A Call to Heartstormers -Berijoy

[Guest guest]

OM NAMAH SIVAYA

 

personally if honest with ourselves i think everyone feels the same

as you. the depths of union with God is infinite, so you never get

to the "end." it hurts because you know its real. have faith and

take solace in knowing your headed in the right direction. it a

hard road but it's THE road. keep climbing the hill. offer the

suffering to MA and focus on the love. do your best in the world

and surrender the outcome to God. our karma is Maa's dharma.

 

JAI MA

 

, Berijoy <berijoy> wrote:

>

> even though it's really hard to write this, i am leaping to do

> so while i have the teeniest bit of courage. i have been have

> the darndest time.

>

> i recently had some health challenges but have been on the mend

> with that. however, i am at a time in my life when it seems i am

> at some kind of crossroads (midlife crisis?) the last couple of

> days have been very intense and last night i hardly slept but

> cried all night because i am so longing for god. whereas i

> believe, i long to feel the presence and i never really have.

> have been on the search all my life, down many paths. since i

> have been studying hinduism this desire has seemed to intensify.

>

>

> in my own personal life i need help and i feel so alone. i

> really believe that maa and swami are the 'real deal' and that

> makes me feel even crazier because i am no where near where i

> could go see them. i do the durga puja every day and if i miss a

> day it doesn't feel good to me. on the one hand i want that

> most amazing relationship with god and on the other hand i have

> moments when i am scared to forsake the worldly life because i

> know there are things i really want to attain yet there. this

> is making me feel crazy.

>

> i don't know why i am writing this except that i saw the line in

> linda's email below, "how could maa and swamiji know that my

> heart is broken? how could they know i need my mother?" and i

> started to cry again. that's how i feel, too--like my heart is

> broken, and oh do i need my mother! it seems people here have

> been on this path a long time and know a lot and maybe don't

> have such things to contend with.

>

> i will stop here as i fear that i will breakdown and begin to

> ramble incoherently. i guess it is just a relief to see in

> print something that i have been feeling.

>

> jai maa! jai swamiji!

>

> be love,

> berijoy

>

>

> --- nierika@a... wrote:

>

> > Here are two more from me, and a little story to go with it.

> >

> > She Who reaches out to those in need when they least expect it

> > She who knows the deepest secrets in the hearts of all

> >

> > Recently I got an email from Maa and Swamiji (I wonder if

> > someone whispered

> > in Her ear) asking me for my snaiil mail address so they could

> > send me a book.

> > I was so overwhelmed by being deeply touched that it brought

> > tears to my

> > eyes. Today I will go to my mail service and pick up the book

> > they sent. I can't

> > wait to see what it is. But what touched me was the

> > unexpected outreach to

> > me. How could Maa and Swamiji know my heart is broken? How

> > could they know I

> > need my Mother? Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji ~ Linda

> >

>

>

> =====

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[Guest guest]

thank you so much, ec, for your kind words. i appreciate them very

much.

ecjensen_us wrote:

> OM NAMAH SIVAYA

>

> personally if honest with ourselves i think everyone feels the

same

> as you. the depths of union with God is infinite, so you never get

> to the "end." it hurts because you know its real. have faith and

> take solace in knowing your headed in the right direction. it a

hard

> road but it's THE road. keep climbing the hill. offer the

> suffering to MA and focus on the love. do your best in the world

and

> surrender the outcome to God. our karma is Maa's dharma.

>

> JAI MA

--

Be Love

Berijoy

http://www.egyirba.net