Guest guest Posted April 26, 2005 Report Share Posted April 26, 2005 Dear All, I have been afraid for a long time: afraid to say what I mean, afraid to ask for help, afraid to trust a spiritual teacher, afraid to surrender. I have also been proud for a long time: too proud to listen, too proud to admit that someone could actually teach me something that I could not find in books, too proud to just do what is recommended. These emotions, which I have nourished so long, led me on a quest from path to path, sampling this teacher and that, never bold enough to speak about my sincere longing and ask for help, never humble enough to listen and just practice. And then I found the Devi Mandir and after having prayed with you via Prayer Club I realised I was ready to listen that somehow I had found the courage to speak out. And the beautiful thing is that the minute I had made the decision to join this group, the loneliness which I had felt all these years started to lift. Pahari Maa said that as you encourage others, you nourish yourself as well, and it is so true. Even though I've heard it say a thousand times, I never really understood the meaning of Oneness and the joy of giving. And now it feels as if I have fallen in love with Life, and every day is a new adventure. In 'Ramakrishna. The Nectar of Eternal Bliss', Thakur says: "When you take refuge in God, you must give up all feelings of shame and fear. If I dance with the name of God, what will people say about me? This is simply egoism (p154)". So I have finally started to dance, and I feel as if I have slowly but surely been led to this place and as I am approaching my 48th birthday, I am definitely looking forward to those Golden Years, dancing with you all in the Light of these glorious Teachers, Jai Shree Maa!!! Jai Swamiji!!! with love, Henny > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 26, 2005 Report Share Posted April 26, 2005 Beloved Henny ji! i am dancing in bliss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Youn have made my day with your beautiful expressions of your new found freedom and joy! Let us all dance together in unison, holding our hands of light across the Universe! let us all realize the joy of Oneness! Fear only exists when we forget there is only ONE...WE ARE THAT!!!! ONLY ONE!!! Let us dance, dance, dance in utter abandonment! May the Universe Wake Up and realize their Divine Inheritance! Jai Chandi Shree Maa! Jai Shiva Swamiji! Jai Thakur Ramakrishna Deva! Jai Henny ji! Your sister beyond forever, muktimaa P.S. Let us ALL rise in love with life! For Life is Love and Love is Life....and it is all God!!!!!! , "henny_v_i" <HvI@S...> wrote: > > > Dear All, > > I have been afraid for a long time: afraid to say what I mean, afraid > to ask for help, afraid to trust a spiritual teacher, afraid to > surrender. I have also been proud for a long time: too proud to > listen, too proud to admit that someone could actually teach me > something that I could not find in books, too proud to just do what is > recommended. These emotions, which I have nourished so long, led me on > a quest from path to path, sampling this teacher and that, never bold > enough to speak about my sincere longing and ask for help, never > humble enough to listen and just practice. And then I found the Devi > Mandir and after having prayed with you via Prayer Club I realised I > was ready to listen that somehow I had found the courage to speak out. > And the beautiful thing is that the minute I had made the decision to > join this group, the loneliness which I had felt all these years > started to lift. Pahari Maa said that as you encourage others, you > nourish yourself as well, and it is so true. Even though I've heard it > say a thousand times, I never really understood the meaning of Oneness > and the joy of giving. > And now it feels as if I have fallen in love with Life, and every day > is a new adventure. In 'Ramakrishna. The Nectar of Eternal Bliss', > Thakur says: "When you take refuge in God, you must give up all > feelings of shame and fear. If I dance with the name of God, what will > people say about me? This is simply egoism (p154)". So I have finally > started to dance, and I feel as if I have slowly but surely been led > to this place and as I am approaching my 48th birthday, I am > definitely looking forward to those Golden Years, dancing with you all > in the Light of these glorious Teachers, > > Jai Shree Maa!!! > Jai Swamiji!!! > > with love, > Henny > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 27, 2005 Report Share Posted April 27, 2005 Henny, Your post was very moving. I'm sure all of us see ourselves in your words; I know I do. Chris , "henny_v_i" <HvI@S...> wrote: > > > Dear All, > > I have been afraid for a long time: afraid to say what I mean, afraid > to ask for help, afraid to trust a spiritual teacher, afraid to > surrender. I have also been proud for a long time: too proud to > listen, too proud to admit that someone could actually teach me > something that I could not find in books, too proud to just do what is > recommended. These emotions, which I have nourished so long, led me on > a quest from path to path, sampling this teacher and that, never bold > enough to speak about my sincere longing and ask for help, never > humble enough to listen and just practice. And then I found the Devi > Mandir and after having prayed with you via Prayer Club I realised I > was ready to listen that somehow I had found the courage to speak out. > And the beautiful thing is that the minute I had made the decision to > join this group, the loneliness which I had felt all these years > started to lift. Pahari Maa said that as you encourage others, you > nourish yourself as well, and it is so true. Even though I've heard it > say a thousand times, I never really understood the meaning of Oneness > and the joy of giving. > And now it feels as if I have fallen in love with Life, and every day > is a new adventure. In 'Ramakrishna. The Nectar of Eternal Bliss', > Thakur says: "When you take refuge in God, you must give up all > feelings of shame and fear. If I dance with the name of God, what will > people say about me? This is simply egoism (p154)". So I have finally > started to dance, and I feel as if I have slowly but surely been led > to this place and as I am approaching my 48th birthday, I am > definitely looking forward to those Golden Years, dancing with you all > in the Light of these glorious Teachers, > > Jai Shree Maa!!! > Jai Swamiji!!! > > with love, > Henny > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 27, 2005 Report Share Posted April 27, 2005 So do I! Egyirba (Berijoy) Chris Kirner wrote: Henny, Your post was very moving. I'm sure all of us see ourselves in your words; I know I do. Chris -- Be Love, Berijoy http://www.egyirba.net Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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