I come back home , not able to go to the Mandir now. It is too

> late.

> > Traffic is a killer.

> >

> > God you are putting too much burden on my slim shoulders ...

> >

> > And that's why God, I dont feel like chanting the Chandi today

for

> > you ....besides its almost thanksgiving ...

> >

> >

> > That's three Chandis that I need to make up for now !

> >

> > Nov 27th :-

> >

> > I am at the Mandir. Yesssssssssss! Most of the family are

grouping

> at

> > the Evanses for the Thanksgiving dinner. Not me ! I sit like a

good

> > kid in front of my altar at 2 pm. I sing and chant and talk to

her.

> I

> > am so pepped up. I have done today's quota.

> >

> > I sit in front of her once again at 8 pm. Some people look at me

in

> > disbelief. Earlier in the day I had sprung an idea that we

needed

> to

> > have a Chandi Marathon. Sorta like, one person finishes and the

> next

> > person begins and keep this going for a day. Figured we'd have

> about

> >

> > 8 Chandis done. People were enthusiastic but no banana. So I sat

in

> > front of her all by myself for another round, when the Kindest

> > Moderator shows up. He gives me company - does his chanting in

> > another part of the temple and I complete mine.

> >

> > So I have made up for one Chandi. Still have to make up for two.

> >

> > Nov 28th :-

> >

> > Get up real early . Do my Siva Puja and start my chandi. I leave

a

> > note by Maa's altar asking her if I could make breakfast for her

as

> I

> > have come "prepared". I start the Chandi and I know that it will

be

> > atleast 9 AM before I am done and Maa eats at 9.30. No way I am

> gonna

> > finish cooking by then but I leave the note anyway.

> >

> > And God helps you when you sing for him/her.

> >

> > I chanted and finished at 9 AM. Maa had come in around 8 AM and

she

> > herself had started the Chandi which means she will not be done

> until

> > 10.30.

> >

> > So I have a full hour and half to prepare the food. What made

you

> do

> > the Chandi today Maa? I would like to project that it was because

> > you didnt want to disappoint me. Whatever be the reason , thank

you.

> >

> > She asks me to do sambar for her (readers of my previous issue of

> the

> > diary will remember that is was a disaster and I didna wanna talk

> > about it) . Well, I am PROUD to say that this time around, the

> sambar

> > was FANTASTIC. Maa told how much she liked it - she even called

me

> > a good cook. I felt so good that I felt ready to start my own TV

> > cooking show, syndicate it, make millions and retire to Hawaii.

> >

> > In the evening we sit before Maa after Arati. She usually tests

for

> > recitation from memory on Fridays.Today the test is on Homa from

> the

> > Hanuman Puja and Chandi Arati. Most people are prepared for the

> > Arati.

> >

> > After Maa leaves, I start my second round of Chandi and sail

> through

> > this.

> >

> > So I have to just make for ONE more Chandi and I have two more

days

> > to do this. Life looks good. Goddess looks kind.

> >

> > Earlier today, Maa was asking us about the time we did on

Sadhana.

> I

> > told her that it took 2.5 hrs to do the Chandi. Then She said "

Two

> > and a half hours out of 24 hours, to spend the time GIVING ENERGY

> TO

> > THE UNIVERSE. It is the least that we can do".

> >

> > We have 24 hrs in a day .... how do we utilize this to the

> optimum ?

> > Always a big challenge. And yes, the very least I can do is to

Give

> > Energy to the Universe for 3 hrs. I feel humbled.

> >

> > For me it is just a prayer , for Maa it is giving energy .

> >

> > Nov 29th :-

> >

> > I get up at 6 to the sound of Arati. One of the disciples is

> singing

> > Chandi Arati from memory, confident after passing yesterday's

> test .

> > Obviously didnt totally memorise because he jumped from the

Chandi

> > Arati to Siva Arati in a clean leap. Had to be reminded to jump

> back

> > to the Chandi.

> >

> > In a state of tizzy I think, "If I go get a bath and start my

siva

> > puja, the earliest that I can start the Chandi is at 7 am. Which

> > means again I am done with the Chandi only at 9.30-9.45. How do I

> > feed Maa ?".

> >

> > All my belief that God will take care disappear....

> >

> > I am undecided ..... I am always undecided ... I would like to

> think

> > that I like to weigh my options... but the fact is I am undecided.

> >

> > A happy thought occurs to me ... why not compromise? I can

always

> do

> > the Chandi later. Why not chant another text say the Rudri?

> >

> > So I chant the Rudri and finish within 30 mins.

> >

> > This same Rudri was taking me over an hour before, and I was

> getting

> > bogged down with 130 pages. Now after the 420 pages of Chandi,

130

> > pages is a piece of cake.

> >

> > When you aim for the stars you DO atleast hit the treetop. Maybe

I

> > should aim for 2 chandis and so I will do atleast one a day.... I

> > dont wanta go there.

> >

> > Breakfast was terrible though.

> >

> > I chant the Chandi after the Ramakrishna class. Peace. Still have

> to

> > make up for one Chandi.

> >

> > Nov 30th :-

> >

> > Again, get up at an awkward time. Too late to start the Chandi so

> do

> > the Rudri instead. I cook for Maa (more sambar - figure if less

is

> > good , more is better) and she is happy.

> >

> >

> > I notice that my cooking is better on alternate days. Maybe thats

> how

> > I should do, skip a day between so that Maa ALWAYS gets to see my

> > good side.

> >

> > I leave that afternoon to get back to my usual environs.

> >

> > I come home and that couch is so tempting and before I know it I

am

> > asleep . No Chandi today...

> >

> > Sigh, now I have two Chandis to make up. I am still in red.

> >

> > Interesting highlights :-

> > 1) Prayer is giving energy to the Universe. The simplest and the

> most

> > efficient way ANYONE can help. You dont have to give money,

> nothing.

> > Just a piece of your time to God with as much sincerity as you

can

> > muster.

> > 2) Budgeting my time. In an ideal world, 8 hrs of prayer, 8 hrs

of

> > work and 8 hrs of sleep. Is this even possible?

> > 3) Swinging moods. When the inspiration is there the prayer

comes,

> > and when the real prayer is there, inspiration also comes. Satyam

> > Satyam.

> >

> >

> > No, no blue lights yet ....

> >

> > Open my heart Chandi Maa and make me devoted to you . All that I

am

> > capable of , all that I can do , all that I am , give me that

Love

> to

> > give it all for you.

> >

> > Love

> > Latha