Guest guest Posted August 22, 2000 Report Share Posted August 22, 2000 In a message dated 08/22/2000 9:01:24 AM Eastern Daylight Time, writes: << Dear Rainbo, I'm now thinking that my "problem" is about faith. I need an experience that will give me a faith, for my faith is my truth. We just could live according to our level of understanding. What do you say about that? Thanks for your understanding and insightful idea. With Love & Light, Nasir >> Dear Nasir, Here is a try at writing on a rather difficult subject to define (for me). Faith is a grace. Faith is trusting that I give Divine this piece of my life and Divine will work it out. Then I give another piece of my life. Or, I develop Faith and pray that it grows. I once had three experiences where i *knew* in a row, very beautiful, mystical, and you would think that would be it. Other experiences, other times, yet still.. sigh. Still I can doubt. I was very lucky in the last experience I slipped into mystic sight, and *saw* love all around me. I dropped my son off at nursery school, this is about five years ago, and all the children came and threw their arms about me. And, honestly, had the children not done that, I would even doubt I had the experience. I'm turning red just to write this, but it's true. An avatar, Jesus Christ, said, "with faith the size of a mustard seed, we could move mountains." Often, I know. And, sometimes, I simply doubt. When I doubt, I think my fear is greater than my love. Then I pray. For a long time, I've just meditated. I've slowed on the meditation and just live, but interestingly, I pray alot for people, events, to let go of any unhealed issues with anyone in my life, to ask God, as Antoine describes a sense, " to be the Dragon, to eat the air," something I've thought alot about lately. In one sense, I am extremely lucky in that I have never in my life questioned the existence of Divine. On the other hand, how much faith I have is a completely different issue <g>. Very difficult to write on this, sorry, here is a try. Let me know what your own experiences are and anyone and everyone else... as I'm in digest mode, there may be already 20 responses <g> i don't know... L*L*L Annette Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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