Shame/Holy Lesson of Earth School/Fiona :-)

[Guest guest]

Welcome Fiona .. how are you?

 

(Christopher you should really let people speak for themself! ;-)

 

Fiona, my own mother had shame on herself and crucified herself (as we have all

been

taught to do so subtly, yet brutally).

 

Yes this was projected - and I and my older brother carried it.

 

Yet I am happy now, I say .. to have helped in her clearing if I could cleanse

some

for her .. through acknowledging facing seeing and shifting the 'blame'maim' ...

:-)

 

She died two years ago. That set me free to find the real Colette .. and as I

seem

to be a work in Creation (I am recreating) .. then I will never find out who I

am

because it is forever more ... this cleaning .. smiling .. movement .. ever

newself

...

 

I wore her burden. It/I tortured me. Thought patterns became my own, through

projection ...

 

And what a wonderful soul she was to have gifted us together with this

remembrance

... she led us into meditation .. she was brave .. still wounded though ..

so

still maiming ..

 

It seems to be the big earth lesson here unavoidable ... self judgement and

condemnation. Denying it by saying it is of small self and therefore useless to

speak of does not allow repressed energies to flow freely.

That would be denail and setting oneself up for more ingrained complexes.

 

Anyone who is really heading for freedom .. is gonna meet these conditioned

patterns

and repressed emotions and energies to set them free with Self Love (Union/Unity

Dance/Self) IMO.

 

I saw/met her Essence before she died and KNEW we had only been playing roles

for

each other.

 

Her Essence is Roses and mine too .. and so no blame no shame no guilt .. let go

painnnnnnnnn ...

 

 

Be gone!

:-)

 

I reached out to heal the gap between us about a year and a half after she died

...

because I knew she was up to healing in unconditional love .. but I had my

burden

which was .. I must help heal this burden we both do bear .. I do not want it

between us next we meet .. nor do I want it to harm your next rebirth .. let's

clear

it now!

 

So I was hurt on one level, yet on another I knew she was not conscious of her

own

wound projecting and burdening her children mercilessly.

 

Didn't matter as I knew she adored me though couldn't show me properly how I

would

have wished - but we come here for earth lessons - and the best one is WE are

responsible for loving Self unconditionally .. We even set ourselves for the

hard

lessons, where we still carry the wounds .. she and I agreed to act as mirrors

to

play our roles in facing life times of self judging separation .. I think we did

a

pretty good job of healing it .. after her death.

 

 

Namaste,

 

Col

~*~

[Guest guest]

>.. she and I agreed to act as mirrors to

> play our roles in facing life times of self judging separation .. I think we

did a

> pretty good job of healing it .. after her death.

 

 

Hello Collette,

 

Thank you for sharing some of your story.

 

The process that led me to write Secret Shame came from deep unconscious body

beliefs almost too painful to acknowledge, but, it was those beliefs that have

been limiting my potential to accept my essence ... in fact to even accept my

body and my consciousness.

 

My mother has been my most powerful mirror in my life so far, but it was my

desire to live my own life, free of my mother's expectations and projections

that led me to work with Christopher.

 

With all the work I have done and the contributions of a group of people and two

little boys, I now know that I cannot save my mother from her own self

judgements ... but I don't have to live her life or the life she had scripted

for me.

 

There is no judgement of her because I now know that, in clearing my body of her

beliefs and the ancestral genetic beliefs which I have unconsciously carried,

that there will be peace between us and that this will happen before she dies.

 

She may never 'see' me but I know that when she dies I will be able to let her

go and I will not need to hold onto her, after death.

 

The mirror will be broken and that will be my gift to her and me.

 

Fiona