keeping our why strong

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realizing the degree of difficulties that the aspirant faces. a

reality check. we are asking for everything here.

 

there are karmic traces we do not even know the extent of. there are

physical realities. there are issues at work we might understand,

maybe not.

 

there is the issue of tamas and all that. we are weighed down by many

things. there are skewed teachings everywhere that promise a walk in

the park.

 

we are alive. some moments might be fluid and others might be painful.

 

we look at all this and say: why? what? how? we are at least asking

questions. as the questions improve so do the answers.

 

there might not even be a why that is so obvious. sadhana is not

necessarily to become a successful person. we are looking into the

center of existence and seeking engagement with THAT.

 

here is an odd metaphor. you are like a drunk person or drugged person

coming out of a stupor. at times, you start feeling better. but there

is nausea as well. "when will this drug wear off?" we ask.

 

fatigue and many factors oppose our endeavor. the western arrangement

of life activities itself is in opposition. we need to be very

intelligent as well as devoted.

 

swamiji recently mentioned a unity of heart and head. when there is

divergence here, surely there is pain or some trouble on the way.

 

if there is divergence of head and heart, resolving that can be

sadhana. not pasting an answer on it, but asking the questions that

are intuitively right, so we can be released into infinity again.

 

i believe there can be a danger of hardening one's mind so that

sadhana appears to be an external activity. no. only you and your guru

know. that is why it is secret, it is eternal, it is sublime, even

when it is a struggle.

 

JAI MAA! victory to the mother that is your own heart. you can do it,

you can do it. this i know.