The dual nature of desire.

[Guest guest]

Namaste Brian,

 

Interesting that your boon coincides with Swamiji's -when he asks

for a boon in the thirteenth chapter, he says "Maa, Give us pure

devotion. What else do we need "

 

IMO, a quality is like a knife - in the hands of a surgeon or in the

hands of a murderer. The same tool , but different results.

 

IMO, it is not only desire, but any quality when turned inwards,

becomes our way of reaching her. I think it is not so much as

whether the quality is positive or negative but how much passion and

intensity of energy is contained in that emotion.

 

Jai Maa

Latha

[Guest guest]

That is so very beautiful Brian.

I am not much good at self analysis. but I have been told that I have

a predominance of rajas over tamas and sattwa. When I was told this,

it hurt my feelings a little bit. I wanted to see myself as very

sattwic. But I have come to see that it is my rajasic tendency that

has propelled me into being a bhakta and given me the energy to fall

in love with Divinity and carry on my sadhana for the last 11 years.

 

Sometimes I am put in the mood of a baby or a small child and I just

call Maa, Maa, Maa, Maa over and over again. And even though I keep

on crying, I am very aware of Her presence. I just keep on crying

because I don't want Her to leave or set me down (just like a spoiled

baby). I am now at a point that I can feel Her working through me,

using my eyes and hands and feet; taking me places; giving me jobs to

do. When I, Ardis, don't know where something is (keys, glasses,

papers) I just ask Her and she points my eyes and hands in the right

direction. She can see through things. This morning She found my

glasses under a thick sleeping bag. I always am sure to thank Her.

My father's favorite hymn was "In the Garden". It goes like this: "I

walk in the Garden alone, while the dew is still on the roses. And

the Voice I hear, whispering in my ear, the Son of God discloses.

And He walks with me and He talks with me and He tells me I am His

Own. And the joy I bear as I tarry there, few other have ever

known." It reminds me of Sri Ramakrishna walking in the gardens at

Dakshineshwar with his Beloved Mother Kali. This is the song of the

bhakta walking in a daily walk with their ishta devata. Ramakrishna

blessed all of us with his ability to move back and forth between the

life of the bhakta and the life of complete and total absorption and

Divine Union. Just as eternity is a single moment, Sri Ramakrishna

is very much with us in each moment. As are Shree Maa and Swami

Satyananda Saraswati.

Jai Maa!!! Jai Swamiji!!! Jai Ramakrishna!!! Jai Sarada Devi!!!

"Brian McKee" <brian (AT) soulspark (DOT) org>

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 18:02:39 -0500 (EST)

The dual nature of desire.

I learned something a couple of days ago. Well, "learned" as a word

doesn't do it justice. I guess it was a realization.

Desire, which is considered to be one of the biggest obstacles to a

person's spritual progress, also happens to be the most powerful tool

at his disposal for spiritual enlightenment.

RamakKrishna, when he was young, was felt to be a bit off (to put it

nicely), because he ran around crying to Murti's, "Maa! Maa! Please

Maa!"

I now understand why he did that. He knew consciousness existed but

had not yet experienced it. He had seen the goddess on the mount but

had not yet become her husband. Ramakrishna desired mother so badly

that he lost himself to the desire and thus enabled her to enter into

his body.

What I learned is simply that if I desire the goddess to come to me,

if I can build the desire to the fullness of my being, if I can build

that desire even greater than my fears of self anihilation, then

goddess will come to me. Consciousness will come.

This is not a mental process, this is a process that relates to

feeling. You can feel her in your body as you literally lust after

her long a teenage boy lusts after a runway model. This lust is not

physical, that example was just a metaphor.

Yesterday, while waiting to see my doctor I practiced two techniques

of meditation. One was to feel my body and ignore my thoughts. Its

just allowing myself to feel my body. The second is to desire

goddess. Literally call for her, want her, need her, desire her with

all my heart and soul.

"Maa, Maa, Please Maa! Come into my heart and make me one with you!"

The result was an eyes open meditation like I've never experienced

before. I could feel her energy within me. I could feel the cells in

my body charging with consciousness.

It is such a wonderful feeling that I've asked her for a boon. "Please

mother, let me desire you for the rest of eternity."

Namaste,

Brian

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