Antoine/Creation-Siddhe

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Re: Antoine/Creation-Siddhe

> Fri, 26 Mar 1999

> Antoine <carrea

> Re: Tim G/Gene Poole

>

> Greetings Gene Poole,

 

Salutations, Antoine...

> I must say that the urge to write to you after reading all your

> wonderful post, is as hard to resist to than to look at the sun setting

> on a valley pointing to it.

 

Nice alliteration...

> You raised a question...

>

> << The key for me seems to be to cease the automatic, reactive

> 'recreation' of what has been so bad for me in the past. In the midst of

> all of this, I have discovered my own 'power of creation', which I have

> labeled as the 'Highest Siddhe'. It is really _wierd_ that in all of the

> so-called 'spiritual literature' and preaching that I have been exposed

> to, that _nobody_ had mentioned that we are born with this 'Highest

> Siddhe', the power of creation _itself_, fully operational! Good grief!

> If I had only known this 'earlier', what lot of pain I could have

> avoided, yes? >>

>

> And you did not answer to it.

 

You noticed.

> I don't have the answer to it either: "if I had only known this

> 'earlier', what lot of pain I could have avoided, yes?"

>

> I don't know if a lot of pain would of been avoided, if i would of have

> known what i believe is behind what you label "Highest Siddhe", or

> closer to my word my own power of creation, which is already fully

> operational like you say.

>

> I don't know why i came to forget this Highes Siddhe, in the first

> place.

 

I offer that perhaps, we 'forget' that we create, when we become convinced

that we are powerless; also influential is the factor of being blamed for

what is bad. The child asks, 'would I do that'? As long as one seeks

'good' and flees 'bad', the power of creation is always someone else's

'problem'. That way, it is never 'my fault'.

> And even worst, i don't know why from times to times i come to forget it

> again or feel pain.

 

Consider the dilemma of the 'drunken driver', who feels pain as a result of

crashing the car. Before that, all was bliss.

> And worst even, i don't know why i want to know such things...

 

It is too late now; now you know. Has innocence been lost, in this

knowledge? Or, might I say that the apparent desire to know, is similar to

the desire to find sobriety?

>

> Any perspective welcome as much as any sunset,

> The children eye,

> Antoine

 

Yes. It may all be taken in, safely. It is like breathing, natural. It is

our natural metabolism at work, assimilating and digesting, to the point of

our growth. All of this, all of it. And perhaps questions will remain, like

the mystery in the dark of the night.

 

Thank you, Antoine.

 

==Gene Poole==

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Hello Gene,

 

I like what you wrote to dharma,

 

Among other things:

 

<< My 'breakthrough' came in several forms, the most outrageous one

being the 'blatent evidence' that I am living 'inside' and 'as' a huge

(as if 'size matters'... ) and seeminly eternal 'organism' which is as

vast as the universe; in fact, it IS the universe. I 'saw', with

exquisite clarity, that 'all of what is' is held in its 'configuration'

by 'intention'; I saw, in other words, that 'everything' is as it is,

because 'something' wants it to be the way that it is. I saw that

everything and anything can, at any moment, simply 'flow' from one shape

into another, according to this 'intention', which is a priniciple

'greater than I am' >>

 

It's a beautiful mystery that each "version", like you said, of this

flow that we are, comes to relate in a similar fashion to this

experience...

 

< I don't know why i came to forget this Highest Siddhe, in the first

place.

 

I offer that perhaps, we 'forget' that we create, when we become

convinced that we are powerless; also influential is the factor of

being blamed for what is bad. The child asks, 'would I do that'? As

long as one seeks 'good' and flees 'bad', the power of creation is

always someone else's 'problem'. That way, it is never 'my fault'. >>

 

I like this way of putting it.

 

< And worst even, i don't know why i want to know such things...

 

It is too late now; now you know. Has innocence been lost, in this

knowledge? Or, might I say that the apparent desire to know, is similar

to the desire to find sobriety? >>

 

Yes i know, i have known young up to 18 years old, then forgot between

dark clouds now and then, that passed over my sky, until i feel the sky

even on a cloudy day or away from sobriety. A "new' innocence has been

gained in that way.

 

Quoting from your post to Dharma again:

<< I realized the delicacy of my hunger, the fragility of my breath, and

the amazing resiliancy of my heart. I was only durable enough to survive

if I was careful to survive. I learned navigation based upon

'organismic'

values, rather than social ones. I saw the 'hideous strength' of

brute-reactive 'ego'; if was terrifying, like a monster. >>

 

This brute reactive Ego, i call the _razor edge of the horizon_ in my

words, fascinates me in it's way that it appears, like the dark clouds

did to form this personality called Antoine over that of (but in) the

Creation.

 

 

< Any perspective welcome as much as any sunset,

> The children eye,

 

Yes. It may all be taken in, safely. It is like breathing, natural. It

is our natural metabolism at work, assimilating and digesting, to the

point of our growth. All of this, all of it. And perhaps questions will

remain, like the mystery in the dark of the night. >>

 

I guess my lungs are limited to the point of my growth. But what

fascinating beauty to realize that i am also the digestive system and

lungs of this Creation. This realization is a bit like holding ones

breathe of oxygen under the sea, and to come to trust enough water to

find out one can breath water instead of oxygen. A simple letting go was

needed.

> Thank you, Antoine.

And thank you so much Gene.

 

Antoine