Past Life/i am/musings on diety redux

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On Fri, 14 May 1999, David Bozzi wrote:

> David Bozzi <david.bozzi

>

> Past life is not an exclusive or special thing at all.

> There is but one Self. One life.

> I am the sun, the rain, the saint, the whore

> and every blade of grass and piece of trash.

>

> Whatever is relived, whatever is remembered

> don't forget I Am.

> (it's only me)

 

look beyond the small and large.

 

simply live in time.

 

Forget the dictionary of thought that thinks its me.

 

 

if 'i am' is the place before the orgin of suffering, perhaps that is it,

 

but its so easy to confuse 'i am' with what truely is out there. If this

expansion includes all things, all beings, times, situations, planets,

functions, it becomes rather formless and full.

 

what then can say for it 'i am'? Nothing is seperate from it. Nothing is

not it, nothing is it.

 

then i wonder if past life is simply an echo-trace in the stream of life.

 

Right now, is the summation of all experience and past lives too. I've

heard that to see one's past, look at one's present. If one is not so

happy or something, then something is wrong upstairs, bad karmic habits,

that need fixing.

 

in the end, i have to wonder if its simply the lights are on, flashing,

but like, nobody's really home.

 

Someone asked Rinpoche what he thought of god. He looked at each of us and

laughed a bit, and then said something like, 'you are god'. (i may be

remembering that wrong, but its the same sort of line as "Buddha is in

each being" i think, thats how i took it anyway.).

 

like i said before, even tho i will say im not a theist, some

definitions of god that include this sort of formless fullness, form is

empty empty is form idea, im not so sure are different from Sunyata.

 

This list had been wonderful in crushing my ideas of how theism works.

Also i love reading about Guru devotion, as its so important on my path

too.

 

It bothered me tho, chatting with a Krishna devotee once. i asked 'well if

god is sparking you, how can you not say that at primordial reality level

you are not god?". he got a bit upset at me i think, i did not mean to do

that. Some folks i think need that seperation idea. To take it away with

non-dualistic logic causes them suffering.

 

Last night we were blessed with another Lama in town. He's one who can

make the heartlights spin! Wonderful! Swami Chetananda did that too.

Actually so did the mahamantra of the krisna folks

 

 

enuf rambling

 

--janpa