RE: longing

[Guest guest]

"I have always been emotionally sensitive. This yearning threatens to

carry me into an abyss from which there is no return. It is a seesaw

of raw bleeding emotion, of exhultation and despair.

 

It is so hard to yearn so for God, for freedom.

 

Chris"

 

Dear Chris,

I have thought about this for many many years. From the time I was

a little child (and "admonished" for being "too sensitive")I have

looked at the world and been almost split apart by what I later

began to call..."the unbearable beauty and poignancy of embodiment".

Sitting by the Indian River in Florida early in the morning and

watching the pelicans drift by on their way to feed upriver...each

one an "individual incarnation" and knowing, at the same time, that

10 years from now I would see a pelican drifting by...but it would

not be this same "individual", it would be the same "species" but

not the same being. Sometimes the beauty of the world, in its

timelessness and "temporariness" is beyond bearing. Lately, though,

I have begun to understand, in a small way, that each incarnated

being (every sentient being and there is really nothing that is NOT

sentient on a cellular level) IS a manifestation of the Divine...a

form of Devi...so what is this longing? What is this suffering? What

is this separation? What is pulsing out from within each plant and

each pelican and each human being is that Divine consciousness,

wrapped around with "individuality"...it's just as the Siddha

Kunjika Stotram sings, "Jvala Ham Sam Lam Ksam Phat Svaha" And ths

Illumination is the Divine "I" in all manifested beings to the end

of existence without a doubt. I am One with GOD!" And, until that

final merging takes place, all we can do is look to the example of

Swamiji and Maa....chant with the bliss of this understanding!!! I

take alot of comfort in Maa's advice...to think of myself as a child

of God.

I salute you, Chris, and everyone who is pulled towards being

awake !

 

with great love to you,

sadhvi

[Guest guest]

Thank you for yor blessings, Sadhvi.

 

Chris

 

 

, "nityashakti" <sadhvi@p...> wrote:

> "I have always been emotionally sensitive. This yearning threatens

to

> carry me into an abyss from which there is no return. It is a seesaw

> of raw bleeding emotion, of exhultation and despair.

>

> It is so hard to yearn so for God, for freedom.

>

> Chris"

>

> Dear Chris,

> I have thought about this for many many years. From the time I

was

> a little child (and "admonished" for being "too sensitive")I have

> looked at the world and been almost split apart by what I later

> began to call..."the unbearable beauty and poignancy of

embodiment".

> Sitting by the Indian River in Florida early in the morning and

> watching the pelicans drift by on their way to feed upriver...each

> one an "individual incarnation" and knowing, at the same time, that

> 10 years from now I would see a pelican drifting by...but it would

> not be this same "individual", it would be the same "species" but

> not the same being. Sometimes the beauty of the world, in its

> timelessness and "temporariness" is beyond bearing. Lately, though,

> I have begun to understand, in a small way, that each incarnated

> being (every sentient being and there is really nothing that is NOT

> sentient on a cellular level) IS a manifestation of the Divine...a

> form of Devi...so what is this longing? What is this suffering?

What

> is this separation? What is pulsing out from within each plant and

> each pelican and each human being is that Divine consciousness,

> wrapped around with "individuality"...it's just as the Siddha

> Kunjika Stotram sings, "Jvala Ham Sam Lam Ksam Phat Svaha" And ths

> Illumination is the Divine "I" in all manifested beings to the end

> of existence without a doubt. I am One with GOD!" And, until that

> final merging takes place, all we can do is look to the example of

> Swamiji and Maa....chant with the bliss of this understanding!!! I

> take alot of comfort in Maa's advice...to think of myself as a

child

> of God.

> I salute you, Chris, and everyone who is pulled towards being

> awake !

>

> with great love to you,

> sadhvi