Masks, was: Kundalini, even more thoughts

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Hi Dharma,

 

by the way, I just read your Kundalini

story. Very fascinating. You had a complex

awakening. Thank you very much

for sharing it with us. I do hope Jerryananda

liked it as well.

 

On Thu, 30 Mar 2000 12:45:12 Dharma wrote:

>You sound a bit depressed... I was being facetious, but... You can always

>take a little vacation... get off-stage for a while and watch the action

>going on... Or switch your

>character...

 

Thank you very much for the encouragement,

my friend.

I do need a vacation, though, from myself,

and preferrably a long one.

>If you don't like to feel that you're fooling someone, then

>don't... just say, "I'm trying on a new persona today. I hope you don't

>mind." Lots of people wouldn't mind at all... they'd think it was fun.

>))

 

) Thank you very much for that fun advice.

I would certainly not like to trick anyone.

Right now I have a hard time trying to come

up with a fictitious persona, and holding onto it. It is just too much work when

most

facets of my own persona feels to be very

mutable and shifting.

Incidentally, someone just invited me to

try on a new persona for fun on a game

and I think I'll try that.

>Does that typo - "holeheartedly" - mean anything to you? I just point it

>out because very often when I do that, if I think about it, I can see that

>it's meaningful, usually a message from my guide.

 

Thank you very much for the concern.

 

Hmmm... I don't know. When writing that I

had to take care to spell the words whole and

hole, as I seem to confuse them when

writing these days.

I feel I have to give up more and more of

what I thought was myself

these days, and that makes me (the mind)

a little

blue, yet at the same time I am relieved.

Maybe it is just that emotions become more

immediate ?

>Consciousness seems like that

>to me... most intense and vital right at the focal point. And I, the

>point, can move from one field to another... wherever I am is the focal

>point.

 

) That is a very good way of describing it.

Yes, I also agree with you that consciousness

does not always mean conscious thinking or

verbalizing, by far.

To me it seems to be one continuous

feeling of being, not as "I am" but like

an ongoing "is, is, is, is etc".

Pure being spread over time.

>>strange issue indeed, but there seems to be

>>a consciousness permeating everything,

>>was /has been very odd and quite surprising.

>>I'll post more about that later on.

>

>I'll be interested in that.

 

Eeeks, now I have forgotten what I wanted

to say about that subject.

Every day I think up lots of things to say to

the list, and then it just disappears, or

feels pointless to say. :/

 

Well, thank you for responding and sharing

of your experience, Dharma.

 

Love,

 

Amanda.

 

 

 

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