Question for Swamiji - Chanting the Chandi

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Swamiji,

 

I hope I can express this properly....

 

During Navaratri I have broken the Chandi into three equal parts,

chanting one part each day to make a complete recitation on the third

day. This is about at my capacity (I had frankly expected it to be

better).

 

I find I am not enjoying the chanting very much. It seems to be a

struggle. My voice gets raspy, and by back cramps up, esp. around

anahata, and there is the feeling of frustration that accompanies

that, the desire to just get it over with.

 

I have had this experience before, with other mantras chanted aloud,

and it dissappears over time. It is as if I finally am accepted by the

shakti, and afterwards the voice steadies and doesn't tire, and the

flow of energy becomes pleasant and responds easily to the pitch of

the voice, clearing blockages almost effortlessly.

 

Interestingly, the Siddha Kunjika Stotram came out the first time as

though I had been chanting it for ages, and even at the end of a

practice, when I am all cramped and frustrated and my voice seems

barely to work, and the words seem to run all together, it all begins

to clear when I begin the Siddha Kunjika Stotrum.

 

Well, my question is, is there anything I can do to help this process

along? Is it possibly the purpose of the Shappodhara and Utkilana

mantras to "introduce" one to the Chandi mantra shakti(s)?

 

Chris