Glo/Rainbo/Dharma ~ Surrender

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In a message dated 10/14/1999 10:32:10 PM Eastern Daylight Time,

fisher1 writes:

 

<<

I tell people now that if your purpose is clear... if you want to know

That for your own sake and _especially_ so you can come back and help other

people... then your will/purpose will bring you back... the bodhisattva

purpose.

>>

 

Dear Dharma:

 

Wanted to respond and will write more later, as you are familiar with

some of the same writings I am, we can discuss the "levels" as being

like physical, then emotional, then mental. For me, the physical and

emtional bodies we did the first two years in the Qabalah study and

they were so easy to surrender and "die" to, but the mental I did last

fall OMG it was so hard, as a westerner trained in Apollonian thinking

this surrender to seeing the hologram, to let go of the need for "proof"

and references and the structure, was exceptionally difficult.

 

I never worked so hard as when I did that one. But above you touched

the heart of any death, and that alone, can give the surrender, to the

Divine knowing divine has their greatest love and growth at heart, when

I want that for someone more than me, i can let go and give it ALL as

opposed to pieces of it.

 

When I was very young, I switched from reading about Western saints

to reading Eastern material, which wasn't much and wasn't readily

available, but I clearly remember reading Paramhansa Yogananda,

The Autobiography of a Yogi, I loved his path of Love. I blissed out

about a third a way into the book, very intensley, and scared myself

to death and quit reading the book. I thought, "whoa, now that is

definitely different. My third eye totally lit up, my brother walked in the

room and said, 'what the hell are you doing?'" My brother, of course,

totally supported stopping with the meditation.

 

So, a way of saying that love is a path, there are others paths,

but this path is beautiful :-)

 

So, anyway, thought your email very honest and wanted to respond

in kind. :-) Thank you for sharing ...

 

L*L*L

 

~ Rainbo ~