Goddess is the highest Love

[Guest guest]

I am so in love with the Goddess and realize I always was. I

realize now that no human love can fulfill or satisfy, as Hindu

scriptures say, the senses only wind up creating pain and need, in

the form of desire, but I seem to have no desire any more for those

things, for I know where they leave, to attachment, mostly to people

attached to me and unhappy because they realize I can not fulfill

them, and think I am supposed to, when it is only the Goddess who

can fulfill, and I knew that all along, but seems strange that so

many are looking for human love when it only seems to bring pain.

 

Yes, I'd love for someone to help me raise my children and human

companionship, but with relationships come so many problems it

seems, with getting along, etc. and the disappointment of another

not meeting unfulfilled needs. It is because we look for the

Goddess in others and she is one in and of herself.

 

I was doing the 108 names the other day, and got to more than 50

when the Goddess said, "Yes? I'm right here. You dont'have to call

me so hard. Is your heart really into it." and she made me see that

sometimes sadhana is for our benefit really, to connect with her,

and more than once, infact often, she has told me that she is right

here and I don't need all the amenities of worship, statue, special

prayers to recite, ceremonies, etc. I was so worried back then,

feeling alone and wondering how I would be able to connect with her,

not knowing any mantras, etc. I prayed. It is like in Linda

Johnsen's book Living Goddess. When I prayed and just called from

my heart, Goddess was there. Such a blessing. I wonder why others

don't seem to be able to understand this love, or connection, or

feel the accessibility to which I feel her, often present.

 

I realize I have to live in samadhi, constant meditation. There is

too much fear in the world and I tend to be overly anxious being a

parent especially. I am so grateful that she allows us this

constant companionship, connection and love, so unlike human

relationships, she is always loving and selfless, thinking of us and

available to us for our every need, listening and caring, she takes

us into her arms and protects and loves us, the perfect partner.

How could anyone else compair to the Goddess. They just can't.

 

I bow to the blessed Shree Maa and Swamaji and thank them for

bringing me even close to the Goddess and those that love her.

Thank you.

Jai Santoshi Ma!

-td