Guest guest Posted October 24, 1999 Report Share Posted October 24, 1999 << And each day people, (or is it only me?), seem to find sacredness in life, a bit more, come back in a soft flow. It is there to pick up at each moment. It seems only our imagination, and the memory that comes from it, limits us from touching it Totally. I love You Anna Maria, Antoine >> I took this dumb blonde role as my own very young, and when i walk through the office I smile so much, I wonder if they think sometimes I am simply simple-minded ... and that is okay :-) If i am too open with men then i have too many requests for dates... so, i have not been able to figure this out, how to be open without inviting... because then sometimes i wound their egos, and this i do not wish to do either ... this is a dance that i have trouble with ... so, i used to date alot but everyone wanted to marry, and i would think but we've only dated a month or two, how could you know this ... so, i stopped being as open and stopped so much dating, also, to be honest, it's some- times boring I'd rather be home with my music, painting, flowers, meditating and a good book. So, if i am completely open and vulnerable and say "I love you" to someone in the office, they say, "great, show me." Yesterday, we had a meeting on peace. The Dalai Lama has been invited to sit on the Board of Directors of the Earth Core for Peace and Wayne James, a really wonderful guy, like a brother to me, was there, he just won the International Humanitarian Award for Peace, (almost like the Nobel Prize) in Paris. I was so happy I threw my arms around him and gave him a big hug (he has started a monument to the blacks who came across the ocean). And he gave me a cd he has made to honor the slaves, (he's a lawyer and some of you may know him as an international designer, he's a rather multitalented young man) ... and then he asked me out. And, instantly i thought, "oh, damn, now we've crossed that stupid bridge again." Because I really want Wayne to be in my life, like a brother, he is truly brilliant and full of integrity, but i do not wish him as a lover ... so, i don't want to harm our open friendship ... this for me is very, very sad, i really love some of the men I know as brothers ... and I want to be able to be very close and share the stories of our hearts ... i am embarrassed to post this and i sit here and look and think it looks of ego, but truly it is a request to tell me how do i be open and share without invitation... so, I keep walls. For some reason this all reminds me of my grandmother, she was very generous, it also reminds me of a Gurudev i met last summer, he gave me an energetic healing and some meditations, and his spirit was so beautiful i wanted just to crawl inside his energy field and just sit there and feel the love emanating from his spirit, and there were i don't know how many women there effected the same way, they were all half in love with him simply because his energy was so beautiful, there are many on this list like that, very open and pure, very beautiful, I think I'm in love with the whole list, see Harsha what you are causing? I remember once being at a doctor's (there are alot of these in my family so, i'm less impressed than most with titles, and my father gave up his noble titles intentionally which was one of the things i adored most about him his love of equality) so, anyway to stop digressing, the doctor told how he had adopted his daughter and he didn't want the daughter to find her birth parents. And, I thought, "how stupid is that?" Love is not pie, it isn't empty or gone when given, rather it is like a seed that blooms to a flower and makes more seeds to create yet more flowers. Yet, I confess, there are different forms of love for me, like different colors of rays coming through a holographic sculpture, and I have been deeply examining my attachment to these "forms" and this is still in evolution ... and i don't know the answers, perhaps you all would like to help me look at this question? I love You Antoine, Anna Maria Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 1999 Report Share Posted October 24, 1999 In a message dated 10/24/99 11:05:32 AM Eastern Daylight Time, Hbarrett47 writes: << You nailed it in your wonderful, customary way, Antoine! I've been trying to see what happens during the detachment process and I've realized that all the previous attachments get redirected toward Life as a Whole. >> Then is would seem that it's all a matter of refocusing? Like when a child wants something that it sees, but it shouldn't have it, we try to present something that is better for it to take its attention away from the undesirable object. Blessings - Annmarie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 1999 Report Share Posted October 24, 1999 In a message dated 10/24/1999 1:09:22 PM Eastern Daylight Time, Womanwise2 writes: << Then is would seem that it's all a matter of refocusing? Like when a child wants something that it sees, but it shouldn't have it, we try to present something that is better for it to take its attention away from the undesirable object. Blessings - Annmarie >> That's an interesting perspective. Perhaps it is like flowers, some thrive in some soils and with some varying degrees of water, like a Lily