Guest guest Posted November 25, 1999 Report Share Posted November 25, 1999 but i did total one car... stoplight was not 'red' so i did not stop, boom, crash, one hysterical hour of my life started. (so much for the yogic calm mind...) there was an older gentleman at the scene chiding me like he knew i should know better 'material object, you could have been dead!'. sudden urge to go into the forest for a few years and meditate on the nature of mind... stupid knot i have near my heart chakra is back too, makes it painful to sit in mediation for too long, it *hurts*. sangha friend is caring for someone dying, another sangha member goes to New mexico, probably to die from her leukemia. i have a new job. looks like a new car now too. last january, we all got this big initiation, which started this very strange year. First i got sick with Epstein-Barr, which finally seemed to go away with a Medicine Buddha initiation. Work drives me to panic attacks, so i get a new job. i start having precog-sort of flashes again, but i never listen to them, they told me something was wrong with my commute yesterday. So i am less one car. So its understandable i would rather run away into retreat.... stare at the floor and question reality until it explodes...the things i do for fun ! At this point tho, i would be like Luke Skywalker on Star Wars, would have a bad precog flash and i would run back into things at the wrong time trying to help. oh well, enough whining, may all beings be free from suffering! --janpa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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