Guest guest Posted February 10, 2005 Report Share Posted February 10, 2005 Here are two more from me, and a little story to go with it. She Who reaches out to those in need when they least expect it She who knows the deepest secrets in the hearts of all Recently I got an email from Maa and Swamiji (I wonder if someone whispered in Her ear) asking me for my snaiil mail address so they could send me a book. I was so overwhelmed by being deeply touched that it brought tears to my eyes. Today I will go to my mail service and pick up the book they sent. I can't wait to see what it is. But what touched me was the unexpected outreach to me. How could Maa and Swamiji know my heart is broken? How could they know I need my Mother? Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji ~ Linda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 10, 2005 Report Share Posted February 10, 2005 even though it's really hard to write this, i am leaping to do so while i have the teeniest bit of courage. i have been have the darndest time. i recently had some health challenges but have been on the mend with that. however, i am at a time in my life when it seems i am at some kind of crossroads (midlife crisis?) the last couple of days have been very intense and last night i hardly slept but cried all night because i am so longing for god. whereas i believe, i long to feel the presence and i never really have. have been on the search all my life, down many paths. since i have been studying hinduism this desire has seemed to intensify. in my own personal life i need help and i feel so alone. i really believe that maa and swami are the 'real deal' and that makes me feel even crazier because i am no where near where i could go see them. i do the durga puja every day and if i miss a day it doesn't feel good to me. on the one hand i want that most amazing relationship with god and on the other hand i have moments when i am scared to forsake the worldly life because i know there are things i really want to attain yet there. this is making me feel crazy. i don't know why i am writing this except that i saw the line in linda's email below, "how could maa and swamiji know that my heart is broken? how could they know i need my mother?" and i started to cry again. that's how i feel, too--like my heart is broken, and oh do i need my mother! it seems people here have been on this path a long time and know a lot and maybe don't have such things to contend with. i will stop here as i fear that i will breakdown and begin to ramble incoherently. i guess it is just a relief to see in print something that i have been feeling. jai maa! jai swamiji! be love, berijoy --- nierika wrote: > Here are two more from me, and a little story to go with it. > > She Who reaches out to those in need when they least expect it > She who knows the deepest secrets in the hearts of all > > Recently I got an email from Maa and Swamiji (I wonder if > someone whispered > in Her ear) asking me for my snaiil mail address so they could > send me a book. > I was so overwhelmed by being deeply touched that it brought > tears to my > eyes. Today I will go to my mail service and pick up the book > they sent. I can't > wait to see what it is. But what touched me was the > unexpected outreach to > me. How could Maa and Swamiji know my heart is broken? How > could they know I > need my Mother? Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji ~ Linda > ===== http://www.egyirba.net You never miss your water 'til your well runs dry. Give thanks. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 10, 2005 Report Share Posted February 10, 2005 The longing is a really good thing! Cry and cry to Mother and she will hear you. She always comes to heal the broken hearts of Her children. It's good to cry real tears of longing for God. I can tell you for sure that if you call really hard to Maa, she will hear you. May Mother's divine love be with you always! Jai Maa!Berijoy <berijoy > wrote: even though it's really hard to write this, i am leaping to doso while i have the teeniest bit of courage. i have been havethe darndest time.i recently had some health challenges but have been on the mendwith that. however, i am at a time in my life when it seems i amat some kind of crossroads (midlife crisis?) the last couple ofdays have been very intense and last night i hardly slept butcried all night because i am so longing for god. whereas ibelieve, i long to feel the presence and i never really have.have been on the search all my life, down many paths. since ihave been studying hinduism this desire has seemed to intensify.in my own personal life i need help and i feel so alone. ireally believe that maa and swami are the 'real deal' and thatmakes me feel even crazier because i am no where near where icould go see them. i do the durga puja every day and if i miss aday it doesn't feel good to me. on the one hand i want thatmost amazing relationship with god and on the other hand i havemoments when i am scared to forsake the worldly life because iknow there are things i really want to attain yet there. thisis making me feel crazy. i don't know why i am writing this except that i saw the line inlinda's email below, "how could maa and swamiji know that myheart is broken? how could they know i need my mother?" and istarted to cry again. that's how i feel, too--like my heart isbroken, and oh do i need my mother! it seems people here havebeen on this path a long time and know a lot and maybe don'thave such things to contend with. i will stop here as i fear that i will breakdown and begin toramble incoherently. i guess it is just a relief to see inprint something that i have been feeling.jai maa! jai swamiji!be love,berijoy--- nierika (AT) aol (DOT) com wrote:> Here are two more from me, and a little story to go with it.> > She Who reaches out to those in need when they least expect it> She who knows the deepest secrets in the hearts of all> > Recently I got an email from Maa and Swamiji (I wonder if> someone whispered > in Her ear) asking me for my snaiil mail address so they could> send me a book. > I was so overwhelmed by being deeply touched that it brought> tears to my > eyes. Today I will go to my mail service and pick up the book> they sent. I can't > wait to see what it is. But what touched me was the> unexpected outreach to > me. How could Maa and Swamiji know my heart is broken? How> could they know I > need my Mother? Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji ~ Linda> =====http://www.egyirba.netYou never miss your water 'til your well runs dry. Give thanks. Search presents - Jib Jab's 'Second Term' Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 10, 2005 Report Share Posted February 10, 2005 Berijoy wrote ... .... on the one hand i want that most amazing relationship with god and on the other hand i have moments when i am scared to forsake the worldly life because i know there are things i really want to attain yet there. this is making me feel crazy. Dear Berijoy, Here is my humble two cents -- I believe it is a matter of being honest with ourselves. We are all on the path , some further along the way than others . What matters is that we do what is asked of us at this moment with as much love, efficiency and joy that we can. I believe that when God presents us with a problem she also creates the circumstances that gives us the inner strength to handle the problem. Keep at it dear sister. Let us keep searching our soul for answers and let every situation fuel us to do more sadhana. Jai Maa Nanda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 11, 2005 Report Share Posted February 11, 2005 thank you so much, nirmalananda. thank you. Nirmalananda Saraswati wrote: -=-=- .... Do not speak about Time, until you have spoken to him. > Namaste Berijoy! > > The longing is a really good thing! Cry and cry to Mother and she > will hear you. She always comes to heal the broken hearts of Her > children. It's good to cry real tears of longing for God. > > I can tell you for sure that if you call really hard to Maa, she will > hear you. > > May Mother's divine love be with you always! > > Jai Maa! > > */Berijoy <berijoy >/* wrote: -- Be Love Berijoy http://www.egyirba.net Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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