or a Lotus or a Rose, but they are all beautiful, and some thrive better in different climates than others. In the winter, I have Amaryllis, I let them die back now, they go to the basement, and when the Christmas decorations and lights come down, I bring the Amaryllis up from the basement and in the deep of winter I have a living room full of Jungle huge blossoms, they are some of them larger than a hand, in all colors. Then when they stop blooming the daffodils of spring have begun to bloom, so, then I get to have flowers the whole year... love is like this for me, I am desirious with it, I wish to float all the time in love, since my kundalini has been very high this weekend, i get to float in this bliss of love, even though it makes me look rather silly with this big smile all the time. L*L*L Anna Maria Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 1999 Report Share Posted October 24, 1999 > Womanwise2 > > This is really so beautiful. I would love to be able to love such as this. > I suffer from tremendous stress and many times it pours into my daily > communion with others. I have much to learn...Annmarie S. (Not the same one > as mentioned in message below) The waltz between what we unlearn and learn is often a tango, until there comes to be no difference between simply walking and enjoying a movie sitting. "That consciousness which illumines the exterior is called Shivatattva, whereas the individual feeling as "I" is Shaktitattva - Tripurarahasya, XIV, 61" http://www.hubcom.com:80/magee/tantra/mrit.htm How does Shaktitattva holds her partner Shivatattva, to take other words, as she dances, may create the lightning bolts felt a stress or a soft caress of the sun on the skin. All form of dance is beautiful, for deep "someplace" we are both shiva and shakti. Enjoy the dance, Antoine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 1999 Report Share Posted October 24, 1999 > >And i look at him touching the limits of his own imagination. Sometimes >i will tell him: "i smile because i love you" or "because i love my job" >or "because it is sunny", etc... And we laugh. > >And each day people, (or is it only me?), seem to find sacredness in >life, a bit more, come back in a soft flow. It is there to pick up at >each moment. I need only read your name of my screen anymore, Antoine, to be reminded of the sacredness of life, and to step back into that soft flow when I have forgotten it. It has taken me a while, but finally I understand the value of Satsangh. Thank you for showering me with your stillness and love. >It seems only our imagination, and the memory that comes >from it, limits us from touching it Totally. These words seem to sing over and over into my ear like windchimes thru a morning breeze. When I listen closely enough, I become the morning breeze. Love, Melody Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 1999 Report Share Posted October 24, 1999 On Sun, 24 Oct 1999 13:08:31 EDT Womanwise2 writes: > Womanwise2 > > In a message dated 10/24/99 11:05:32 AM Eastern Daylight Time, > Hbarrett47 writes: > > << You nailed it in your wonderful, customary way, Antoine! I've > been trying > to > see what happens during the detachment process and I've realized > that all > the > previous attachments get redirected toward Life as a Whole. >> > > > Then is would seem that it's all a matter of refocusing? Not really, because refocusing is intentional and this is as spontaneous as love-at-first-sight. When attachment ends, the energy expended on it becomes freely available to embrace a universe of universes in their immeasurable totality. It is the death of suffering and rebirth into wholeness. > Like when a child > wants something that it sees, but it shouldn't have it, we try to > present > something that is better for it to take its attention away from the > undesirable object. Blessings - Annmarie > There is no "undesirable object," it is attachment that incurs suffering. http://come.to/realization http://www.users.uniserve.com/~samuel/brucemrg.htm http://www.users.uniserve.com/~samuel/brucsong.htm _ _________________ Get the Internet just the way you want it. Free software, free e-mail, and free Internet access for a month! Try Juno Web: http://dl.www.juno.com/dynoget/tagj. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 1999 Report Share Posted October 24, 1999 In a message dated 10/24/1999 1:46:24 PM Atlantic Daylight Time, RainboLily writes: << For some reason this all reminds me of my grandmother, she was very generous, it also reminds me of a Gurudev i met last summer, he gave me an energetic healing and some meditations, and his spirit was so beautiful i wanted just to crawl inside his energy field and just sit there and feel the love emanating from his spirit, and there were i don't know how many women there effected the same way, they were all half in love with him simply because his energy was so beautiful, there are many on this list like that, very open and pure, very beautiful, I think I'm in love with the whole list, see Harsha what you are causing? >> You wrote a long and a sensitive post Rainbo. Your posts often are difficult to respond to as they challenge others to be equally open spiritually, vulnerable, and compassionate enough to explore deeply the issues of life. So when