I?

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Sarlo [sarlo]

Thursday, October 14, 1999 5:43 PM

NondualitySalon

Re: [NondualitySalon] Re: I?

 

 

I have an answer to all these questions which serves me quite well, and

never mind the metaphysical who is being served. . .

The answer is, "I don't know."

Among other things, it deals with, for me, the tremendous difficulty of

the rationale underlying these explorations: "I may not know who i am but i

can be sure of one thing, THAT I AM, so i just have to keep asking who i am

(or where or why or wha for that matter)." The difficulty is that i am not

sure and cannot be sure that i indeed am.

My one sure point of reference is that i do not know. This "sure point of

reference" may seem pretty insecure but what's wrong with it? I am bolstered

in this safe port in the ontological storm by seeing everywhere people

claiming to know, their knowing apparently being very attractive to seekers

mired in the metaphysical swamps, who want some assurance about something,

excuse the mixed metaphors. Their knowing could well be the truth, or at

least their truth, so great!, but oftentimes it's not.

Looked at from a different point of view, not knowing can be quite

positive. It is wonder, awe, mystery. Not knowing is no impediment to acting

decisively when that is needed. And the beauty: not knowing is easy and fun

and you can do it in your spare time at home.

 

 

 

Beautiful, Sarlo! Perhaps it is this fog of "unknowing" that one must

intuit clearly and hold onto. It can bring the existential sorrow and

universal tears to some. It can bring one to his/her knees as the

ontological storms appear to rage on all sides. One has to learn to live

with it, I believe, on some paths at least. Gradually and slowly and

carefully and mindully one travels this road which leads nowhere really,

because where can any road go. Just to another destination. And then what?

Where does one go then? But perhaps this metaphysical lonliness when

carried to the extreme allows the surrender to take place. A weary and a

tired traveller is ultimately left without a choice. Perhaps it is the

preface to recognizing Grace and that Supreme Aloneness that is Whole and

One, and THAT I AM.

 

Harsha

 

 

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