Death of a member

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>MsSheWolf

>Fri, 23 Apr 1999 14:29:48 EDT

>[K-list] Death

>CC: kundalini

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>Many of you will recognize the name, Rick Puravs. His email address was:

>ric51

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>He was my closet friend and lover. Yesterday he called me at lunch just like

>he had done for the last three years. He had been feeling badly for about

>two weeks, complaining of various symptoms, including chest pain. He said it

>was probably just K, and was doing meditation and cleansing. He would never

>to anything that was suggested by me, being a very stubborn person. I told

>him not to ignore this and go to the doctor. I scolded him, something I now

>regret. Today there was no call. I got worried and called his house and his

>ten year old son, Joseph, told me, "He is dead. He went back to work and

>finished his work and then went to the health center, and while he was

>filling out the forms he had a heart attack and died." For those of you who

>knew him, you will remember him as a Buddhist, a very brilliant person, very

>spiritual, very helpful. My heart is very heavy. He wanted to marry me so

>much, and I was finally getting to the place where I thought I could marry

>him. He wanted us to connect fully in this life so we could come together in

>the next and for eternity. That is how much he loved me. We bought a

>beautiful east Indian dress for the wedding (I should have married him Maybe

>I could have saved his life.) All of his friends and family are telling me

>that he loved me more than anything and anybody. They want me to come to

>Michigan for the funeral, but I don't want to see him dead. He was beautiful

>in his own way and in my eyes. I just didn't think marriage was necessary.

>How I wish I had given that to him, said the words, heard the congratulations

>of friends and family. He knows I love him. He has always known, probably

>for centuries.

>

>I keep talking to him, just in case he is here. I email him notes telling

>him I love him. His aol screen name was SnowLion97. How many times have I

>seen that name on this computer. I would bet it is in excess of a thousand

>times. Now I won't ever see it again. I know it is not important, but

>remember, I just learned of this at 12:45 pm EST. I am very fragile. I feel

>very alone. Talk to me, Rick! Please just one more time before you go

>