columbine

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> > But I've shied away from responding so far. An outstanding question

Bruce,

> > it shakes me to the core. I look outward into the Littleton community,

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> > children & one adult have been shot to death 4 miles from my home in the

> > last year, 3 of those in the last month. The graphic unspeakable horror

> > continues (many lurid details omitted)... And then I look into this

> > NDS/HarshaSatsang community. So much could be said, but the words are

beyond

> > articulation at the moment.

>

> Hi Roger,

>

> I've spent some time thinking about your experience, how I

> might feel if I lived there. It's a burden to carry in one's

> mind all the time.

>

> Thanks,

> Jerry

 

Oh, I don't know if I'd say "burden to carry". I'm deeply touched by the

events, and moved to tears on many occasions, yet the experience also

presents life long opportunity, silent powerful passion, unfoldment... It is

the very play of life.

 

For me personally the crux is this: I know at least from brief experience

that I am love, not temporary love associated with an object but

inexhaustible love itself. I know at least briefly that I'm am truth or

knowledge, not relative ever changing information but knowledge beyond

contradiction.

 

The natural impulse is, for me, to try and express this in some way that has

an impact on my environment. Wow, how to do that is an extraordinary

challenge. For example we must address the millennia of inertia known as the

Christian tradition which I believe has a significant responsibility for

perpetuating intolerance in our culture. We must address our cultural

illusion which worships science as our defacto God, forever going outwards

into matter, ignoring Spirit & forgetting that science can never measure

love. [science/love comment borrowed from Barry Long] We must address the

ineffectiveness, chaos, superstition, ignorance etc surrounding the most

fundamental question of life: 'how to know God?'.

 

Sure, there is some ego involved in this because there is some remaining ego

in me (when you see it do me a favor and let me know). Yet this is a very

very practical matter for me: I have a 12 year old son in the Littleton

public school system, and they found an 11 year old boy dead in a trash bin

here last month.

 

You see a lot of what I here on these email lists fails to reach out

sufficiently. It's not sufficient to echo the age old hindu doctrines about

the world being illusory. I'm sure the world ultimately is different than it

appears, yet, as Melody quoted from Osho this morning, the hindu doctrines

are tainted by escapism and are largely ineffective.

 

Love,

Roger