Panic attacks/Anxiety

[Guest guest]

Thanks for that excellent post and wise words Gene. Your experience seems to

be similar to many others with the primal force. Robert Weil also spoke of

it some months ago. Holly and Dharma have spoken of it as well. It seems to

me that the mind has a built in healing mechanism that works gradually over

time if given a chance. The right environment and guidance and friendship

can be a big help to many people experiencing such phenomena. Will post it

to a.

 

Harsha

 

magus (==Gene Poole==)

 

Someone recently posted a request for info on 'panic attacks'.

 

I myself suffered from panic attacks for several years. My current

understanding is that I was suffering the consequences of _resisting_ the

arising of the 'primordia', or 'original nature'.

 

In other words, it appears to me that one who is being gifted with the very

release from suffering and spiritual blindness, which they have been

requesting and longing for and is thus pounding on the door, is resisting

the very process which is the transformation itself.

 

My resistance was prolonged and heroic; I developed my rational powers to a

penultimate degree, to thus dismiss the crazy ideas and visions which were

bombarding me from every angle. Eventually however, I outsmarted myself

and lost track of my defensive systems. It was at that point that I was

'had' by the Greatest Show on Earth, replete with every special effect

imaginable, all designed to show me in every possible way, that I did not

know shit.

 

I now have a very good, even great, relationship with 'primordia'. I cannot

say that 'I am It', because I am still cought with my pants down, on

occasion; but, I am allowing my defensive systems to be reduced to the

minimum necessary to preserve my body. Everything is now nourishment for

me.

 

So, my panic attacks are no longer occuring, and I have been able to work

well to help others resolve theirs as well. My experience is that when

approached the right way, it all turns into a really really great laugh,

with bouts of uncontrollable laughter and crying. A person has to be

willing, eventually, to experience sheer terror, at the materialization of

the living unknown. Or so it seems to me.

 

Yes, certain pharmaceuticals do help, if it is needed to simply turn down

the intensity, but it must be understood, that what is trying to come

through, is a better, more evolved immunity. This transition should be

allowed to occur. It is similar to seeing an interrupted phase of growth,

reinitiate, with concurrent pains of movement in formerly numbed parts. So

I do not agree with a medical approach of constant suppression via drugs of

any sort, prescription or otherwise, including pot and alcohol. Constant

repression of the experience of the primordia will lead only to greater

force being applied, and the door will eventually break down, letting it in

anyway.

 

The comments of cancerous/tumorous manifestations, in my opinion reflect

the ongoing efforts of repression, NOT the mechanics of the emergence of

the nondual. In other words, people who like Susan Segal, who realized and

then died of disease, realized not as a result of brain disorder, but in

spite of it.

 

==Gene Poole==

 

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