To Devi Mandir Brother and Sisters

[Guest guest]

Dear Brothers and Sisters of the Mandir,

 

Some of you may have wondered what happened to me, since I have not

posted to the digest in awhile. I came down with a bad sinus

infection and bronchitis, and when I get sick on top of my already

existing illness, it really knocks me down. I wasn't able to keep up

with digests, emails, or much of anything. I have come and peeked at

the digest a time or two, but did not have the wherewithall to

respond.

 

Also, I think, I was overwhelmed, after initially being excited, about

Shiva Navaratri. When I read about what everyone was going to be

doing, and doing it all night long, I realized, once again how far

behind I am. I know I am not supposed to be comparing myself or my

practice to what other people are doing, and I have geat joy in those

of you who have the capacity to do so much ... but this ego is still a

bit hard-headed.

 

Still, a little voice kept calling to me, and so here I am. I will

keep up with the digest as I am physically able, but I don't want to

lose my connection with all of you, and prayerfully, I can get back

to reading it every day. Pranams to Steve for his beautiful poetry,

to Nanda for her ever constant guidance on festivals and worship, to

Muktimaa for his Maa mantras, and to everyone who contributes their

heart to this group. Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji ~ Linda

[Guest guest]

linda,

 

i think your intent is above all else what counts. my understanding

is, someone could do lots of sadhana with the wrong intention and

someone else could hand a flower to shiva and the world lights up.

 

our karma, too. we will all do things in a different way. where are

our MIND and HEART at? that's the thing.

 

some say, a serious sadhu takes on all kinds of troubles all at once

to get through them. maybe that is what your illness is. then your

illness is your sadhana. yes. it is so.

 

the actual physical suffering is a huge challenge. huge.

 

step by step. who knows what advancements you are making. we cannot

be the judge of that. only shiva can be the judge of that.

 

your sadhana is between you and shiva. and maa. ask shiva if you have

done enough. let what everyone else does dissolve. your way, your

way, look into your own heart, everything and everyone else drifting

away.

 

, nierika@a... wrote:

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>

>

> Dear Brothers and Sisters of the Mandir,

>

> Some of you may have wondered what happened to me, since I have not

posted

> to the digest in awhile. I came down with a bad sinus infection and

bronchitis,

> and when I get sick on top of my already existing illness, it

really knocks

> me down. I wasn't able to keep up with digests, emails, or much of

anything.

> I have come and peeked at the digest a time or two, but did not

have the

> wherewithall to respond.

>

> Also, I think, I was overwhelmed, after initially being excited,

about Shiva

> Navaratri. When I read about what everyone was going to be doing,

and doing

> it all night long, I realized, once again how far behind I am. I

know I am

> not supposed to be comparing myself or my practice to what other

people are

> doing, and I have geat joy in those of you who have the capacity to

do so much

> ... but this ego is still a bit hard-headed.

>

> Still, a little voice kept calling to me, and so here I am. I will

keep up

> with the digest as I am physically able, but I don't want to lose

my connection

> with all of you, and prayerfully, I can get back to reading it

every day.

> Pranams to Steve for his beautiful poetry, to Nanda for her ever

constant

> guidance on festivals and worship, to Muktimaa for his Maa mantras,

and to

> everyone who contributes their heart to this group. Jai Maa , Jai

Swamiji ~ Linda