Guest guest Posted May 11, 2004 Report Share Posted May 11, 2004 Brian, I liked this post so well--it echoed some of what I have been noticing lately. It must be Chandi doing her "work" in me, but after the recitations the last few days I actually have felt the feeling of surrender. I have been told many times to "just surrender"--that it would be "good for me", but try as I might I just never knew what it felt like. After the last OM of the chapter I'm finding myself silently screaming "Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! I'm laying this thing down at your feet--this worry over losing myself and the way of life that I've known. I can't carry this, just take over, I'm yours" To which I usually add: "I just want to come home, Maa..." So when I can delight in this awesome longing and not go straight to tears, maybe I'll be even closer to Her. I loved hearing Shree Maa's Mother's day song. I played it for my kids. They listened to every word! My daughter laughed and pointed to me when Shree Maa sang "A child can be bad, but a Mother is never bad..". She said "you're bad sometimes, Mommy!" And here I am trying so hard! Love and Light to all of you special beings, Lynne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 12, 2004 Report Share Posted May 12, 2004 One big cyber hug to go? Well here it is: **HUGS** The Chandi is extraordinary. Swamiji once told Krista and I that the story isn't important, what's important is the experience. (that was a paraphrase) Yet somehow, that Markandeya dude managed to write a story that isn't just a story. It isn't just an allegory or an analogy. It isn't just a magic spell to conjure consciousness or a way to recognize consciousness. It is all of that and much much more. My life is an expression of that story, that story is the story of my life. Surrender is well defined by Eckhart Tolle (Read The Power of Now?, if not get it, its great). He calls surrender, "allowing this moment to be." Because the words surrender and acceptance have such a bad connotation in our minds. After I wrote that post I came home and Krista and I watched the end of a DVD of Eckhart we started watching a week or so ago. The first thing he started talking about was how the greatest chance of living in the Now (aka consciousness or presence) occurs when we are faced with a situation that causes old mental activity to spin to life. He said we either go deeper into consciousness or we slip out of it. A wonderful way to say what I had been trying to say. He said our minds constantly label things, compare things, judge things and we get caught up in that identity. We label a situation as bad or negative and we enjoy our misery because it is comfortable and gives us a sense of ownership. As for going right to tears, all I can say is: that is what set me free. I think those tears are tears of surrender. Keep crying for her. Imagine Rama Krishna, how he spent years just crying in front of her. What did he want? Ask your heart that. What did he want? Lovely post, thanks so much for sharing. Brian At 07:28 PM 5/11/2004, you wrote: >Brian, >I liked this post so well--it echoed some of what I have been >noticing lately. It must be Chandi doing her "work" in me, but after >the recitations the last few days I actually have felt the feeling of >surrender. I have been told many times to "just surrender"--that it >would be "good for me", but try as I might I just never knew what it >felt like. After the last OM of the chapter I'm finding myself >silently screaming "Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! I'm laying this >thing down at your feet--this worry over losing myself and the way of >life that I've known. I can't carry this, just take over, I'm >yours" To which I usually add: "I just want to come home, Maa..." >So when I can delight in this awesome longing and not go straight to >tears, maybe I'll be even closer to Her. > >I loved hearing Shree Maa's Mother's day song. I played it for my >kids. They listened to every word! My daughter laughed and pointed >to me when Shree Maa sang "A child can be bad, but a Mother is never >bad..". She said "you're bad sometimes, Mommy!" And here I am >trying so hard! > >Love and Light to all of you special beings, >Lynne Links > > > > > > > >--- >Incoming mail is certified Virus Free. >Checked by AVG anti-virus system (http://www.grisoft.com). >Version: 6.0.681 / Virus Database: 443 - Release 5/10/2004 --- Outgoing mail is certified Virus Free. Checked by AVG anti-virus system (http://www.grisoft.com). Version: 6.0.681 / Virus Database: 443 - Release 5/10/2004 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 12, 2004 Report Share Posted May 12, 2004 cool, brian. there is a center in us all. it is slipping around in a vague manner. pulling everything together, including all our LONGING and YEARNING for something great ... this is a huge focus and can pull us across the ocean. this i believe. peace to you brian. steve , Brian McKee <brian@s...