To Brian on Respect, Thought and Feeling Bots and Taking out the Garbage

[Guest guest]

Brian wrote:

You are exactly correct. They are teaching you about yourself. If

youweren't attached, their disrespect would have no affect on you.I

like the idea of imagining that Kali has posessed the unconscious to

tryand press our buttons to make us aware of them.In Reality,

everyone who is disrespectful is just testing us to see if wecan be

respectful even when they aren't. Its how we break down

theirbarriers, by meeting hostility with love and showing them that

those whotaught them they are unlovable are wrong. Loving a mean

person is the seedof destruction for that person's mean-ness

samskara.The highest respect we can pay the Goddess is to love and

respect a formof Her that appears to disrespect us.That's a real head

turner for Her. She'll stand up and say, "Wonderfulchild!" if we fail

to react to Her actions through those people.

Dear Brian ~ I am crying now because again you touched my heart and

soul with the understanding and precision of what you said. All of

your words opened up my heart, and I am saying to

Kali/Durga/Devi/Maa, "here I am; come fill my heart with Your Love;

take out the garbage, and fill me with Love, so that I may be a

reflection of That." It means a great deal to me that you understand

how hard this is. I went through all this with my father, and finally

came out the other side, where I could love and accept him as he was.

 

Now I am going through it with my mother and stepfather, and it seems

the pain is almost worse, perhaps because there is an expectation,

even as an "adult child" that your mother will love you, and my

incomprehension, confusion and pain over discovering that not only

does she not really care about me or like me very much, and that it

has probably been that way for longer than I can remember, but she

really got her hands into my life in a way that has impacted me like

being hit by a 747. Promises broken, inheritance taken from me,

kicking me out, not talking to me ... stuff that has felt very heavy

in my heart. And the greatest pain has been knowing that this is not

going to change. But ...

 

Just as I was writing the first paragraph, I had an image come to me.

Often, throughout my life, I have used images, through my art or my

music, as a form of self discovery and healing. The image was like a

little version of myself, inside my heart, holding a garbage can. And

everytime I have a painful, judgemental (towards her or me),

self-deprecating, self destructive, etc. Thought Bot, I will just

pick the Thought Bot up, acknowledge it for what it has show me, and

then put it in the garbage can and wait for Maa to come collect the

garbage. It is amazing how clearly I can see this, so I know, from

past experience, that this will help me to finally let go of all

those nasty Bots.

 

My mind justifies its Thought Bots by giving me the feeling that I

have a right to have them and to have the feelings that result (the

feelings can go in the garbage too). But it is really just a trap

because it keeps me tied to the cycle of sadness, anger, pain, etc.

I'm simply not going to let Mind get away with justifying the

presence of Thought Bots or Feeling Bots that are anything but Who I

Really Am.

 

My garbage can is white. It is very pristine, even though it's for the

garbage. It has a lid, so that once I put a Thought or Feeling Bot in

it can't get out again until Maa comes to collect. There is a

beautiful pink lotus on the front of the garbage can to remind me

that out of the druk and dank rises the beautiful flower.

 

Thank you Brian. Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji P.S. And I will honor the

Thought and Feeling Bots before I put them in the garbage. Hold them

up and thank them, maybe sing a bhajan to them because like the

negative thoughts in the Chandi, which ultimately, once they were

defeated were taken to the higher realms, so mine will be transformed

by Maa.

[Guest guest]

Jai Durga Maha Kali Chandi Maa Ki Jai!

 

We must do what we know is right and do it all for Maa and know that the

people we fail to react to may never understand how truly loving we are

when we fail to give them what they want, what they beg for, what they

need to feed the thought bots the energy needed to keep spinning round

and round.

 

They cannot understand that what we offer is True Love, instead of

codependence.

 

Just Love.

 

Love truly is the answer.

 

Offer it Now.

 

Love.

 

 

 

nierika wrote:

> Brian wrote:

>

> You are exactly correct. They are teaching you about yourself. If you

> weren't attached, their disrespect would have no affect on you.

>

> I like the idea of imagining that Kali has posessed the

> unconscious to try

> and press our buttons to make us aware of them.

>

> In Reality, everyone who is disrespectful is just testing us to

> see if we

> can be respectful even when they aren't. Its how we break down their

> barriers, by meeting hostility with love and showing them that

> those who

> taught them they are unlovable are wrong. Loving a mean person is

> the seed

> of destruction for that person's mean-ness samskara.

>

> The highest respect we can pay the Goddess is to love and respect

> a form

> of Her that appears to disrespect us.

>

> That's a real head turner for Her. She'll stand up and say, "Wonderful

> child!" if we fail to react to Her actions through those people.

>

> Dear Brian ~ I am crying now because again you touched my heart and

> soul with the understanding and precision of what you said. All of

> your words opened up my heart, and I am saying to Kali/Durga/Devi/Maa,

> "here I am; come fill my heart with Your Love; take out the garbage,

> and fill me with Love, so that I may be a reflection of That." It

> means a great deal to me that you understand how hard this is. I went

> through all this with my father, and finally came out the other side,

> where I could love and accept him as he was.

>

> Now I am going through it with my mother and stepfather, and it seems

> the pain is almost worse, perhaps because there is an expectation,

> even as an "adult child" that your mother will love you, and my

> incomprehension, confusion and pain over discovering that not only

> does she not really care about me or like me very much, and that it

> has probably been that way for longer than I can remember, but she

> really got her hands into my life in a way that has impacted me like

> being hit by a 747. Promises broken, inheritance taken from me,

> kicking me out, not talking to me ... stuff that has felt very heavy

> in my heart. And the greatest pain has been knowing that this is not

> going to change. But ...

>

> Just as I was writing the first paragraph, I had an image come to me.

> Often, throughout my life, I have used images, through my art or my

> music, as a form of self discovery and healing. The image was like a

> little version of myself, inside my heart, holding a garbage can. And

> everytime I have a painful, judgemental (towards her or me),

> self-deprecating, self destructive, etc. Thought Bot, I will just pick

> the Thought Bot up, acknowledge it for what it has show me, and then

> put it in the garbage can and wait for Maa to come collect the

> garbage. It is amazing how clearly I can see this, so I know, from

> past experience, that this will help me to finally let go of all those

> nasty Bots.

>

> My mind justifies its Thought Bots by giving me the feeling that I

> have a right to have them and to have the feelings that result (the

> feelings can go in the garbage too). But it is really just a trap

> because it keeps me tied to the cycle of sadness, anger, pain, etc.

> I'm simply not going to let Mind get away with justifying the presence

> of Thought Bots or Feeling Bots that are anything but Who I Really Am.

>

> My garbage can is white. It is very pristine, even though it's for the

> garbage. It has a lid, so that once I put a Thought or Feeling Bot in

> it can't get out again until Maa comes to collect. There is a

> beautiful pink lotus on the front of the garbage can to remind me that

> out of the druk and dank rises the beautiful flower.

>

> Thank you Brian. Jai Maa , Jai Swamiji P.S. And I will honor the

> Thought and Feeling Bots before I put them in the garbage. Hold them

> up and thank them, maybe sing a bhajan to them because like the

> negative thoughts in the Chandi, which ultimately, once they

> were defeated were taken to the higher realms, so mine will be

> transformed by Maa.

>

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