Guest guest Posted August 11, 1999 Report Share Posted August 11, 1999 Hi everybody. I'm going to be off line for several weeks while I move from Washington, D.C. to rural New Mexico. Like my relocation here from L.A. two years ago, this move has that uncanny feeling of "being moved," riding some sort of unseen wave beneath and around me. I was reading the other day about how a caterpillar, in the cocoon on its way to moth-hood, goes through a stage where it is totally liquid, without structure. My last 2 years have felt very much like this kind of melting down while in a protected space. I know many of you have heard me moan aloud from time to time and I admit the pain has occasionally been fierce. A lot of the pain I've brought on myself by not surrendering without a fight. The worst has been periods of short-lived but intense apathy where nothing mattered, not even spirit. I understand these to be some kind of slash and burn attachment severance. The meltdown, at times, feels like nothing but loss. First, at the gross level -- my career, locale, friends, family and so forth. Then, at the personality level where it felt like a systematic roto-rootering was scouring out my psyche, whereby every little scabby, grotty ego-holding floated up for my attention. Actual people from way back in my past suddenly appeared in my life to finish business. Very weird. The point of all this was to slowly turn into nobody special. And at the same time become Everybody. And frequently I know that I am All That Is. Recently I knew a corner had been turned and it wasn't all about loss any more, but possibility. I don't know what I would have done during this time without these lists. Thank you. See you soon. Much love, Holly Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 1999 Report Share Posted August 11, 1999 Hbarrett47 [Hbarrett47] Wednesday, August 11, 1999 11:08 AM ; iam moving along Hbarrett47 Hi everybody. I'm going to be off line for several weeks while I move from Washington, D.C. to rural New Mexico. Like my relocation here from L.A. two years ago, this move has that uncanny feeling of "being moved," riding some sort of unseen wave beneath and around me. I was reading the other day about how a caterpillar, in the cocoon on its way to moth-hood, goes through a stage where it is totally liquid, without structure. My last 2 years have felt very much like this kind of melting down while in a protected space. I know many of you have heard me moan aloud from time to time and I admit the pain has occasionally been fierce. A lot of the pain I've brought on myself by not surrendering without a fight. The worst has been periods of short-lived but intense apathy where nothing mattered, not even spirit. I understand these to be some kind of slash and burn attachment severance. The meltdown, at times, feels like nothing but loss. First, at the gross level -- my career, locale, friends, family and so forth. Then, at the personality level where it felt like a systematic roto-rootering was scouring out my psyche, whereby every little scabby, grotty ego-holding floated up for my attention. Actual people from way back in my past suddenly appeared in my life to finish business. Very weird. The point of all this was to slowly turn into nobody special. And at the same time become Everybody. And frequently I know that I am All That Is. Recently I knew a corner had been turned and it wasn't all about loss any more, but possibility. I don't know what I would have done during this time without these lists. Thank you. See you soon. Much love, Holly Thanks for letting us know Holly. This is a fellowship and you are a big part of it. We hope all is well with you and offer you our prayers and best wishes and support. See you back soon. Harsha Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 1999 Report Share Posted August 11, 1999 > Hi everybody. I'm going to be off line for several weeks while I move from > Washington, D.C. to rural New Mexico. Like my relocation here from L.A. two > years ago, this move has that uncanny feeling of "being moved," riding some > sort of unseen wave beneath and around me. I was reading the other day > about > how a caterpillar, in the cocoon on its way to moth-hood, goes through a > stage where it is totally liquid, without structure. My last 2 years have > felt very much like this kind of melting down while in a protected space. I > know many of you have heard me moan aloud from time to time and I admit the > pain has occasionally been fierce. A lot of the pain I've brought on myself > by not surrendering without a fight. The worst has been periods of > short-lived but intense apathy where nothing mattered, not even spirit. I > understand these to be some kind of slash and burn attachment severance. > > The meltdown, at times, feels like nothing but loss. First, at the gross > level -- my career, locale, friends, family and so forth. Then, at the > personality level where it felt like a systematic roto-rootering was > scouring > out my psyche, whereby every little scabby, grotty ego-holding floated up > for > my attention. Actual people from way back in my past suddenly appeared in > my > life to finish business. Very weird. The point of all this was to slowly > turn into nobody special. And at the same time become Everybody. And > frequently I know that I am All That Is. Recently I knew a corner had been > turned and it wasn't all about loss any more, but possibility. I don't know > what I would have done during this time without these lists. Thank you. > > See you soon. Much love, Holly > Thanks for letting us know Holly. This is a fellowship and you are a big > part of it. We hope all is well with you and offer you our prayers and best > wishes and support. See you back soon. > > Harsha Best to you, Holly. Beautiful New Mexico. Love, Jerry Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 1999 Report Share Posted August 11, 