Re:To Nagashwari on fear and illness

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Nagashwari wrote:

I am in so much fear, I am unable topray.

Dear Nagashwari,

 

I can relate to your fear because of my own illness. Though it is not

fatal, is saps energy and strength from me, gives me varying degrees

of pain, causes severe bloating and abdominal discomfort and other

symptoms. I have found my life becoming more and more constricted,

and myself able to do very little of what I used to do. I have had

great fear periodically over this. Will I become at some point

completely incapacitated? Will I ever get any better and be able to

do the things I love again. The author of the novel, "Dune," wrote

"fear is the mind killer," and it is. When I am in fear, I am able to

do nothing.

 

My one sanctuary that I have come back to over and over is the Chandi

Path. Even if I feel unable to pray or do japa, every day I read one

chapter of the Chandi. I am now on my third re-reading of the Chandi,

and every time, I discover something new, something I hadn't noticed

before. In some places, it seems almost as if I already know what is

coming, like my mind is beginning to memorize certain passages, all

on its own. Perhaps you can find one thing like that which you can do

for yourself, even if it is only a simple thing. And as I said before,

you will be in my prayers every day.

Shanti Om ~ Linda