To sudumaa on generational gratitude

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sadumaa wrote:

I said,If you had not tucked me in, I might not be here to help

you.You said,That is true.Note: Swamiji says we owe our gratitude

seven generations back for what they did that allows us to be here in

this privileged place, knowing what we know.

Dear sadumaa and all ~ some of you know that my feelings and

relationship with my mother has not been the best for some time

because of some things I experienced while living with her. Recently,

my stepfather called to tell me my mother was in terrible pain, had

two c ollapsed spinal disks due to a fall last year, and when the

doctors when in to repair it, they discovered there was no bone at

all, so there was nothing they could do. My mother's pain is so bad

that she is on morphine, and I wish I could be there to tuck her in.

But the thing I really wanted to say is that all my upset, sadness,

etc. about my mother just melted away, and I found myself just

wanting to be here for her in whatever way I can. Sometimes my

stubborn ego holds onto perceived hurts, which, I know, in the short

and long run only hurts me. Isn't it strange how the monkey mind will

hold onto things even when they hurt? What is there to gain? What do I

really need? Nothing, except to let my mother know how much I love her

and how grateful I am for the good times we had together when I lived

with her.

By the grace of Maa ~ Linda