> wrote: > One big cyber hug to go? > > Well here it is: > > **HUGS** > > The Chandi is extraordinary. Swamiji once told Krista and I that the story > isn't important, what's important is the experience. (that was a paraphrase) > > Yet somehow, that Markandeya dude managed to write a story that isn't just > a story. It isn't just an allegory or an analogy. It isn't just a magic > spell to conjure consciousness or a way to recognize consciousness. It is > all of that and much much more. My life is an expression of that story, > that story is the story of my life. > > Surrender is well defined by Eckhart Tolle (Read The Power of Now?, if not > get it, its great). He calls surrender, "allowing this moment to be." > Because the words surrender and acceptance have such a bad connotation in > our minds. > > After I wrote that post I came home and Krista and I watched the end of a > DVD of Eckhart we started watching a week or so ago. The first thing he > started talking about was how the greatest chance of living in the Now (aka > consciousness or presence) occurs when we are faced with a situation that > causes old mental activity to spin to life. He said we either go deeper > into consciousness or we slip out of it. A wonderful way to say what I had > been trying to say. > > He said our minds constantly label things, compare things, judge things and > we get caught up in that identity. We label a situation as bad or negative > and we enjoy our misery because it is comfortable and gives us a sense of > ownership. > > As for going right to tears, all I can say is: that is what set me free. I > think those tears are tears of surrender. Keep crying for her. Imagine Rama > Krishna, how he spent years just crying in front of her. What did he want? > Ask your heart that. What did he want? > > Lovely post, thanks so much for sharing. > > Brian > > > > At 07:28 PM 5/11/2004, you wrote: > > >Brian, > >I liked this post so well--it echoed some of what I have been > >noticing lately. It must be Chandi doing her "work" in me, but after > >the recitations the last few days I actually have felt the feeling of > >surrender. I have been told many times to "just surrender"--that it > >would be "good for me", but try as I might I just never knew what it > >felt like. After the last OM of the chapter I'm finding myself > >silently screaming "Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! I'm laying this > >thing down at your feet--this worry over losing myself and the way of > >life that I've known. I can't carry this, just take over, I'm > >yours" To which I usually add: "I just want to come home, Maa..." > >So when I can delight in this awesome longing and not go straight to > >tears, maybe I'll be even closer to Her. > > > >I loved hearing Shree Maa's Mother's day song. I played it for my > >kids. They listened to every word! My daughter laughed and pointed > >to me when Shree Maa sang "A child can be bad, but a Mother is never > >bad..". She said "you're bad sometimes, Mommy!" And here I am > >trying so hard! > > > >Love and Light to all of you special beings, > >Lynne > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Links > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >--- > >Incoming mail is certified Virus Free. > >Checked by AVG anti-virus system (http://www.grisoft.com). > >Version: 6.0.681 / Virus Database: 443 - Release 5/10/2004 > > > --- > Outgoing mail is certified Virus Free. > Checked by AVG anti-virus system (http://www.grisoft.com). > Version: 6.0.681 / Virus Database: 443 - Release 5/10/2004 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 12, 2004 Report Share Posted May 12, 2004 So very, very sweet, Lynne. How could a mother possibly resist? Chris , "yogalynne" <omgirl@p...> wrote: > Brian, > I liked this post so well--it echoed some of what I have been > noticing lately. It must be Chandi doing her "work" in me, but after > the recitations the last few days I actually have felt the feeling of > surrender. I have been told many times to "just surrender"--that it > would be "good for me", but try as I might I just never knew what it > felt like. After the last OM of the chapter I'm finding myself > silently screaming "Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! I'm laying this > thing down at your feet--this worry over losing myself and the way of > life that I've known. I can't carry this, just take over, I'm > yours" To which I usually add: "I just want to come home, Maa..." > So when I can delight in this awesome longing and not go straight to > tears, maybe I'll be even closer to Her. > > I loved hearing Shree Maa's Mother's day song. I played it for my > kids. They listened to every word! My daughter laughed and pointed > to me when Shree Maa sang "A child can be bad, but a Mother is never > bad..". She said "you're bad sometimes, Mommy!" And here I am > trying so hard! > > Love and Light to all of you special beings, > Lynne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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