Guest guest Posted February 13, 2004 Report Share Posted February 13, 2004 Hi Steve, I'm not sure what brought all of the following on. I hope you realize I say it with the best of intentions. Presence is devoid of thought. Look for the spaces between the words like you would look for the space between the white lines while driving down the highway. See not the lines, but the lack of lines and there you will find her. As for desire to do silly things, desire is real, the classification of that desire as silly is a mental trick meant to stop you from fulfilling desire and IS NOT REAL. There are no silly desires, just silly minds. All desires lead to Maa. Some may be more direct than others, and its true that you get there faster by doing the best desires, but you won't get there faster by avoiding all desire. If you desire to write Maa a letter as a forth grader, then do it. She will answer as the Mother of a forth grade child. Most fears we experience are fear of being hurt. The hurt already exists as a memory and we fear not only being hurt again, but re-experiencing the hurt that is already there. If you cannot face the fear alone, ask Maa to face the fear with you and together you will see what it relates to and that it is just a shadow of an unconscious past action over which you had no control. Facing the fear, allows us to feel the hurt and allows mother divine consciousness to heal the hurt. There is no fear once pain is faced. The mind itself is a reaction to what are perceived to be life threatening circumstances and is formed during our early years to guarantee our survival. The mind is an old piece of technology that is on its way out as consciousness gives us access to higher purpose and understanding. The mind does not want to die and becomes extremely creative in its attempts to get us to identify with it, instead of with mother, with who we are. Sincerely, Brian PS Chandi Maa Ki Jai! At 05:55 PM 2/13/2004, you wrote: >ardis i read in one of the books maa or swami said no tattva was >over another. i was surprised at that interpretation, i thought >sattwa was always desired. but then i see the meaning a little >differently now, all the qualities are part of existence. > >i fell under the spell of this maa very recently. i wanted to write >to her in long-hand like a little man would do maybe in the 2nd to >4th grade. how ridiculous, i thought i was finally losing it (haha.) > >and then i was fearful she would hurt me, if i trusted too much. >again, how crazy! i just want her to see me, or to see her. how >silly. am i not an adult person? ha! > >over time love kind of gets stuck or something and then she ignites >it in this very different way. she bridges the little details like >cutting carrots into god practice. not in some conceptual way like >zen either. > >i was even afraid, maybe the devotion for the divine mother would be >too great, it would block my passage to god. this sort of thing >always seemed sort of silly ... even saccharine to me ... different >now that i am experiencing it for myself. > >well i see that as part of the devotional life. there are these ups >and downs. fortunately for me some long analysis of things has shown >all is relative. there are movements that are so massive, and there >is the cosmic mandir of no relative size at all. > >i almost died in a car accident not that long ago, maybe 2 years. in >the emergency room i looked up at the lights and had no fear of >death, but there was also no "other" or love-center there. only an >emptiness. i resolved to address that, and changed some of my ways. > >always learning, unlearning, etc. > >steve c. > > >, Ardis Jackson <anandamama@e...> >wrote: > > That is so very beautiful Brian. > > > > I am not much good at self analysis. but I have been told that I >have a > > predominance of rajas over tamas and sattwa. When I was told >this, it hurt > > my feelings a little bit. I wanted to see myself as very >sattwic. But I > > have come to see that it is my rajasic tendency that has propelled >me into > > being a bhakta and given me the energy to fall in love with >Divinity and > > carry on my sadhana for the last 11 years. > > > > Sometimes I am put in the mood of a baby or a small child and I >just call > > Maa, Maa, Maa, Maa over and over again. And even though I keep on >crying, I > > am very aware of Her presence. I just keep on crying because I >don't want > > Her to leave or set me down (just like a spoiled baby). I am now >at a point > > that I can feel Her working through me, using my eyes and hands >and feet; > > taking me places; giving me jobs to do. When I, Ardis, don't know >where > > something is (keys, glasses, papers) I just ask Her and she points >my eyes > > and hands in the right direction. She can see through things. >This morning > > She found my glasses under a thick sleeping bag. I always am sure >to thank > > Her. > > > > My father's favorite hymn was "In the Garden". It goes like >this: "I walk > > in the Garden alone, while the dew is still on the roses. And the >Voice I > > hear, whispering in my ear, the Son of God discloses. And He >walks with me > > and He talks with me and He tells me I am His Own. And the joy I >bear as I > > tarry there, few other have ever known." It reminds me of Sri >Ramakrishna > > walking in the gardens at Dakshineshwar with his Beloved Mother >Kali. This > > is the song of the bhakta walking in a daily walk with their ishta >devata. > > Ramakrishna blessed all of us with his ability to move back and >forth > > between the life of the bhakta and the life of complete and total >absorption > > and Divine Union. Just as eternity is a single moment, Sri >Ramakrishna is > > very much with us in each moment. As are Shree Maa and Swami >Satyananda > > Saraswati. > > > > Jai Maa!!! Jai Swamiji!!! Jai Ramakrishna!!! Jai Sarada >Devi!!! > > > > "Brian McKee" <brian@s...> > > > > Fri, 13 Feb 2004 18:02:39 -0500 (EST) > > > > The dual nature of desire. > > > > > > I learned something a couple of days ago. Well, "learned" as a >word doesn't > > do it justice. I guess it was a realization. > > > > Desire, which is considered to be one of the biggest obstacles to >a person's > > spritual progress, also happens to be the most powerful tool at >his disposal > > for spiritual enlightenment. > > > > RamakKrishna, when he was young, was felt to be a bit off (to put >it > > nicely), because he ran around crying to Murti's, "Maa! Maa! >Please Maa!" > > > > I now understand why he did that. He knew consciousness existed >but had not > > yet experienced it. He had seen the goddess on the mount but had >not yet > > become her husband. Ramakrishna desired mother so badly that he >lost himself > > to the desire and thus enabled her to enter into his body. > > > > What I learned is simply that if I desire the goddess to come to >me, if I > > can build the desire to the fullness of my being, if I can build >that desire > > even greater than my fears of self anihilation, then goddess will >come to > > me. Consciousness will come. > > > > This is not a mental process, this is a process that relates to >feeling. You > > can feel her in your body as you literally lust after her long a >teenage boy > > lusts after a runway model. This lust is not physical, that >example was just > > a metaphor. > > > > Yesterday, while waiting to see my doctor I practiced two >techniques of > > meditation. One was to feel my body and ignore my thoughts. Its >just > > allowing myself to feel my body. The second is to desire goddess. >Literally > > call for her, want her, need her, desire her with all my heart and >soul. > > > > "Maa, Maa, Please Maa! Come into my heart and make me one with >you!" > > > > The result was an eyes open meditation like I've never experienced >before. I > > could feel her energy within me. I could feel the cells in my body >charging > > with consciousness. > > > > It is such a wonderful feeling that I've asked her for a >boon. "Please > > mother, let me desire you for the rest of eternity." > > > > Namaste, > > > > Brian > > > > > > > > > > > > "In the begining, the universe was created. This has made a lot of >people > > very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." -- Douglas >Adams, The > > Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy Radio Program. > > > > > > > > > > No banners. No pop-ups. 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