1999 Hi Holly, >Hi everybody. I'm going to be off line for several weeks while I move from >Washington, D.C. to rural New Mexico. Wonderful! If you haven't read Tony Hillerman's books, do look for them... mysteries with Navajo cops and some Pueblos etc. I've learned a lot about the native cultures from his books. He's been made an honorary Navajo, I think. I'm in San Antonio... if you ever get over this way, let me know! I always have room for a couple of people, at least... more with sleeping bags. >Like my relocation here from L.A. two >years ago, this move has that uncanny feeling of "being moved," riding some >sort of unseen wave beneath and around me. I was reading the other day about >how a caterpillar, in the cocoon on its way to moth-hood, goes through a >stage where it is totally liquid, without structure. My last 2 years have >felt very much like this kind of melting down while in a protected space. I >know many of you have heard me moan aloud from time to time and I admit the >pain has occasionally been fierce. A lot of the pain I've brought on myself >by not surrendering without a fight. The worst has been periods of >short-lived but intense apathy where nothing mattered, not even spirit. I >understand these to be some kind of slash and burn attachment severance. > >The meltdown, at times, feels like nothing but loss. First, at the gross >level -- my career, locale, friends, family and so forth. Then, at the >personality level where it felt like a systematic roto-rootering was scouring >out my psyche, whereby every little scabby, grotty ego-holding floated up for >my attention. Actual people from way back in my past suddenly appeared in my >life to finish business. Very weird. The point of all this was to slowly >turn into nobody special. And at the same time become Everybody. And >frequently I know that I am All That Is. Recently I knew a corner had been >turned and it wasn't all about loss any more, but possibility. Wonderful news! Wishing you the best in your new life... Love and blessings, Dharma Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 1999 Report Share Posted August 11, 1999 Hi Holly, I hope your move goes smoothly and easily. We look forward to seeing you back on the list soon! Love, Jill Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 1999 Report Share Posted August 11, 1999 In a message dated 8/11/1999 8:34:32 PM Eastern Daylight Time, shastra writes: << "Linda Callanan" <shastra Hello Holly, Don't we love synchronization? I too am going 'off-line' for a while. My move will take me from Orlando to upstate NY. This has been a long awaited move for me and yet feels as if it is crashing into my life. Like yourself, Fl has been a melt-down experience and I leave here as the same soul but with a very different perspective. Like Holly, this list has been important to me in these past few months often appearing as a source of solace as well as a satsangh. I thank all for being here. Tomorrow I will go on no-mail until I am relocated. I hope that everyone enjoys the rest of their summer and look forward to communicating again from the cool, crisp hill tops of the New York State. Namaste, Linda >> Best wishes LInda. Florida is nice in the winter but New York State is great in the summer. Good luck with the move. See you soon. Look forward to having you with us again. One of the VIP spots will be waiting for you :--). Harsha Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 1999 Report Share Posted August 11, 1999 Hello Holly, Don't we love synchronization? I too am going 'off-line' for a while. My move will take me from Orlando to upstate NY. This has been a long awaited move for me and yet feels as if it is crashing into my life. Like yourself, Fl has been a melt-down experience and I leave here as the same soul but with a very different perspective. Like Holly, this list has been important to me in these past few months often appearing as a source of solace as well as a satsangh. I thank all for being here. Tomorrow I will go on no-mail until I am relocated. I hope that everyone enjoys the rest of their summer and look forward to communicating again from the cool, crisp hill tops of the New York State. Namaste, Linda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 12, 1999 Report Share Posted August 12, 1999 Dear Holly and Linda, You both leave with my respect and my affection. I always listened closely and with deep appreciation for what you both offered here. I look foward to your return. May you walk in Joy. Melody At 08:31 PM 8/11/99 -0400, you wrote: >"Linda Callanan" <shastra > >Hello Holly, > >Don't we love synchronization? I too am going 'off-line' for a while. My >move will take me from Orlando to upstate NY. This has been a long awaited >move for me and yet feels as if it is crashing into my life. Like yourself, >Fl has been a melt-down experience and I leave here as the same soul but >with a very different perspective. > >Like Holly, this list has been important to me in these past few months >often appearing as a source of solace as well as a satsangh. I thank all >for being here. > >Tomorrow I will go on no-mail until I am relocated. I hope that everyone >enjoys the rest of their summer and look forward to communicating again from >the cool, crisp hill tops of the New York State. > >Namaste, >Linda > > >--------------------------- ONElist Sponsor ---------------------------- > >ONElist: your connection to people who share your interests. > >------ >Eat Raw Foods and You Will Never be Constipated! > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 12, 1999 Report Share Posted August 12, 1999 Hi Holly and Linda, Making a new start is always worthwhile. Can't tell how many times I moved, must be more then ten. Only two times emigrated... Movement only pertains to the body SYBS, Jan Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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