[K-list] Kundalini Experiences

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LeTeegee [LeTeegee]

Thursday, April 15, 1999 11:23 AM

hluthar; eggers; zinecity;

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Re: [K-list] Questions about K

 

In a message dated 4/15/99 11:04:04 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

hluthar writes:

 

<< Even if one does not have physical company of seekers, reading the

books about sages and saints can create the proper mental atmosphere for

further spiritual development

 

TG: It was great to read what Jill and you had to say, as it confirmed for

me

that I wasn't alone in having to step back from meditation when my K would

begin raging again. I could either feel myself getting hyper/manic, or

fearful.

 

I pointed out your paragraph above, Harsha, as even studying on a regular

basis (with or without meditation) will activate my K, so I must be

observant

of that balance for myself.

 

At times, I feel this awareness of K (coming up?) too fast and ceasing what

I

am doing to unintentionally activate it is only my fear of going over the

edge once again. But once sanity is restored, it is something that becomes

quite valuable and I never want to take the chance of losing again.

 

Do you feel this is fear, or just creating a balance? Taking a risk in this

area to continue meditation/study on a regular basis is just out of the

question for me... am I a wimp or whaaaaat? LOL

 

Love,

xxxtg

 

 

Harsha: Actually I think you are just totally wonderful TG. That's the

truth. I do wish you and your son well and people to embrace you always in

Satsangh. To do that which feels easy, natural, and comfortable is alright.

To be gentle with others and one's own self is always good. Because there

are different stages of life, one need not compare oneself with others. At

each stage there is a different pull. Right now your priority is to bring up

your son. And that is a spiritual practice exceeding others. There is no

other place to be and no particular experience to seek (than the one you are

now having TG). One can remain content in peace with that acceptance. If one

seeks a particular experience (Kundalini related or otherwise) that is

alright as well. What feels right, feels right for some reason, and what

feels wrong feels wrong for some reason. When we love our work, it is no

longer labor. This is why parents do not mind working hard for their

children. Our nature is that of meditation. Shakti is nothing other than

consciousness. The manifestations of Shakti are consciousness in movement.

If you remain indifferent to the movements (manifestations and experiences

of Kundalini Shakti), The Shakti Itself will show you, that there is only

Shakti, That Is the Self, and That Is Only You.