Antoine responds to you, it is simply music to our ears I think. As I muddle through life an occasional song of innocence and purity is nice to hear and for that I am grateful. I hear that song more often since I started this list. Many years ago, I was speaking to my Gurudev's secretary on the phone. She is a retired school teacher in her 70s and her name in Sanskrit means "motherly love." I told her that I sometimes missed the old days when I hung around the meditation center and walked my teacher back to his apartment after his lectures. It is the satsanga that I missed I told her. All those lovely people and beautiful vibrations. So as we were speaking she said, "You will create your own satsangha Harshadeva (my initiated name). And we laughed. Well, so here we are. It is a Satsangha. The physical presence may not be there but the mental atmosphere is there and for that I am grateful. At some point, there might be a physical presence and structure as well. Ideas are always in the subtle realm before materializing in the physical. The current has its own flow. We are along for the ride :-). Love to all Harsha Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 1999 Report Share Posted October 24, 1999 Bruce Morgen <editor Not really, because refocusing is intentional and this is as spontaneous as love-at-first-sight. When attachment ends, the energy expended on it becomes freely available to embrace a universe of universes in their immeasurable totality. It is the death of suffering and rebirth into wholeness. >Like when a child >wants something that it sees, but it shouldn't have it, we try to >present >something that is better for it to take its attention away from the >undesirable object. Blessings - Annmarie > There is no "undesirable object," it is attachment that incurs suffering. Brilliant Sir! Scriptures tell us that pain and pleasure are twins. Attachment to one implies attachment to the other. Both have their source in the mind. What is the source of the mind, ask the wise? A Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 1999 Report Share Posted October 25, 1999 In a message dated 10/24/1999 7:53:35 PM Eastern Daylight Time, HarshaIMTM writes: << You wrote a long and a sensitive post Rainbo. Your posts often are difficult to respond to as they challenge others to be equally open spiritually, vulnerable, and compassionate enough to explore deeply the issues of life >> You may once again thank Antoine, who challenged me, but i am bored with me :-) ... soft, gentle, smile, ... yes, response is like music ... thank you Harsha for this beautiful space ... the Sun shines gloriously today, carresing my skin like warm honey as i sit and write this morning. Wrote a post to a Jung List, which is a tenemos fire circle, Mercurian, on the home for traumatized children we are seeking to build here, as part of the Earth Peace Core ... the wind, the sword of air cut through the air and entered the life blood, the waters, of compassion. Maureen, who heads a center for schizophrenics in Australia offered to help me, and i was touched by the brilliance of air, entering the waters of compassion... like a dove riding the waves, and gently stroked its wings and became the passion of compassion, the with-passion, com-passion, where one enters and merges with one in need and becomes centered in understanding the depths of the collective ocean of bliss and sorrow ... so beautiful to begin this day with such ... the passion of compassion ... in healing others we are healed.. Bruce, thank you for your brilliant response, there is nothing to add to what you wrote except heartfelt gratitude. Mira, umm, "ambi-guous" "ambi-valent" "ambi-dextrous" eternal abyss... eternal canyons ... eternal life ... internal fear ... versus eternal love :-) Antoine, as usual you leave me speechless, and i fly like a dove whose heart beats too fast, may i land on a twig of the tree, will you hold the dove gently? With Eternal Gratitude for Compassion, ~ moi ~ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 1999 Report Share Posted October 25, 1999 In a message dated 10/24/99 9:11:16 PM Eastern Daylight Time, ashokaraja writes: << Not really, because refocusing is intentional and this is as spontaneous as love-at-first-sight. >> Actually the child's reaction may be spontaneous, but the parents attempt to change the childs focus is very deliberate. Metta, Annmarie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 1999 Report Share Posted October 25, 1999 RainboLily wrote: > Antoine, as usual you leave me speechless, and i fly like a dove > whose heart beats too fast, may i land on a twig of the tree, will > you hold the dove gently? > > With Eternal Gratitude for Compassion, > ~ moi ~ Like water holds a fish i will be your air gentle dove. Antoine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 31, 1999 Report Share Posted October 31, 1999 << Antoine <carrea RainboLily wrote: > i fly like a dove > whose heart beats too fast, may i land on a twig of the tree, will > you hold the dove gently? > Love, Anna Maria Like water holds a fish i will be your air gentle dove. Antoine >> I love You Anna Maria, Antoine I love You Antoine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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